The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried

离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you

並沒有更自由
bing mei you geng zi you
I did not gain more freedom

酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
The sourness from the air

嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
Smelling out our distance

一幕锥心的结局
yi mu chui xin de jie ju
A scene of of heartbreaking ending

像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
Like breathing, unable to stop.

抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowed diary in the drawer

榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
pressed dry our memories

那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer

你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past

被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by

缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
A love that lacked oxygen.

粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary

我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine.

只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le zen me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back

信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence

却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time

我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei you cuo
I know that it is not your fault or mine

只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It's just that letting go would make things easier

最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:04 pm

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Saturday, September 08, 2007

Thinking for so long, i guess i should submit already... Actually if Nah never told me i won't even know. I should speak in tongues instead of speaking in words. How to do it ? I have no idea so i'll just keep praying, until i'm filled and God has guided me to what he want me to become. My character currently seriously suck to the core. I need alot of improvement. I'm in a lot of shit now for accepting stupid offers. So somehow this life thing is crapped up, money without it you cannot live. With too much of it you'll go proud. So i think i'll decline this offer. I do not want to see so much money in my life and never want to see it unless it is for my or in the future my family's survival.
Actually do i need a dog to keep me company ? Am i really lonely ? I was never really lonely, God was always with me. Just that i was so blind that i walked further away from God thus i felt lonely. I need to find myself. Speaking with Joel was the best talk ever. Talking about my first Love, guess my first Love was the best for me. No wonder they said you'll do anything for your first Love. It last the longest and it is the sweetest.
Many troubles do i have none that are of this world. I think i must change for the sake of my love. My love that has never abandon me. I need to change. For the sake of HIM. He has always loved me and yet i have never repaid him. The least i can do is to take care of his house so that he may be well recieved and be please of us, for taking care of his temple. 1 man can do nothing, many can do alot. With God all things are possible, but would you ever like to see the church burden settle on the shoulders of a person ? We should always help one another. Although i did not help Fr with the offering box today. LOL. Way the go man.... Long road for me to walk. Hopefully God will help me walk faster. Somehow what my friend said of me being a paster lol, it's kinda nice to hear. Well i have made a promise with God to be a preacher before... Just aim for it, even if i don't become a preacher doesn't mean i cannot help the church in any ways. I can do my part in servering HIM. As long as He is happy, i will do anything for HIM. I will work till my bones be brittle. Till one day the Lord will take me by the hands to walk the stairs to heaven. Maybe by that time he upgrade the stairs to lift. LOL... Next lvl heaven. Hahahaha.
Oh well, it's not because of don't care go to hell nevermind let everyone go to hell as well. Hahahaha.. Isn't it more fun ? We do not have to do any work and yet we can sin as much as we want. We'll still see each other, our classmates and enemies as well. We can slash and hack each other till be look so bloody and massed up. Isn't that nice ? You are happy but what about the 1 person who is sad, who sheds tears everyday thinking of you. You were loved by him all this while but you pushed his hands aways from yourself. Nobody likes the feeling of being rejected, so why have you rejected God ? I was never Godly, i never feared God in the past. In fact i wanted to go to hell, enjoy life with all my friends, let's all go to hell. Yeah nice right ? But in order to make everyone happy. I made my Creator, my Father, My Lord and my God sad. Even a God will love his master, to be sadden and sick due to the parting with it's master. To die of sadness for it's master what more humans. Creatures that have brains to think, to invent things to help us overcome problems. Yet we do not have such feelings compared to a dog. What does that make us ? Worst than dogs ?
Nobody is perfect. Nobody who wanted to be holy was like Jesus when they were kids. I bet the preachers did sins that they find disgusting when they look back in their life. All the ugly things we did when we were young and foolish. Thus i dare to say we must throw away our childishness and be fervent children of God. To throw our old self and be a new man. A new beginning with a the most beautiful person in the universe. Chatted with Jo managed to throw away some of my worries and burdens. Man, i wonder when was the time Jo had such a realisation ? We are all grown up huh ? No longer the child that kid butts, the teen that talked crap. I do talk crap but now i want to learn more than talk just senseless things. Instead i find the older generation(anyone older than me) more foolish for they are blinded by the things that does not lead to salvation why must such things be said and fought over with ? Wonder if Se grew and came to such a realisation ? I need more help Lord, i also need to build up my confidence and grow. I want to have more people growing for your sake. To have the same goal as me, to be made more beautiful by you. Hopefully i can live up to your expectation of me. If i am to be great let me be always reminded that you are the one i'm suppose to be great for. I am your servent to work for you and only you, never man and their silly comment whether if it's good or bad, it's your words that inspires me to speak your thoughts. Thus You have done a great job, not i. If i screw up anything it is my fault to dishonour your name, i have not lived up to your expectations and i wish for your help to guide me in my path. Always remind me to be yours and only yours, no others will be a 3rd party in our relationship with one another. The road is very rocky and steep many shall climb but how many can reach the top of this mountain ? Reach out your hand to grab me, bring me back to my path. Never let me fall from the cliffs, for the effects would be losing You forever and being away from You. Never to see you again. My Lord, never forget your servent. If it is i being called, let me bear fruit and be of use to you. Prevent me from withering and dying, renew me always so that i can live forever with you. May my flowers bring happiness to you so that you will find favour in me to love me more and bless my household. Amen.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:40 pm

