The Forgotten Land

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Dear Friends,

It's been a long time since i last posted something so this is what i have been going throught for the past few weeks. Yes, i was busy with Driving. Driving a manual Car, will make you have more concentration. Coordination between your hands and legs. The brake, Accelerator and the Cluth. Oh man, just when i had the hang of things my brain shuts down and i felt like sleeping. I sort of crap up the whole thing. I'm too scared to knock into people and cars. I don't want people to die, so i want to drive by myself. To learn it first but i guess it's God's plan for me to learn on the open road to gain as much exp. as possible so i can lvl up. Lol. Can wait to grow to lvl 100 by next month. I wish i can say life is good in school but no. It isn't one good. My project mates are not coming to school. They refuse to meet for project meeting, I seriously hope God has a good plan for me. I want good grade to pull up my GPA. it's dropping due to my java. I need to make it grow again and my current grade wil never enable me to go to Uni. Every friday there will be my driving lessons and than bible study in church.Something which i now look forward to alot. Yes learning the words of the Lord brings great joy. Not only singing praises gives joy but reading his words changes your life. I skipped Choir today. I was so sleepy that i woke up it was around 1. Lol. I was too slack to go so i went back to sleep since i was already late. Guess i'll have to apologist to FATHER.

Yes, people are possessive of their food, home, money but do they want God so much like it's nothing that can ever compare earthly material. Do they feel willing to give up everything in exchange for God ? When there was a rumour of God coming at the year 2000, many people sold their possession to the needy and helpless. Do you find them good in nature ? Or just like the ones being scorned my Jesus ? Do you really think God will let you enter heaven when you sell everything only when he is coming ? God see your heart, your soul. When good will it do to the homeless children if they got their money on the last day. For years they have nothing and giving them something on the day before the last day won't let them have an enjoyable life. If i were those helpless people i would rather starve another day like i always did before i enter into my heavenly home with my Lord, not being someone who is caring for myself and care for others on the last day. How i feel our actions should be is stay the way you are. Do not do what you do just for others to see but do it everytime. Are we able to make our God in heaven happy and not sad. Everyday we make him sad, everyday we make him angry. Words of anger that erupts from our mouths makes him sad, sins we had done makes him angry. Our actions are all a reflection of bring a child of God. Which is why we call ourself Christians. If i ever get angry never let me stay this way till the next day, all my friends please help me to give me a word or 2 if ever that day happens.

Speaking of which many things has been said in the bible camp which is very refreshing. Thus i want to continue with this no matter how tired i am i want to go to the temple of God and hear his words as they are life to me. I wish there are more people who wish for that to happen. Thank the Lord for having people who are more fervent than me and yes i am not strong and i wish to be strong. People ask me why do i wish to compare TK and adam Choir so much. I have one answer. That is to be better. They say it's all for praising God. But i also have 1 thing to say would you like to do better to glorify his name or just say as where you are ? Yes both are just as good but one has your heart and soul in it. The other is just putting an effort not creating the effort. Should i be a preacher ? I hate people saying that if you go church every week you can be a preacher, that is so not true. It's simply uttering rubbish that comes to thought. Such blabbling causes anger to me after i have explained it to him he still say it, but i have no idea why i feel so angry. Why should i be angry in the first place. It's just a comment and seriously it's not a bad thing what's so bad of being a preacher ?

In fact i have made so many promises, darn.... I should not have done that but yes i have made promises to God to serve him and be a preacher. In fact i now do not have the heart to be a preacher, i am unworthy to serve him in such a way without the ability to do so as well. Thus i wish to think this carefuly over the years and let God guide my path. It's a road that i cannot turn back if i step on to it. I don't know what to do now, but maybe i'll just stick with SK for awhile and hopefully if God permit both of us may be preachers in the future. But i really want to be a good christain myself. Upon hearing Josh say he wants to be a better christain makes we so moved. Touched that i have never ever thought of writing it in black and white so i cannot backed out. Embrassed that it took me so long to realise this. Sad to have made my Lord wait for such a long time. Yes i want to change i know i'm very stuck to my habits but i wish to change, i was shy to admit my bad side. So now i shall go all out. Like what BW said. You cannot be shy when praying just because you dun have HS doesn't mean you should stop praying so hard. Instead you should fight on and pray harder since you don't have it. If you are shy, when will you ever get the HS ? Thus i must fight on, i must believe he will give it to me. I must be bold and preach his words. I must push myself from being chained to this world to move to a world where i am not bounded by anything. I wish to pull my friends, the people i love and hopefully the people i hate as well. Into this world where God has already made.

Lastly i wish to talk about the school bible study. It should have been made earlier since there was a large batch of students going to poly since we are all in year 3 now it's like so difficult to make meeting possible. Yes i am free in terms of schedule but no i'm not free in reality. I'm glad it's being set up but i fear it will not be successful after the year 3 leaves in the up coming year. In another 9 more months the 3rd years will be gone and will this plans be thwarted ? Complaining will not do anything so i have to accept this plans for now and do my best to make it a success. I apologist in advance to my friends from school, that if in the future i do not have time for you. I will try my best to keep in touch with you and go out as soon as i have the time to do so. Thus till than we will have to part. Ok i shall end my long essay for now. May God bless and keep us all safe.

Shannon

and the frost fell...
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