Thursday, January 31, 2008

Ahhh...It's been like 4 months already...I've yet to find the entry to that freaking pool table i see at work... Every night when the sun is down... A dim flickering light is shone right out of that beautiful room.... The pool table... With the cues waiting for me.... The table to crying out play me... Play me... The voice is calling out to me... Every night i can only watch as the dim light shines within that empty room... The glory of that table has not been used... It yearns to be put into better use... Instead of being cooped up in that steamy room.... The table yearns to be back in it's glorious state... Where is was once used all so often... Where people will gather and laught while they wack the balls into the holes... And they praise each other... You are good... Oh man... Those good old times...

Yoush... I"m pumped up... Exercise like crazy this Chinese New Year... Yes... Full day work out... Morning run... Afternoon... Weights... Evening some piano and lastly after dinner pool... I must train my skills... To be able to do that dancing on the ramp.... Woahhh.... I still cannot make it dance back and forth... But at least it's going the right way... Hahaha... It rolls on the ramp and than falls back onto the table before hitting the ball into the hole... LOL... Cool..... I think I'll do 300 push up on New Year Eve... 400 on New Year and 500 on Friday... Than after that i think i won't be able to use my hands for awhile... LOL... Diet plan number 1046... LOL... No la.. Just a stupid name...anyhow make up... But i'm gonna go on a diet... Man... I can't believe going to poly has made my grown by 10 kg... I need to drop back to my old weight... I got better looking cloths to fit in if i lose that amount of weight... OK... Now got 1 month left... Chiong... LOL...

Actually i think body building is nice... But if i body build until so big size... Not nice la... In the car... Not a nice feeling... Like no space like that... LOL.. So just slim down liao can already... Yep Yep... I think that will do... Don't care so much about muscles... If i work out naturally it will go down... LOL... So i will push my body to the limit... Do a 3 day purging system before i start the diet... Eat veg for 3 days... No meat... Starting this friday... Which is tomorrow... Veg diet... Drinks... Who cares... LOL... Tea will do fine... Sunday since no time to go church got work... I guess go for a quick run... Than go work... So irritating... But at least i get my monday off... Hahahaha... Anyway.... Tomorrow got to wake up early to attend this stupid career seminal before we go back to SPH...My teacher is coming tomorrow and i don't think it's for a spot check... And i guess get scolded for taking MC and all those crap that followed up.... Man... This is shitty.... I don't want to stay back for another sem just because of this shit...

Anyway... Stay on a bright side of life... I don't want to be late for the freaking NS la... Already way behide schedule.... I wanted to do so many stuff but because of attachment cannot do... Just when my work is taking flight.... All this shit have to happen... Man... Because of work.. I can't sleep well... Worried something wrong might happen in the website... LOL.... Oh well... Anyway after Chinese New Year got 2 more weeks.. I don't feel so excited... I feel like i want to explode... Tioman... I yearn for you... LOL... Byez.. Can go home from work already.... BB..

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:01 pm

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Monday, January 28, 2008

Ok.... I'm here at last.. Well Firstly... Woke up at 1 pm... LOL... Impossible right... But wait... Yesterday i went to Serene's house with the gang ok till 1 plus than reach sen kang... Than walk home 30 mins... Before i settle down and watch anime... LOL... Sick la one piece is killing my life... I'm addicted to it after watching 1 stupid episode at work... Why must work be boring... Anyway back to the topic.. We went shopping for food... While Nah and i were talking crap since we didn't enjoy shopping at all... Even if it's for food... I still hate shopping... Lucky my mom isn't like serene... I have confidence in her skills of selecting fresh food. Even for a student who studies food science... Well can't say i trust her judging of food they just know what is need for a healthy diet... But when we gather i rather just not care and buy more meat... LOL... How rarely do we get to eat together like that.... So we had a boring shopping trip spent like eternity over there... Suddenly LQ appeared... LOL... So we went back to Serene's house.. Stupid right go people's house... The mistress of the house doesn't know where things in her house are... LOL... Not her territory was her excuse... LOL... What's worst... The plug was too short... Ask people can bring over extension before LQ and Nah had to run down and buy it... Oh yeah they brought back ice cream and soft drinks... LOL... Yeah so the water boiled and yeahhhhh finally started...

We guys were like sharks waiting for meat to appear... LOL... LQ was like chicken... Than he ate any of those he saw... His chicken sounded like the fish saying "Bubbles... My bubbles...." in finding Nemo... LOL... Serene even mistaken it for being a different language (Japanese).... LOL... Funny... I was looking for pork balls... But the crab stick did the trick of being the replacement.... Man.... Pork balls are way cheaper than beef balls... And so much some more la... Man... It's sick... LOL... First time i saw a steam boat flooded with greens... Man... I was like trying hard to eat them... But later just gave up and played Dota for awhile...

Yeah had to rush home... But had lots of fun la... Walking back was nice.. In the night no one is there... The winds blowing at your hair... Ahhh... Life... Everytime i walk down that stretch of road i feel so happy... LOL... reminds me of going to Compass with ZX just to buy a curry puff and big gulp from old chunky and 7-11 a store and more... LOL... Than we just walked back... By the time we got back... Everything was eaten up... LOL... So happy... Less than 3 bucks can make a person so happy already... LOL... The field is what makes me happy... It's like those show downs.. Man... Two sword men are standing in the field... Drawing out their katana's they rush to face each other with god like speed... LOL.. The sound of blades clashing against each other till their edges are course and sparks are flying out of them... Trying their best to make sure there is no opening for each other to make at advantage of the situation.... They swing their blades with all their strength until one loses in stamina... The victor sees and opening and did the finishing move... Slicing his opponent into half... He swings the blood off his shiny blade... A blade drenched with a thousand souls... As he beautiful take up his stance placing his blading into the throat of his scabbard in one smooth movement... As his opponent falls to the ground lifeless... LOL... Ok too much details... Back to my life.. Yeah i feel happy walking there... Pleasant memories before i enter the army... LOL..

Yeah so i was watching anime this morning... When i was also on msn... Talked to a few people... Yeah... feel guility that i overslept this morning... So i said i'll go for the bible study in AMK... IN the end it's at braddle la... Next time do believe what that someone says lor... Still say near my house... It took me almost more than an hour to get there and go back... Yeah ok scratch that... Not worth being unhappy over time that is already wasted... Anyway today almost click the log out button at 4.47pm.... My fingers were about to touch the sign out button when an icon pop up appeared... LOL... Guess who is it ??? LOL... Wait forget it... I put on my tag board already so no point... Not fun liao.. My dad was like the church brothers are here why don't play pool with them ? LOL... Man.. I was watching my anime lor... So addictive how to ask me to leave the place... Like if you give a girl a whole set of dvd of the show she is currently catching every Saturday night she sure to watch finish the whole series before she even got time to sleep and go to work the next morning... LOL...She makes sure she gets 6 hours of sleep instead of the normal 8 hours of sleep she has just for that few days to finish up her drama... She arr... That KJ... So forgetful sia... really reminds me of Jon lor... Say finish can ok with you like crazy than forget about it... Biang... I wonder who marries her will be one lucky guy....
KJ: Where you go out ?
Husband: Err... ERmm... I went to my mom's place... LOL.. You forgot ? Ahh...
KJ: Is it ? Hmm...
Husband: Yes you must have..
KJ: OK...
Husband: (Whisper) Wow... Lucky she forgetful.. LOL... I was play PS3 the whole night with my friends la... Hahahaha....

LOL.... I think i need to get out more often ... Nah.. I think i stick to pool better... My skills for pool is way better than dota at least... LOL... But also a big gap between the skills that i used to have... LOL... I didn't realised it till just now what i played with Azerial... Even if i don't aim... I usually can wack the ball to the position i want if i missed the hole.... Man... This time... Never enter when i wanted it to enter... Make me look cool... In the end almost enter.. LOL... So throw face... LOL... I felt like killing myself... Wanted to give him win la... Since he is the guest... So i try not to hit everything in lor... Pretend to miss the first ball.. Man.. If i manage to get a pro to play with me i won't miss that lor.. He said play with me stress.. LOL... I lost to him what ? First round... I cleared all but one and accidentally hit the black ball in... So i lost... Yep... Hahhaha... Can la.. I can settle with that... play with noob must be at a noob level... I also noob la. Cannot win those who can clear table... LOL... Man... Those people are good... Well what can i say ? I played with the best in school... I got a table to play everyday at home... Most of my friends hang out in clubs playing those games... Outside when i play they play punch and get others to treat them...