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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Dear Lord,
How am i ever going to find favour in Your sight ? Often have i gone astray and have fallen short of Your grace. Every mistake i make i seek Your forgiveness, but every mistake i make is like a stab into You heart. Piercing deep into Your skin, the torment You must face by having a child like me. Never have i shown Your image in me, never have my light shined brighter than the stars in the dark night's skies. Never was i a salt to this world, since i lost my flavour day after day. Why will men be tempted ? Why would they fall into temptation ? Why is sin so easily fallen into and yet doing Your words seems so hard in this world ? Every sin i make, makes me feel more weak. Make me so weak... Why do i not realise the love You have shown me and given me and not even return such a small favour back ? Instead i keep gaining favours from You.... How can i not love You when You have loved me so much ? What make me so deserving of Your love ?
How can You still love man whe he has sinned against you ? For 1 good man, You can save us human beings from destruction and to even populate the world. Yet we have forgotten of such kindness and went against you sinning even more than ever. Being the worst of our kind generation after generation. I marvel at your deep knowledge as i can never understand why You did such a thing and the path that we must walk to fulfill Your desired plans for us. Why do you even bother so save us when we brought You so much pain and sufferings. For a fruit a silly mistake, we have made You go through the pain of watching Your children suffer on earth working for themself. When they still think of You and offer gifts to You, You smiled and bless them for remembering You. Oh can we be so ignorent of Your feelings ? Which parents would like to be separated from their child ? God even You wish us to be in heaven with You isn't that so ? You wish for all of us to be gathered back to where we belong, to where we were suppose to be. Thus You love us so much. Yet we fight among ourself, we dishonour You and we make You sad through our bad conduct. Lord forgive my sinful nature for i have never really gave my love to You. Although it is nothing much but please accept my love for You and let me think of You everyday. Every minute of my life, every passing second. Let me be humber and take in all insults without blowing up. If my heart is with You, Your words will be in my heart. I will follow it and do Your bidding. To endure and have long suffering, to be like You. To follow in your footsteps.
Lord let me remember in every troubled situation, You are always there to carry me on Your shoulders to bring my sorrows away. To take me far from my woes. I am not a christian yet, for i am unfit to claim that title at the moment. When i have become i true Christian will i claim that title and sore even higher. I want to climb the mountain the long and steep mountain so i can see You face to face. So i can see Your glory. Let me show You how good i am and will become, through my actions. Guide my path so each step i take would glow in the sand, never able to be washed away. Teach me how to walk, like a baby struggling to reach out for Your hands. Reach out to me and grab on to my hand, make sure i grab on to Yours before i walk. For without You i will fall again. I will have to crawl against the sinful world and not trample the evils ones who wishes for me to crawl like a snake on it's belly. Help me oh Lord never to lose sight of You. Shine your light so bright that nothing can dimish it, so that my path is always clear. So i can bath in the light of your glory.

You gave me eyes to see your wonders,
Ears to listen and learn,
Mouth to preach your words,
Conscious to know what's right from wrong,
Senses to detech your grace,
Body to know your warmth,
Heart to feel your love,
Hands to do your work,
Finger to join together in prayer,
Knees to kneel down before thee,
Feet to thread the path of salvation.

Your unworthy Child Timothy

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
2:45 pm

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