The Forgotten Land

Monday, October 29, 2007

Life.... What is life ? What is the meaning of our existance ? Is it to make merry and have fun when we are young and than just die off ? Isn't that a part of life ? We are just here to exist, not to do anything else. Without God i would have thought that would be the way of life. Like Naruto, i have my own way. Even with God there are many ways that such words can be applied. Just as i have my way of doing things and so do you. The goal must still be same. Purity something that i cannot have but wish to attain.

For those who have seen this picture and reminded you of something. LOL. I lost that pics. So i'll ask for it another time. This world is not as pure as we see it when we were young. No wonder God loves children, they may be angry or kick up a fuss but it's not as if they understand anger or keep those anger within them. To be able to remain pure is hard since the world is filled with temptations. Man alone cannot do a thing, with God everything is possible.

Embracing evil is something which must not be done but hard to resist, keeping the snake near is like having a gun pointed at your head. If you do not point it away from you before the trigger is pulled, not only will you lose your life. Your love ones will be sadden and filled with grief. Nobody likes to have their secrets being told but there is one who knows of all secrets. Nothing can be hidden from Him. You are just like a piece of paper, if there are black spots if can be seen clearly.

Evil is always here, sin is always are your doorstep. It's hard to avoid and even harder to eliminate it. That doesn't mean that there is no solutions to it, there is one but it is a choice between you to follow good or evil. Thank God for the wonderful leaders we have in singapore. For i realised how good they are but sadden at the fact of the future leaders with their current abilities. I want to be a better person as i'm not feeling one bit of holiness, not even able to compare with a single person on this earth. Oh well, i'll just go to sleep for the time being. TIme will guide me on the path that i'm going to thread.
NITez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:01 am

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Sunday, October 21, 2007

Think that this site is dead ? Thinking i have stopped blogging ? You are wrong.... LOL.... I don't have the time to blog thus there isn't much topic for like at least 3 weeks already. I guess i have to kill some sleep time just to blog abit. I have been posted to an attachment 3 weeks ago. I was given a sudden briefing just after my driving lessons. Man this job sucks... I dun have time to go to church on friday nights for my spiritual food anymore.... I won't be awake until 12 pm on saturday afternoon. So i only get to eat and go to church right after that. This is so sick... i miss the times when i get to go to church and bond with my other church friends.... Now it seem as if all this times are taken away from me...

Guess i took my friends for granted and took those times i have for granted... Until it is gone do i miss them... So how Roti Prata doesn't seem so sickening... Studying the word of God isn't one bit tiring at all. Every week i always look forward to run to church asap. With what little strength i have i will still wake up and go for the afternoon session. I just realised that i burn up my fuel right after choir... I went to sleep on the bus... Almost missed my stop and i would kick up a big fuss if i were to go somewhere else instead. Man... I wonder if i should stop choir for awhile... OT yeah that is nice to hear... Yeah you earn money more money than before... But i'm an attachment student i don't get extra pay... I stay in the bloody work place to clear up all the mess made in the office. Damn... I hate working... Perserverence Man.... I drop down dead after work and rarely got the chance to pray.... I'm falling further and further from God... I hate this life... It's a power struggle between good and evil, it seems evil will surely win without God's help. The flesh is always weak.

Note to self... Do not even work in such an environment... I realise the more you grow the more you need God... In school what thing you need from God is for your own pleasure. Well at least for me that's what i think i have prayed for... When i work i think God need to work alot more on me. I find this challenging but i do not want to fall away from God... I want a change... I think it's time for my family to change with me so we can all live a life devoted to God 24/7 and not slack and lag behind. The result of this mission if i fail would be eternal death. But it isn't about playing this game. It's alot about how God will feel if his sons or daughters are not going near Him. Not talking to him. Not hearing his words. Not loving him. If i ever loved him i wouldn't have sin against him. If i have loved him i would have been slow to anger.... So i voice out my displeasure in words which are black as coal... Words that showed the lack of wisdom... Words that makes God sad and maybe angry.... Finally my evil side as appeared... A side of me dying to come out of me... The devil has won... He pulled me away from God and i followed him... He made me heard words of filthyness and i succumed into it...

Since it has appear now i have to borrow a sword from God and stab "myself" in the heart. To see it bleed and later die from it's wound never to return to me again. I beseech my friends if you have seen this to help me. For i have heard words saying i have grown... Like this new me better.. But i don't like it... Don't stop improving... Seek God more... For i am not as holy as you see me as... I am not worthy... Yet i seek God who is perfect so i too can be perfect. I believe there is a child in us... Why not be that child that God likes... To try and think like God what would make him sad and what not to do to make him angry. To honour our father and mother. Isn't God our Father in heaven ? Do we not need to honour him as well ? To honour is to not make Him angry, not to make Him sad, to make Him trust in you to be able to take care of yourself. To let Him guide you in your path you are walking, for now i am still clueless as to what i should walk but i know clearly i have to walk the path of righteousness. Time and again i have made my Lord sad... I although i find it pointless to repent and that i will do it again... I promise the Lord to punish me for i deserve it. Every lie.... I'll be punished, ever law i break i will be punished... For every dirty thought i'll be punished... Every anger i'll be punished... Every time i fight with my parents and make them sad... I'll be punished... But at least my physical parent i can still show my love to them. God what can i do to please you to forgive me... It is my duty to listen to your law but what more can i do to make you happy ? I guess i should stop here... Will try to write mroe when i have time... Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:22 pm

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