Pool is a man's game... LOL... All the chicks flock to you if you are good... You just need to be good... LOL... If you know what i mean... Confirm can get girls if you learn to master jump ball... LOL... Remind me of that time nearly got 2 girls number... But got dragged out by my friends for flirting (thank you arr)... What lor... Give them a chance mah.. Dun always shy shy one... Can get more friends to play pool with us la... If not always play with one another... Very bored lor... I need people who can play well... I want to be better... Not stay like this forever... My bro-in-law always gets better... Hahaha... This new year confirm win him... Start training now... If not he give me a trashing for beating him for 6 months last year... And getting back my title of champion like... ermm...6 months ago from now ? Around there... Wow... Imagin la.. I 4 month never play pool already... Haiz... My skills are lost... My jump balls was perfected but forgotten... My aiming is bad.... I cannot judge where the balls will land if i missed... And the worst of all things... I didn't managed to do combo... Like suddenly clear the table with 1 ball left ... LOL... I used to be able to stun my Bro-in-law with that move... Especially when my 2 bro-in-laws verses my sis and i... LOL... We start planning... But my sis don't listen... Haiz... Play so long should know mah... Sure enter in hole if you hit that one... See the angle mah... LOL... It's our honour we are defending... LOL...

Best was go to the club and play pool in malaysia... Randy's friend... Man... He is good... Confirm give me chance one.. Still say i'm good... Don't bluff... You're the real man... Can block my attacks and defend some more... All i do is do the same thing la... Do a double push.. And block the black ball put it in a funny location so he can't hit it in... LOL... Other than that i'm powerless against him... The world has more powerful people... I wanna win them all.. For the fun of it... Since i love the game... LOL.. Cool... Go malaysia see got anyone playing the game... I wanna dominate the place... Genting no body place la.. Only those Ang Mo..... Sian la... So lousy one wack forever also not inside... I should have went out to the arcade and play some games before playing some outdoor sports for an hour or so before returning for the table... Haiz... Oh well..... They love the game as well.. So cannot take the things people like away from them... I'm just not a person with lots of patience... I dislike people who breaks their promises... That's why i hate myself... Since i'm starting to break my promises... I hate working... I hate myself for not being able to control my life and do the things i like... As and when i want just like before...

Man.... Sinful... Thou shall not lie... And there i am... Guilty as charged... Haiz... Lying to get out of trouble... Don't lie also get into trouble... Rather lie and get into less trouble... LOL... But sometimes tell the truth will make people angry... Get scolded... So how ? I wonder the people doesn't want to hear the truth and doesn't like people lying to him or her.... What to do ? Picky sia.... Oh well.. No choice la.. Anyway now quiet late liao.. I'll think and reflect tomorrow... tonight get some rest first... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
1:14 am

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

So sad right ? Watching this... This is a dog found at East Coast park... It was beaten and has a scare right across it's face... It's body is bloody and it suffers from a skin disease... So sad lor... What kind of owner....

This is the reason why i hate humans.... They are selfish things. I really wish i was not made... To see such inhuman stuff... Thinking my life sucks... I think i should look at others instead... Their life sucks more than mine... Friends who laught at my life during poly year 1 and 2 who are not in poly are regrating that they had laughed at me before... Now they are eating their words... But don't rub salt into their wounds lor... They are feeling bad enough already...

There are 2 types of bro that i see... One who call you bro my mouth and try to take advantage of you all the time... You know who you are... LOL... I dun think those people have my blog URL... Ok... The other kind of bro is those who respect you... How rarely do you get to find the later ones ? Lucky for me i found those that i really love, people who really cares for me... It took me so long to see... Who are real friends in this world... Bros... stick with one another to the end... Even if they are apart they will still think of each other and care for one another no matter how far they are... They will still talk and see each other one day...

Many things may seem cold on the outside but i'm sure... Very sure... Love is there... We might even give our life for each other... Like the title god is not easily given to a person... So does bros... I do not give such title to mere mortals... They have to be special people... People i trust and love dearly... I'm sorry for not informing my bro and those close to me that i was removing my appendix... I was too scared... I was thinking i was about to die... The hospital bed had the smell of death in it.... People scream in pain... People being moved out... I wonder... Did they got better or did they die.... It's a terrible sight... Hospital visits are nice... But staying there for 1 week will make you want to die all the more.... In my mind... I was thinking it's ok... I should just die a slient death... No one will know... No one will care... Bro.. Is there such a thing ?

But when i see J's angry face when he asked why i didn't inform him.... Just than i knew... Who cared... Who was the real bro... People... Those i meet in school... Call each other bros... But if one of them enter the hospital... Another new "family" will join the gang... ZX gave me an sms before i was pushed into the operation table... Take care... LOL... He wanted me to go mall with him... Oh well.. Sort of funny... I was going to die and people ask me to go mall.... LOL... Funny... But that shows how long we have been going out with each other already... The question is how long more do we have the chance to go out with each other ?

Having a job is sickening... We already lack the time to sleep what more keep each other company.... Man was the worst thing God created... And in his image some more... How much have we disgraced God.... I'm sure he knew and i think he hopes for something in us to be lighted up... To be able to listen and do what is good... Is being good such a bad thing ? Now a days the good boys get mocked... Wah so good are listen to your parents chicken... Dunno how to object.. The seed of evil is being planted already.. To give this darkness sun light will help it to grow... Fighting in the family will occur... That is a way to prove he is not a good boy....

In my time there is no such things... The parents now are getting evil... People are getting evil... No one cares or even give a damn.... Which is a bad thing... Do not be sensitive but be sensitive to others.. That is the key... Well i gotta go... It's getting bloody late... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
8:59 pm

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Yesterday was too tired to blog after coming home from work... So just came online and seek some entertainment by chatting with people until i sleep. Hmm... I wonder why i was so unwilling to blog. Yes all was as usual, the same history repeats itself. The guy is finding a way to escape to his benifits. I don't really give a damn already... Sometimes Nah's words are right... Dun care... Seriously don't care can make a person so happy at times... Just don't care... I can't go church.... I can't do anything by see as the sun set beyond the glass windows we have over at my working place... It's getting dull... I'm getting kinda bored with such an environment... Seriously dull... I wanna go on a holiday... Take leave and enjoy my holidays...

Just than hope arrived.. Ermm.. From today counting... It's 1 month 3 weeks and 2 days left before the holiday starts... LOL... The days are decreasing each day... So all i have to do is make my planning now and get it done ASAP... Finish my job and present to the people what we are doing... Graduate and get the bloody hell out of school.

Anyway sleeping in sermon is bad.. I deserve getting stoned for doing that 3 thrice last week... I need more sleep instead of forcing myself to do things and than sleep during sermons... I don't get to eat the full course meal that way... It's not helping my spirit grow at all... Somehow i need to wonder has the devil got a chain on my neck already ? It's one step to falling out of Church... It's bad the worldly things are getting to me... Is that what my parents have been telling me like donkey years ago ? The world will get you as you grow up... Such a sinful world... I can't say it hasn't gotten me... Look how long it took me to realize i have the HS ? It was so tiny as well.... Hard to hear... Even till now... So i can't say i have not sin... Maybe anger.... I'm not sure so far i managed to get out of sight with those Ah Ma wearing mini skirts so i'm safe from lust at the moment... Call them Ah Ma cause they are way older than me... Not pretty as well... LOL... OK... That's not the point... Anyway.... Anger is certainly a problem for me now... But i guess don't care is the solution... I'll not care... I'll not interact... I'll not do anything to talk to him... Since he just leave the place without telling anything... I'll not give a damn to him either...

Haiz... Why must i meet such stupid people... They really are a dread... If i work with friends i can understand... him... man.... I won't understand even if i could... Love your enemies.. I wonder how... God.. You are the best.. I wonder how you do things... Why must we eat that bloody fruit ? I think if i was adam... i will eat the fruit eventually... I can't stand temptation at my door steps... Either i cut the tree down and burn it away or else i'll just run to the other side of the garden to stay... Anyway... Either way is good... Get rid of the core and there will be nothing left... Why adam so lousy never realised that... Could he be a dumb m ? or a lazy i ? LOL... Speak of that... Hahaha... The bird park...

A bunch of i came to take a family photo... LOL... Serene was like saying so dark how to see ? I told her patience is the key, wait for the sola eclipse to end first before we start taking pictures again... LOL... When you see them eating burger and ketchup splashed out you can't help but wonder if they bite they hand by accident.. LOL... Anyway enough of that... it's getting boring repeating the same things over again... It's been like 5 years since i last enjoyed those jokes.. It's getting cold for me...

Anyway... Yesterday at work managed to get D to talk to me but it was doing dinner time so i didn't talk to D at all.. Man... Wanted to talk so much since we have not been talking to each other for some time again... Man... Sick... Oh well... I cannot remember why i sms k but i sms already and started moving on to age for some unknown reason.... Hmm.... Why did it stray off to that topic ? I wonder if my niece is the reason why i'm talking such crap now a days... I'm talking random questions and i'm not sure why i'm talking like that in the first place... I wasn't like this before... Why is there such a change ? What's worst i didn't know i had changed like that until recently people have been asking how we reach that topic... Man... This sux... I thinking if a trip to somewhere will cure my disease.... LOL... I gotta go on a holiday no matter what... Anyway for now... I'm going to work again... It's just so boring... I wanna a change of job... This is really not suiting me... I can't always stay quiet and do nothing... I wanna talk... I can't stand being caged up... Too slient is not my type... Too noisy at times it's irritating... Man... So i wonder what type of place suits me the most ? Business.. With all the drunken people around the place of sin where it has it's claws around your neck to fall from God ? What do i do ? If i keep thinking like this i won't even get a job... Man...Which job got the most holiday and allows a stable income to support the family ? Man... I wonder... The pleasures of being a kid...

S chatted with me online yesterday and woah what a dream... Man... I wonder how much she desires to get a job that is stable enough until she thinks that she is ready to get married... Anyway... Another S was busy with work so never talk to her much... Can't say i didn't try... LOL... But seriously i'm abit lost for words... I can't seem to chat with her anymore... LOL... Life... Friends come and go... So who is your true friend who you will still keep in contact till the day you die ? Friends from outside ? I find that hard accept... Church ... Yes .. Friends from birth certainly.... I've grew up with G, N and J. Ever since we were young... We were friends... LOL...Good old times... A has been added into the guild as well.. Hahahaha... Of course along the way some girls came in... In fact when S first try to butt into the group... She was always bullied... I wonder why.. but since i was young i didn't care... LOL.. So follow the rest bully her... I wonder what made my eyes glued with stamp to ask her out man... Hmm... But in the end... oh well..

Got another person to go out with instead... Man... It was not planned by me... Sabo by my friends... Made a bet that the person have to treat drinks if he cannot get the girl they pointed out... So we took turns... Man.. Why did it have to be me .... I hate my secondary life... Man full of sad memories.... Got hooked up with girls i had no feelings with and break up within certain time limit, when i start to have feelings for the person they just don't feel it... Got my parents phone stolen... Got my brand new CD player stolen... My CDs stolen... My bag stolen... Items in my pencil box stolen... Books stolen... Got my HP taken away by the vice principal cause the vibration sound was too loud.... Even my homework was stolen.... Man... And i should not have done my work if it were to be stolen... i got punished even after i worked all night for that piece of answer... I tried to understand how the hell to do the work some more... How much time taken to understand my work... And the teacher took it as a joke that it was stolen and punished me...

Sometimes i find that teachers are blind... Not all students are lazy.. Not everyone wishes to fail... It's just that you are bad at teaching and there is no way we can get good grades without trying different way of writting our answers and seeing results before we start to understand... Because the teacher don't give any bloody tuitions and they don't bother to help out saying that they are busy when they shake legs at the canteen... Man... Such teachers are lazy to the core.... Wonder how he managed to become principal... BaKa... Anyway... The past is the past... I see many of my teacher aging... They are growing old.. Don't shoot them since they are not in my life at the moment... At least i have some good memories of my secondary school. LOL... Cannot share lol... Men's secret... LOL... Super funny.... Ask ACT or Jim or ZX i'm sure they know... LOL... We talked like crazy over such stupid acts... LOL...

Oh yeah saw bern a few weeks ago... Man... he has gotten fat... Army now raising chickens already... Not men... How to cry i wonder... The food so good cannot complain lor... You tahan so much shit got good food to eat consider very good liao... Wanna cry is those work like shit and than get shit to eat lor... Those ones i find sad... Hopefully i don't get into such units... If not i die like crazy... Haiz... Nevermind la... Painful memories can be beautiful as well...

2 years of death is not as bad as a life time of being a slave to your boss... Yep... Money is hard to earn.... Haiz... Oh well.. Got to go for work already... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:09 am

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Monday, January 21, 2008

I'm disappointed by the fact that many people are not coming to bible study on fridays anymore... It's a sad thing... To see your friends faith falling... To see one grow is like man... The guy is holy or Oh how much he has grown... Closer to God i see... That's good... Or wah.. So Holy arr... Go church so much... Man.. Such stupid comments... About the driving car thing. It links. I want to say that one wrong direction just as missing a turn will lead you away from the path. Like the case which Nah should know... It cost me alot... Plus it cost time... Wasted time... One wrong move will lead you to a different road and if you continue to drive down that road you'll get lost and suffer alot... Pain... Fustration... Sorrow... Anger.. Lots of unwanted things will start pouring down... In order to turn back... You might search for a long time with no results... Like a long struggle with yourself... Trying to break this chain around your neck while you seek for God again... But still the chains don't loosen up... Until you forget about looking back on your mistakes... Throw away those desire to keep looping around in circles... Will you be able to see the signs... LOL.. It's rather funny... Reminds me of that day... LOL.. Nah hahaha... I think you know... Yeah look for the signs yeah don't side track.. LOL... Starting to learn from Bro N... Side tracking and forgetting what's the main topic... But anyway.. Yeah... Ermm... Yeah the signs....

Until you truthfully look and the signs and follow it will you be able to seek God's intended path and follow it again... Getting to your destination at last, you might tread back to the same path and complain about the path you had made by straying but at least your remember your mistake... The question now is will you turn to the right road after walking back to the path or do you wish to loop in circles again ? That road you waited so hard to get is waiting for you... The person you wish so much to see might have landed.... It really wake me up la... Such a stupid situation but make me feel so inspired... I do not know when J is coming... The time is unsure... But i know the path... Just as i do not know when God is coming but i know the path... I might get lost like what i did turn around as what i'm doing now... Turning around... In circles... The HS has been wasted on me... I bear no fruits... And i don't think what i'm doing works...

I've tried asking them to come the BS on friday but what results i have ? I'll coming next week.. In the end no reply... When come to the day itself... Nah i'm busy... Or some lame excuses... I wonder how am i going to explain myself to God... Start thinking now is stupid... But at least it's a start... Initially there was only 1 excuse to get out of this bible study and that is tests and exams... Other excuses cannot be used such as lazyness.... It is not a vaild excuse to not go to church.... Can God say i lazy to open to gate for you on the last day ? Is that a vaild excuse for Him ? But if He said since you were lazy for Me... I will be lazy to you.... I would break down in tears and beg for mercy but i think it won't work... I cannot judge a person for not appearing when i was there... But he/she is not the only one... Many people didn't even bother to reply.. Man... And they say life is hard... Serving God is harder... But the rewards for making God's plans work is sweeter than anything in the world... God's love is endless... So he forget and forgives... But i think that rule is for grown ups... Kids must be forced to come... If not they won't learn... They won't have a life in God... Secondary school a time before they take their O's... The less pure moments of their life... But still they contain some pureness... Yes... When they enter poly or JC... things such as adultery might happen if given in to peer pressure... Evil age we live in... Thus we should strengthen ourselves whenever we could. By starting young we are removing those chains and make them thinner so that the devils will not have a weak spot when they find us... If force is needed... I think something must be done... I have a plan.. But i won't tell it... LOL... Wait and see all yea lazy bums... God plans will come and we must shine His light on to the future generations to come... So that they too will shine down upon the next after them...

Anyway took MC went Bird park with Mad cow,J, Queen of Pain and a new friend W... LOL... Boring la... Even W agrees with me... See la.. Queen of Pain suggestions always bring pain and suffering... Next time cannot let her plan anything... Even J and Nah complain why don't go Zoo instead... LOL... Heart pain la... 22 bucks flew down the drain... Anyway... Boring la... See when i got time... Upload those pictures... Got a friction story to tell... LOL.. Anyway went to sakai sushi... Yeahhhh... But only got 45 mins to eat... LOL.. Going strong... I can keep going for 1 hour... LOL... But this time... Stamina drop... 45 mins also just pass the buffet style but i think i ate enough...lol... Dun want to get fat and not be able to pass my medical check up... LOL... OK... Back on track... Reach church than knock out here and there during service.... Before watching the movie... And then knock out during service in the morning and afternoon due to lack of sleep... LOL... Oh well.. die la... I think i go sleep now... Before i knock off again tomorrow at work.. I'll write when i'm free tomorrow... Wanna continue talking about someone's blog... The person having troubles just now and took me so i had to see her blog and try to help her... But i still wonder what is the problem... LOL.. Oh well.. Next week that help lor... Sorry arr... You gotta remind me next week for conselling.... I might forget or just sleep... Anyway nitez guys...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:01 am

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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Is being a Christian all that good ? Is being bullied all that fun ? Working and they take advantage of you because you are a being a good Christian ? Indeed the world will hate us... They hate to do what we do, but love to take advantage of what we do and try to use it to their benefit... Should i continue to act like a Christian ? To be bullied ? What is fairness ? Nothing in this world is fair. Indeed our parents have done well to shield us from the outside world... The world where the most cruel people survive. The rich are great thus they get away with everything.. The people who take advantage but do not have brains get caught and they get eaten and spit out like mud... The weakest are thrown to the ground like nothing and they get stepped on.... But they endure and endure....

Do i want to be step on again and again ? Is this my choice in life ? To be stepped on and than i can't complain ? Where is justice ? Ask my boss and she'll just say Justice is covering up her butt from getting burnt. I'm her ACE card so i cannot have anything sickness any weakness... What am i ? A robot ? Her maid... Someone that can be commanded as and when she likes ? I'm an attachy yes... But i am a student... Are you threatening me with grades now ? Do you think i give a damn. I have endured for 3 months and now another 2.... And my partner is giving me crap with like 9 daggers up my back already.... Man.. How evil can he still be ? Just to save his ass after taking his sweet holiday he comes back and shoot me ? What the hell ? I have not even taken my break yet.... Somehow i don't think i'm a Christian... I just forget about being a Christian but focus on all the anger and blast out in one blow.... A rabbit is a cute creature but it can still bite...

I don't play a losing game unless i'm with my friends.... Having leave also can call me back... Forget it... I'm taking MC for the next 2 days to sleep and enjoy.... I lack a day of sleep.... Anyway wanted to blog about it... LOL... Firstly... Wanted to get out of that boring office place.... I thought it was 12 already but actually it was only 11... LOL... Long time before the last bus... But hahaha.. Dun care so much la... Got out on time also can.... Yeah so i got home and not long later Nah came around... So he entered the living room to watch spirit... THe stupid horse thingy.. I forgot about the cheezy story.... Tried to play the PS 2 games but the controller was spoilt so yeah... I kept moving in circles....

Yeah i forgotten about the game part... Listened to Nah and drank 2 cups of saturated coffee that's why i cannot sleep when i came back.. I've still haven't slept since than..... Man it was crap... The king was sleeping on my dad's car when i was about to reach the car.... wasted like 2 mins stupid garfield.... Cos we had a big battle of starring at one another before he scramble along.... Yep.. Drove out super slow... Had a few jerks since i was nervous.... YEah and than... We made our way out of the place... LOL... Like the need for speed game just that cannot speed.... LOL... Anyway the place was so deserted la.... And Nah was saying you have a new competitor... LOL... I'll never forget that one... Oh yeah and the my job is to make sure you don't speed... Your mom ask me when i stepped into the house.... Man... LOL.. The most funny.... NOoo... You are speeding... It's 92 km.... Over by 2 km.... LOL.... That was the core man... Oh well.. Went to the airport... It was a smooth journey until i made the wrong choice of not turning.... And when to changie beach... LOL... The shuttle bus was so fast that he nearly wack against my dad's car la... Crazy man... Thank God nothing happened... I nearly had a heart attack.... Lucky i was calm if not wack the bus already.... Thank you God... You saved both Nah and my life.... The prayer before leaving the place worked... LOL... Listened to BOA... Man... It's the only one i can find that doesn't have any songs that will make me sleep... So we took a few rounds and yep.... Went around the place looking for a way to turn back to the airport... Yep... We managed to get there after some searching and exploring... Next time don't make such stupid mistake...

One wrong turn and we'll get lost... If there isn't any sign board and we didn't follow the rule we wouldn't have found our way back... Yep... Went to the airport... Did a just pass parking... If got car sure hard for me to get out...LOL... My body got to be as thin as a paper in order to get out... Anyway... It was a fun experience... The place was so small that it looked like a big house.... LOL... With just one shop... Man... Compare to T3 it was a complete let down... Drove back to seng kang.... Stopped at the cabby area to alight Joel and family... LOL... Oh yeah i salute Joel's dad la... Uncle waited for like 4 or 5 hours for Joel to come at the airport.... Man... Imagin how much God loves us... If i father can already give such love for his son... What more our father in heaven ? He is love himself.... I know he won't give up on us to the very last breath of our insignificant life... Yes... Yep after i let them off... I made a U-turn to see if they gotten a cab... And yes... They did... OK... I can go home now... And i made a wrong turn... Where am i ? I'm lost man.... Ok... Next... Just find anything i recognise... LOL... My sis ex-school... Yes.... I saw it... But i'm clueless... I've only been there once by taxi.... Sadded man... So i'm still lost... I think i went around the place for a round and than i ended back at the taxi stand with Joel and family missing... LOL... Must have gotten home already.. Cos after that i remember my bearings and headed straight home.. Parked perfectly... And got home seeing lights and the gate was unlocked... Is my house being raided by theif ? Or is my parents worried... Man... I was too tired to think so i just thank God for my safe journey back and wanted to sleep... The theif can rob me for all i care... I just need rest... And indeed my parents was sitting down waiting for my return... Another display of love... So touched... see 2 scene one with someone's family one with mine... Oh man.. I'm so luck to be born in this family... Anyway wanted to say something about this... But i can't remember... Brain dead already 24 hrs not sleeping... OK... I've to sleep. Nitez. I'll explain if i can remember the point tomorrow. Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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Monday, January 07, 2008

What is knowledge ? What is being smart ? What is my life purpose to staying in this evil world ? When you see a baby full of innocent... He kicks your for a sole purpose of pure anger against you. It is soon forgotten by them... They want peace, not anger all the time... They want love... Not hate all around them.. Unlike now.. When we are kick we hold it for a period of time collecting more anger... When it's time we kick them and we try to make sure we kill them...

Knowledge ? Smart ? They are 2 different things, that's why they are spelled wrongly... Smart is being about to score... You don't call those people knowledge people... You call them smart people.. Yeah... They maybe smart but they cannot apply their it in their work... So you can say knowledge is something that can use to apply to something to get more result than smart... Why do we need smartness ? To score in exams ? In the end when you die those papers will die along with you... Anyway... If you want to ask God about something ask about knowledge... Something which is very important to me... Why i do not have knowledge ? Am i not desiring for the spirit anymore ? Am i changing for the worst ? Why do i not like the change ? Why ain't i like before desiring to become like King solomen.... Being about to have knowledge is cool as well.... At least i know what God wants... What is right and what is wrong... Maybe i'm feeling that dark aura because i know what is right and wrong but i'm not doing it.... That is sin itself... Man.... I'm so dead.... I'm becoming wild... Choir ... I've gone mad... Why did i not be serious ? Why was i in such a joking mood ? Does God think that it's funny ? Or do i just want to hear people's laughter... Lucky i didn't go overboard... I wanted to say thank God for all your comments let's say a prayer to conclude this sharing... Man.... It's like taking over.... It's bad... I guess i need to think and reflect more....

I don't think i should give excuses for my actions but i think my job stress level of now working on sat and sun through phone calls are driving me mad... I don't want to work like 7 days a week... Although talking on the phone for hours about work is not really working... But it takes away the resting them... And i'm not relaxing over the weekend... Cause i'm blood worried about the work i'm suppose to do.... Man... I have no life... I do not wish to be tied down like this anymore... This sucks... I'm gonna go for my holidays the moment this stupid attachment has ended... I need my spa treatment... To forget about everything.... If i were to get killed in the process... LOL... See you in heaven... I don't want to stay here even if i still have lots of things i miss.... Well considering working life... I guess there is nothing i miss bah.. I have no kids no wife... So i don't think i have anything to worry about... Just that if God says i got more work to do for him and leaves me half dead... Man... I have no idea as to what to do... I guess i'll just wait for the ambulance to fetch me to the hospital... While i bleed like crazy and get KO for awhile...

Somehow i need to hide in a cave and start reflecting again... This is bad... Just when i made new friends.... I crawl back into a cave... Why do i always like to be alone ... It isn't very cool now a days man.. To be alone and attract girls were like the 90's when i was a kid... It's not about the girls i like... It's the hidden talents i like...

The cool guy walks alone in the street... 5 man tried to get back at him over some stupid stuff... He knocks them out... Bam... Wam... Punch... LOL... And they are all on the floor.... Sleeping till the sun comes up.... Cool....

But cool has his disadvantages... Don't have friends until he shows his moves... I'm afraid to hurt people.. I have hurt enough during my childhood... Wack enough people... And hahaha... They are still my friends... I remember getting wacked... But i too remember... The feeling to hitting someone was nice... LOL... So soft... It's like you wack the wall and than wack them with that same force... They are sure to die... That's how life can end... By a stab... By a blow... By wind, rain , sun and snow... By earth, fire, water and creatures.... So many factors can kill us just like that... Those will be the physical death.... Spiritual death is different...

Lust, Food and pleasure... 3 elements but they are more dangerous than the physical death.... Greed for food... Too fat... die also... Not fat also might have too much fat content in the body causing death... by heart attack or stroke... Anything is possible... Greed for pleasure.. Enjoy too much like the rich people... As in mega rich.. i do not need God... I have everything i need... But is that true ? You have everything you want while you are physically alive... But when you die... You'll be a poor spirit... For you ate and is fully fed but you ate the wrong food... Thus you are unable to return to the home you suppose to be in.... Lust i think i've no need to explain futher.... It is one of the most dangerous sins for guys... So girls don't wear mini skirts... Or short skirts... Even a "father" in another church cannot take it... LOL.. Not only short skirts.. Low cut dresses... Guys also la... Don't wear tight clothings... Than it's like you wanna show off also cannot harm other people's spiritual growth mah.... LOL... Although i like to see muscles... LOL... But that's not the point.. It's bad for sisters... And the other way around... Yeah... Just don't make mistakes bah... It's fatal to us...

Anyway for my friends who don't know what in the world i'm talking about... Simple... Don't do anything funny... DOn't think of sin.. Don't do anything that will lead to sin.... Yeah easy but hard... Good... get your confused yet ? Should be bah.. I also don't really understand.. But.... Just know that... If this world is so easy... If the law is so relax just for us... Than why is it law in the first place ? Shouldn't laws be something that suit the one who set it ? Not us ? Shouldn't laws be mortally right ? So for me... I say... If a gay talk to me in a disgusting way.... What would i do ? A. Wack him.... B. Wack him or C. Wack him ?
Yeah i think i'll just pick the answer by random.... You know the answer.... Yeah but really we should understand what they are going through... Some are not really gays.... But they weak la... So they cannot accept girls don't like them and all... OR family wanted a girl instead of a boy... Or lots of factors may contribute to it... Yeah.... It's like... Crazy...

Anyway i wanna talk about this guy Yiruma, man i love his music pieces... Have been hearing it for like days since i got it... And still loving it... Although i dislike playing the piano, i can't help but fall in love with this song... I wanna learn how to play "Kiss the rain" Man.... This guys arr... Why don't come our like 15 year earlier... Like that i won't give up piano liao... LOL... Ok... Enough of my crap, more details about him... See ya... I go sleep awhile more than go work... Byez...

Yiruma, (born 15 Feb 1978, Seoul, Korea) is a South Korean piano music composer. His works have also been released in Japan. He is married to Miss Korea Son Hye-im.


Yiruma is well known throughout the world, and his albums are sold all over the United States and Europe, as well as Asia. His most famous pieces include "Kiss the Rain", "May Be" and "River Flows in You" (First Love).

Although he formerly held dual citizenship as a citizen of the United Kingdom and South Korea, in July 2006 he gave up his British citizenship and entered the Republic of Korea Navy to begin his military service, which is mandatory for all male South Koreans.

Biography
Yiruma started to learn the piano at home in Korea at the age of 5. In 1988 he moved to England, and in Dec 1996 he participated in the album The Musicians of Purcell (Decca). He graduated from The Purcell Of Specialist Music School (London) in July 1997, then from Kings College in June 2000.

His key dates and performances since then include:

May 2001 - Album 'Love Scene' released
Dec 2001 - 2nd album 'First Love' released
Jan 2002 - Performed at the 36th MIDEM in Cannes, France
Apr 2002 - Performed at the Young San Art Hall
Jun-Aug 2002 - 'Oasis & Yiruma' released, promotion tour in Japan and Taiwan
Dec 2002 - 'Gang Ah Ji Ddong' OST album released
Jun 2003 - SBS Drama ' First Love' title track
Oct 2003 - 3rd album 'From the Yellow Room' released
Aug 2004 - Special Album 'Nocturnal lights... they scatter' released
Apr 2005 - Special Album 'Destiny of Love' released
May 2005 - Special Album 'First Love' repackaged and released
Jul 2005 - Special DVD & CD of 'YIRUMA Live at HOAM Art Hall' released
Nov 2005 - 4th album 'POEMUSIC' released
Apr 2006 - 'Spring Waltz' Classic OST album released

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
9:57 am

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Sunday, January 06, 2008

What am i doing ? I have no idea ? What am i feeling ? I cannot confirm... Is friends just a pebble you find at the beach ? You hold it for a while and than you throw it back into the ocean... What is love ? I have forgotten about my first love... Joel told me to remember that feeling... But somehow i remember how happy i was... But i didn't remember what my goal for getting her was.... Why do i feel so sad now ? Going to church per normal... Eating food of God .... Per normal... Love being alone... Per normal... Why ?

I have a feeling that if i go out with my classmates next month for a drink... I'll get drunk... I'll do something stupid and i might not come to church anymore... 20 years of seeking and when i got what i seek i give up and lose it ? Crazy.... But it's true... How many can withstand the lust of this world ? I wonder if what we shared in church during choir effected me... Attendance... People coming... Don't sing.... I guess it's right... Yeah if not why we come like crazy... And those people just do ninja come during a battle and steal kill during the battle ? I wonder why i feel so dark now... I have never felt so dark... Never... I wonder why .... I seriously wonder why ... It's not the same when i pray i just feel like something is stalking me... My house seems to have something in it... Keep hearing noises so i do not care... But now getting lesser sleep... Getting restless.. Getting depressed... What the hell.. Can't you guys leave me alone... The worst ghost i fear is my boss... Sunday also call up for work... I'm super sick of this already... Can i student have his rest on a sunday ? Man...

Work is really killing me... Imagin if i have to do that for years in the future... Will i kill myself for such stupid things... No la... Crazy give up just like that... Devil plus boss double combo also cannot make me fall lor... God to back me up is even better.. Nothing can stop me.. I wish... God will take me up soon... I'm so sick of this world... I hate this world... I wanna suffer in the army... And not OT for world... At least i get punish in army, it's cleaning or guarding... Exercising or running... I don't care... If it's good for my body why not ? If it's staring at the computer for more hours... It's killing the eyes and mind... I can't even talk correctly... I cannot get my logic right... I'm just working like a soul-less person.. I just keep moving my hands... Even when i'm sick... I'm not allowed to rest... I'm to keep on working... What the hell... My supervisor sms to complain saying he is very upset... I'm really upset with him... What is the point of life at the moment ? For me to keep being eaten ? Like a sheep with lots of fangs around me waiting to take a bite... Seriously i'm like a dying lamb.... Laying flat on the green pastures while wolves are nibbing on my legs... I cannot run... I cannot flee for i know i can never escape my enemies...

At this moment i can only ask a stupid question than i myself can answer.. Where is God now ? It's not a valid question for me.. I know my thinking is wrong... But somehow... It's just like that... Where is the love ? Who is giving a damn about me ? Who the hell cares ? I guess i should take my own advise to forget it and pray... But somehow i wanna should out loud... But if i can get a holiday i think i'll be better lor.. WHat the hell... I wanna go for a spa... After suffering for 5 months... I hack care lor... I'm going for a spa no matter what... God... I know you are with me when my shadow is greatly weighting down on me... I know you are carrying me... But i'm asleep on your shoulders so i do not know... I'm afraid of the world... I am 1 but they are many... I have forgotten about you O Lord... If you wish you can rain angels down to flood them with their stares... Millions of angels will descend upon your call.. So i have nothing to fear.. It's just that i do not see... Where is the love ? You are love.... God... Human... Are nothing.. You are everything... But thank You God... For the friends you gave me... True friends... Come when you need it the most... Chatting buddies just suck... They change from time to time... Am i the kind of person as well ?

I won't say names on who has comforted me... So God will bless you for the things you have done... I know even some person who didn't comfort me... But unknowingly gave me extra strength... I remember.... I wanna love my Lord but i sadly cannot... How i got the HS is still hard to remember... But i wanna remember... I wanna remember... There is too many things i wanna say.. but i guess i'll still do the traditional way of diary entry to write the more personal stuff... Love your enemies... How are we this preverse generation complete that when even our friends do we not bother.... Somehow why i talk to girls more than guys now.. Cos guys talk about sex and games and all the stupid stuff that does not make you feel close to God... Talking to girls outside makes my blood boil for they are no better... Church... I think only lazy but they make good mothers.... Guys.... We need a life... Cannot keep doing that liao.... If we don't have bonding..... It's bad if we fall out... If it's just a game that keeps us bonded... If that game dies out.. We are all dispersed to being lonely again... I wonder... If Bro Nic said the right thing... I think God for you guys will be the strong pillars in the future and there might be a change... But i think.... I'm just a passerby... No better than anyone... Call me strong... Please... If the wind blow i'm just still there cause of the 7X kg of oil in my body.... Other than that... I don't think i'm strong... Is Nah strong ? Yes and no... I wonder... Sometimes... Is he just joking... For he frightens me with the information he knows sometime.... I miss Joel... Faster come... Scold me... I just don't know... What to do... Am i tired of being lonely... I feel a void taking Joel's place after he left... But he is coming soon... And i know the Date unlike someone who is coming but i don't know the date.... But at least He is with me everyday i cannot feel it.. LOL.. So i don't really care if He comes now or later... Cause He is with me... But knowing the date and not being with me .... I cannot only have that hope within me... Nothing else... Anyway... I just feel that i cannot be a pillar cause i'm not grown up enough... God's word is not in my heart all the time... If i really love God... I should have his words in my heart at all times... Not thinking of how to explain things through worldly reasons... For there is no forgiveness using worldly sense... There will only be anger....

I'm not sure... I just wanna be a baby again... To be cradled by God for a few days... To be spoilt by him.... Before i go back to becoming a man... I'm seriously losing it.. I need to relax.. Play the piano or something... Oh well.. If i ever realize what my problem is i'll have to be conselled... Man... It's good to have so many friends... LOL.... KK... End of post... My sorrow is still there but it's better now...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
7:30 pm

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Saturday, January 05, 2008

Today was weird woke up from the late night chat with have after bible study... I was so brain dead i couldn't understand what everyone was saying... So i decided to head up and wash up before going to bed... Man... It's so stupid la... Sleeping in the same room as my sis.... It feels so kiddish... Anyway... Bro Nic was suppose to go for breakfast with Nah but somehow i feel bad for making him fetch me to the polyclinic... Man... I just took my blood test and they ask me to go back... Wanted to run back to church if i could get Nah but they went back already... So sad la... Miss morning service... Haiz... In the end say will go back in time but my mom say go eat breakfast first by the time i went back it was already 11 am... I'm late even before i left for church... So i decide to pass and go back to get my specs.... I totally forgotten to take it with me... It was funny...

Got addicted to this song... And decided to learn how to play on the piano... Anyway i'm reminded to go find the music scores now... Yeah so i'll make this entry a fast one... Went for service was like dead tired since i didn't get enough sleep... Yeah funny... Come to sermon i won't sleep but come to singing hymns... I just knock out man.. I can hold the hymn book and just KO for like 3 stanzer... Before changing hymns and than KO for another few rounds... Man... This is weird... Lucky managed to stay awake... And not completely KO and drop the hymn book...

When with Glenn to play the song i liked so much... But we failed... It was too hard to copy just by hearing the MP3... LOL... Went to Choir and oh well... Stupid la... Share your experience of what you want to say about how God bless you for last year... Super stupid la... If i ask you tell me what you want to say to your girlfriend.... It's like will you say your proposal to your girlfriend just like that ? LOL.... So i decided to make things up and kick up so crap... Yeah... Just touch abit about it here and there... Not fully... So yeah.. Crap... Totally not what i wanted to say... But oh well.. I don't take this kind of things seriously... Just make sure my service and my heart is where it suppose to be... Laughing and joking is ok... But when you present it's to God... You make sing out loud sing out proud... For God is looking... What is there is be frightened about ?

I have stagefright but when i'm up there... I know only one person is looking at me... And he is the only one i have to fear... I have to make him smile... I have to sing my best to make him just give a tear drop for me... That is all i ask... One small tiny tear drop from The Father... My Lord... That is all i ask... It will be better than any korean drama or japanese drama put together... If i could hear God say "Good Job" while patting my back... It will be worth more than all the praises i can get in this world...

To act stupid is the core to not revealing your true self... But cannot act stupid all the time on monday to friday must be as smart as possible... Adult must be serious... Don't play too much... It's not good... Anyway... I think i over did the stupid act today... I feel so much like a fool... Hopefully no feedback saying i'm not acting like a christian i'm just monkeying around in church... Man being with friends changes the whole mood to becoming wild... Guess i submit to peer pressure without myself knowing... That's bad... Really bad... Man... And i'm suppose to be the good example... Since all the older people are overseas at the moment leaving me in charge this is what i give them... Oh man... Well.. Joel is sure gonna give me a showdown if he hears of this... LOL... But don't worry i bet he isn't so bored as to find out about this.. LOL... But in the end i just can't lie to him... I'll just find out soon or later... I'll just keep slient... And wait... LOL... For him to go back... LOL... So evil.. Anyway...

Yeah... I'm bush ..... Man... It's so tiring... Maybe not coming to church tomorrow... gonna sleep like never before... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:31 pm

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Friday, January 04, 2008

I wonder why things had to go like this.... When you are sick... People don't bother to reply your sms... Ok... That's the world... But when you are needed and you are sick... They call you like crazy... Man... This world is unfair... I bet the moment i walk out of the company on the last day... My name will be forgotten... Erm.... Who is that person we always talked to ? Was it like Jim... Or Kim... Nah ... Oh yeah... It's Tim... After a week it will be who is Tim ?

Standard la.. Morning i say good morning and no one reply means those people mostly will forget who is that person... So far only 2 replies.... Man.. This world is bad... My boss called up... She said hey how is your condition ? Yeah no la... Just checking ... So bad arr... Tomorrow cannot come to work right ? Haiz... Too bad sia... LOL... So obvious right... You want me back.. What's up with partner dude ? Is he not doing his duty ? He owns me 2 days man... What the hell you thinking ? I'm all of a sudden thinking of quiting this job... It's a torture... If you are good they make use of you.... If you are bad they don't bother about you.. Man... How is the report of us working we have no idea... But when we are getting more and more tired they do not notice... When we get sick... They panic... Life... So selfish... Wanna go home early... Sorry arr... Don't have time to edit... Give you bah... Than run home.. Got problems also is mine liao... Don't check their work.. Pass to me... Sian lor... I get scolded for people's dump.... Fine... I don't come... What can you do... Wait till you pay me for 2 months than i come back.... If not don't bother... I'll complain to every top people i know... It's not a fair trade to be slaves...

Slept till very late la... Just didn't care about anything... So wake up very late liao... Didn't bother about anything... Just keep sleeping... No worries no stress... Ahh.. I wondered to myself... How much i have enjoyed staying at home... PLaying games... Not giving a dame about anything... Just keep slacking... Watch anime... watch korean drama... Woahhhh.... That is the life.... I'm loving it... Anyway... It was cool... I thank God for giving me such a good father... Talking about God and all.... Man... It's like it seems as if... Woah... Sooo... Yeah God loving... Man... RESPECT... I have no other word... I when did i first bother listening to him i do not remember but i'm glad i did... Helped me out alot... His advise is super nice and good... Can just talk normally.... Raise out the problem... Yeah think and find out how to solve it... LOL...Oh well.. Better sleep... DOn't feel so good.... Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:33 am

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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

LOL.... Happy New Year... My foot la... So bored at home lor... Went out that time rush here and there.... Barely got time to enjoy... Sometimes too much commitment can make you die... Wake up so late cause i spend my time last nite blogging and i couldn't sleep man.... When i log out of msn... i was like dead tired... I wanna sleep but i just couldn't so i went to someone's blog to tag.... And read some information... LOL.. Sms so many people only 2 replied... And 1 ask me if anyone replied... Sian lor... But thanks for the reply anyway...

Really lor if people ask me how i spent my new year holiday i'll tell the person i was busy sleeping most of the time and watching Korean drama... Lame la... Make the show so nice but the ending so disappointing... Not even cry or anything... Just like that ended the whole show... Sian lor... Summer Snow... A nice story just watch it till episode 10 you don't want to watch the ending... But man.. I really don't have a life... 2 days and i watch finish a full drama... I must be chasing it like crazy.. Still got time to run around with friends.... And family... Man...

When out with ZX... It was crap... First eat than walk walk.. See children games... Than check out the games for man... LOL.. Children please walk one corner and disappear please you can never understand this kind of games until 10 years later.. Muhahahahahahaha.... Fantastic man... A cinderalla game... With unlockables at different stages... LOL... Maybe can unlock a gun to shoot the step mother and sisters before shooting herself... LOL... Happy Ending ... No more worries and the children can shut the book with such an ending... LOL.. Funny... Such a dark joke.... Hahahaha... The prince lived happily ever after without a princess... Cos he found a way to give birth himself... Without having a mate... Like some atoms or micro beings that can separate itself thus it gives birth to more it's kind but growing and split itself up after some time... Ok lame...Don't corrupt little children... I doubt you little children know how to read.... You'll be too bored to read my blog anyway... Get a life... Play maple or something... LOL.. Don't learn my black jokes....

Today there were fur fur rain... Yeah mao mao yu.... LOL... So irritating la... But fun la... I go walk walk get to see cool phones... And see some stuff... But sushi and eat Fried Oyster... LOL... Oiishi desuyone... When the plate reach my table... I guess the japanese will say Oiishiso .... LOL... Than they start eating loudly and get scolded by old grannies who say they have no table manners... LOL... I guess in Japan more noise means more respect... LOL... Over here will scold them ask them to eat in silence... Yepp... Anyway...Walked around do nothing... and yeah... the end... talk to people also no point... Everyone busy preparing for the school lessons they are gonna have tomorrow... Super bored with life at the moment.. Man... Gotta find myself sometime to do... Go church now like so much time... It's just the question of if i bother to wake up and go or not... No problem going but will i be willing to go.... It doesn't effect my relationship with the world to be gone for a few hours... My parents will be buying food while i'm there anyway... So i can go out later... Go church la... So lazy for what... God ask you why you later what you going to say ? No no no you see i was busy.... Yeah i was errr.... busy doing nothing... Yeah that's it... He'll just reply or is that so ? I was too busy to put your name into my book of life... LOL... Sorry my bad.. Could you stand in the crowded line there where the sign says "This way to hell", thank you....

Man... So many people say... Wahhh Maaaaaa... Why my face so ugly ??? All your fault go so ugly this and that... Make me have ugly this and that... And worst la... You marry dad so i got his this and that... Mix together make me so ugly la... LOL.. I can't stand it... Let me laugh awhile... LOL..... Ok continue... So this person got enough money that she got a plastic surgery.... Than when she died she went to hell... But she kept complaining... God i never sin against you why i died ? He replied sorry i didn't recognize you... Man you change alot... Sorry man... LOL... Super funny... That why after hearing this joke i never complain about how i look anymore... Be it ugly or good looking... LOL... Super funny la... If good looking thank God... People will like my eyes for they are pretty.... LOL... If ugly... Thank God... Now alot of girls won't bug me cause i have Jacky Chan's nose.... LOL...

In the end when you grow old... One question... Who cares ? LOL... Seriously... Nobody... You old and useless... Who care if you pretty Tsunade is rather pretty but she is an old hag... Naruto still make fun of her.. LOL... So the moral of the story is to have a good heart... To be pretty on the inside... I guess there are still guys... Finding for girls who are like that.. Not just a pretty face.. Yeah certainly... Beauty is just like a flower... Very soon it will wither... There will always be someone more beautiful... So forget it.. Those dreams of marrying the most beautiful princess is crap... If like that everyone will fight for that one girl... And if prince charming is only the most good looking guy in the land... Than there is no logic... Cause only this prince can marry this princess... But the peasants ? Who do they marry ? Prince ? Princesses ? Rubbish... None of this kind of things exist... They are stories used to brain wash little children and make them corrupted... The world princess to them is to be spoil and have what they ever wanted... The fairy god-mother... I can grant any wish you like... LOL... Crap.. If that's the case what will you do if i wish every person except my dream girl, in this world to die... So that my job to finding her can be easier... Wouldn't that be nice ? I'm a maid... I don't hold grudges against my abusing masters... LOL... This kind of lowly and respected attributes are not learnt by children... They just wanna have fun... To bear long suffering... So God will deliver you away from this pain... Yes and have a happily ever after... When your physical body is ten feet below... Yep... True happiness... Why cry when watching Korean drama or Japanese drama ? In the end the true saddness is they died for 1 person... God died for all... Which is more sad ? A person dying for love ? Or an innocent soul that should not die... Got caught like he just killed someone... Free someone who has killed and take many lives just to have that innocent man be killed... To be struck... To be spat on... Insulted... I believe that people will throw things at him... Veg... Eggs... Anything dirty...

Woah God is more powerful man... If me i'll call all my angels to come down... Cut their arms and legs... Make sure they say Sorry my Lord... I didn't know... "Hmm.. Didn't know... What i said you never listen arr... Wanna die is it... Try to save you still like that... Say sorry..." Than cut off their black tongue... Before leaving them to die will all that blood... Maybe sprinkle some salt to kill the germs... LOL... Saddistic... That's why it's lucky i'm just a man... If not alot of people will die.... Not just punishment for doing sins... LOL... Maybe play a prank... This guy not good... When he go toliet i'll make the water system be reverse so when he flushes the shit will fly out onto him... LOL.... Ok ok... More improvement i know... I told you hard for me to be holy... LOL... I too saddistic already... Hahaha... Ok not funny... Must solve my ability to crap so much... It's getting worst like a disease... If i infect the younger generation like ZC... Woah... I'm gonna get struck by lightening man... God will ask me... I ask you to take care of my lamb... Not feed them with crap... Now see what they are doing... They are feeding each other crap...

Kids are white paper... They ask you why Jonah got swollowed by the fish ? You reply... Oh simple.. He fell into the fish tank... LOL... Funny... But they believe... Cause fish tanks contains fish... They never been to the ocean... Maybe not seen them.... Children now adays... See websites on the ocean... So they don't really understand the beauty of God's creation... So they believe and they spread on... Yeah my dad/ uncle / mom/ bah bah bah... Said Jonah got swollowed by the big fish... Cause he fell into the big fish tank... Man... The small matter which started as a joke... Just corrupted the youth in church... Man... So some stuff cannot joke like crazy... It really might have bad effects after that due to a small unintentional joke... Oh well.. Gotta work tomorrow so i'll go sleep for 7 hours before leaving... Man.... JC students need to be in school by 7.40 am... sad man... How long was it since i last wake up so early just for school. LOL... Ermm.... Must be kind of long cause i don't really remember... Earliest would be wake up at 7 for school and rush there... But there by 8 like once a week.... LOL... Other than that it's more like 10 am start lessons... Or lecture... Just skip and go at 11 am... Study harder during tutorial... LOL..Sure can pass one la... No problem... Can enter UNI.... Just work hard for another 2 months... Man... Just work harder... Ganbatte... I can do it.. With God by my side nothing is impossible... Right... LOL... Ok i know You busy so don't need to reply... You got my back liao... I know... Hahaha... Cool... Ermm...Can like take me away if i going to fall away or not ? Just make sure i don't fall can liao... If not faster take me away...

Before i corrupt the small kids... Become small Ah Biang... And go wack other people... LOL... Lao Da has left long ago.... He has died... Now is a new me... Still out for blood... But yeah la... I try to surpress.... Talk talk .... Don't kill... LOL... I think if i see war i'll never even think of killing again lor... See your best friend die in front of you.... How are you going to laugh and enjoy it man.... Unless you gone crazy and start shooting everyone la.. Got 5 bullets in your body you still run around and shoot everyone... Until like hundreds of bullets enter your body than you die... LOL... That will be too drama already...

You can talk on the phone and after hanging up the person gets hit by a bus or something... That is how short life can get... So faster enjoy life while you still can... Wanna eat satay... Just eat... Don't eat too much and make your life shorter... If you die of heart attack just die... Don't stay too long in this world.. It's not worth it... After go up better.. Wanna drink lard go ahead... Don't spill and mess up the carpet can liao... Oh yeah... What i have just written is friction... SO please do not take it seriously.... Thank you... It's just how to explain some stuff yeah... I bet you can tell which is fake.. Yep.. Be happy and live your life.. The time spend being unhappy is just a waste of time... But still it's good to vent out your fustrations so that it won't bother you.. Best is tell God cause my telephone line is like "The number you have just dialled is busy at the moment please do not call again, Thank you"... LOL... Kidding la.. If got time feel be to tell me if you feel like it... I'll be naggy.. LOL ... Yeah .... Ok... I OT too long already.. Tomorrow sure not enough sleep... LOL... Blogging really waste alot of time sia... OK .. Nite nite...

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Hi hi all.... Wishing all viewers a Happy New Year... Although it's already 1 am... Sorry la... I came back at 12.10 right... Got abit of nagging or scolding... For being so late... Man.... Parents have a stressful time worrying about their kids...

Anyway it started out as a fine day... Assuming that my partner would be late as usual... I was dead tired from waking up so early to work... Man... I wanted to die... Anyway i really died when my partner just didn't come for work and switched off his phone... Man it's like freaking irritating... How long can i take this... I've endured for like 2 months plus and now another 2 months of his rubbish... I think he is going to die when i clear up all the MCs he has been taking... Seriously ... Anyway... I'll not bother about him... Man.. I wonder why i give in to him so much... It's not my nature to give in to bullies in the past.. Why start now ? I wonder... DO i really hate him or just because he makes me angry with his actions, do i say so much bad things about him ? Sometimes i wonder have i changed ? Have i become more holy than before ?

Anyway first to come in, last to go home... Sick of this kind of things man... Really hate it... Hardwork doesn't pay off i guess... Nobody sees hardwork as a virtual... They just want to see work being done... Other than that... There is no credit given.. Why is that so ? Like what Pr.CAQ said count our days.. The world will kick us when we lose our value... When we are sick, old or unable to do our duties... We can kill ourself by working like crazy, maybe take 3 jobs and toggle with them till we drop dead... In the end it will affect our health... Man... I really hate this world... I hate man.... How can i love man when i don't love God ? If i love God will i not spare a thought for him ? Will i not sin because of him ? Will i not be tempted for his sake ? He has died for us... In return should we not follow his plans... To ease his pains by erasing the mistake of eating the fruit of good and evil ?

Yes if we hadn't ate of that fruit... We won't be here and we won't be suffering... By eating that fruit we sinned against God and lost our life of eternity... Emperor Qi Shi Wang was a great ruler... A fierce and ruthless king... He seek immortality... But what did he get ? A fate everyone will have... Death... It is our fate to die... But we have a hope. Jesus died to clear that sin we have made... He saved everyone and not died for his mother or brother... EVERYONE... Yes... The least we could do is repent and be like what we suppose to be if we hadn't ate the food of good and evil... Be pure to stand in front of God and talk to him without the sense of shame...

Had a fun time after work... Rushed over to sembawang... It was super crowded on the MRT... Man... I was squeezing in a train to get to my destination... Yes you didn't it's not a typo error i squeezed into the train... I hate crowds but i hate to be late... So no choice... When to Sun Plaza and guess what... KFC is flooded with people... So i tried the food court... Flooded... So no choice went to the comic shop... I saw so many people that i went out of the store after 5 mins of browsing... In the end i decided to eat at Mc Donalds... The place i dread the most with the help from a phone call to Vic... Man... Reminds me of Vin eating Mc every week on sat... Vin what you want to eat ? Mc la... Sian lor... It's like... Rather go drink lard... Sure can grow bigger in size one... It's a one time application... All you have to do is finish it...

Anyway i tried eating very slowly and it worked... Vic came like mid way .... 7 o'clock sharp... Said that SK would be late... So i ate slowly and yes... Managed to waste time till 7.20pm.... Took turns to go to the washroom and there he was... Presto.... I had no idea he dress so informal outside church... Man... It was cool to see him out of those clothings... I see them everyday... It was getting abit boring seeing it all the time... Yes i had a hard time talking to him... Yes i had a hard time coming out with topics.. And yes i'm struggling to say something to talk to him... Fortunately Vic was there man... She was able to help me out... But she stopped as well.... So experience kicked in.. Talk about army or NS... LOL... Army people will die to say all the army stuff... No matter what... Man... He was able to say things and i only got like 50% of what he said in my head... Some that i know but didn't want to say anything.... If not i'll lose out on topics... Mostly i don't know and too sleepy to understand so indept that i can understand it well... But well.. LOL... It's fun... Sitting on the bus... Or rather standing in the bus... Chatting and talking... It was rather gan gar.... LOL .... I forgot the english word.. But you get the point... Yeah... Sat down ordered a drink talked like forever... Man i still can't get SK to talk about himself..... NOOOOoooo... Open up.... Don't close yourself... We are friends of the same age... Friends since young.. LOL... Come on.. Open up... but in the end i guess talking to him like that in years... Won't help.... LOL.. So funny.. BUt i still had fun... Talk so much crap la.. Like an old man like that... I was thinking Vic won't say what her problem is in detail so i had to guess and talk in a wider kind of way... Mostly you can scrap it and throw away... If any point help i hope it's in detail and it will help in one way or another... I talk to much... So much for advising my sis... Man.. I'm become like a women...

I guess i'll die when my jaws drop out of my mouth and i can't eat anything so i'll stuff to death instead... LOL... Anyway had lots of fun... Keep trying to ask SK to share something or anything... Instead of him just giving his suggestion... Share la.. I want some of your aura... I know nothing about you.... WEll... Nothing of recent... Like the past 6 years after we rarely talked to one another.. How's life... LOL.. Those kind of things... And i played sparkers with both Vic and SK... LOL... Children again... but i didn't get the thrills of it... Being a child you get happy with little things... I only learnt one thing from talking with SK... Do not take things for granted... We are living so blissfully with God's blessing and yet we murmur against Him.. It's like the people saying to God that it's a mistake to take them out of egypt.... Man... If it was me... I'll strike them with as many thunder bolts i can find.... Save you already still complain... Cannot see my powers meh... Wanna die arr... Slap you than you know... Wake up your idea.... LOL.. How you feel if people were so poor that they cannot eat rice like we do but just the burnt surface which is scrapped and left to dry on the road before being solded to the poor people.. Man... And we just dump food just because we don't like it... Imagin if those people were to see the food you dump and dig into the garbage just for those food and eat it... How would you feel ? Grossed out or sorry for them ? Or do you feel ashame of yourself for not treasuring the things you have ?

Why do people feel sad or anything ? Is it not they themselves causing themselves to feel pain ? To waste time being sad instead when they could use that time to solve their problems... LOL... I learnt that from David... When his child was sick... He begged God for forgiveness... When the baby died... He went back to normal... For he could do nothing since it has already been done... Crying over spilled milk is useless... We should not be so evil in heart and think before we speak... When the person is hurt stop and not stab the person's heart deeper... For you won't know what words will pierce which person to the core... May it be good or bad... Do it to help someone and make sure that someone gets the correct message you are trying to convey... Do not cause the downfall of a fellow bro or sis... For that will make thee a stumbling block... Well.... We left at 10.50 got on the bus... Took around 11.00 to reach the MRT and SK was soo sweet as to go out of his way to take the MRT back with Vic and I.... LOL... So nice of him... But the blow was the ending... We were already getting along so well.... Before he left.. He shaked my hands... Man... Oh well... What you expect for just a session of therapy.... LOL... I sucked some of his aura... LOL... Share share... Feel abit better now that we're talking... Solved some problems about the Youth Comm... I need to rethink my decision after hearing SK thoughts about it...

Wah bus 72 was like so late la... I reach around 11.10 to 11.15 wait till 11.40... Sian la... Than lucky the bus super fast... I got home at 12.10 to 12.15.... Got a nag or scolding... LOL... What a way to start the new year.... LOL... Well... As my nick says... I'm a bad kid... Went out on the morning of 2007 came back in the morning of 2008... Man... Bad record for making parents worry... Die sure kanna found out... God will write on the big book... Wonder if there will be pop ups... LOL... Ok dun lame already.... Kids play with pop up books... I'm grown up... LOL... Bring out the child in me... LOL... Watch more kids central.... LOL... Anyway wanted to bug Shi Sang.... Unfortunately she not coming online today since she came back home late i pressume... So sad... Oh well... Go watch a episode of drama... But i'm having a heavy eye lid... So i guess i'll make a small chat before sleeping... Nitez guys... Happy New Year...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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