The Forgotten Land

Monday, February 25, 2008

Today Sakai... Wooo... Everyone was so late, no one was on time. Yes... Reached at 2.50 and waited till 3.20 pm.... Than enter into the store... Wait for 10 mins another 2 enter... Another 20 mins 1 came in... Another 30 mins 1 came in 10 mins 1 came in and 10 mins 1 came in... So can you guess how many were there ? I guess not... Total got 4 at my table... Haiz... Sit wrong table... So far from Nah... Yeah and ermm... 4 person at the other table... Next time take the pictures from Bro Ling Qian... LOL... Super stupid one... Make me think of investing on a camera like his... Cool man... Look so fun to take pictures like that...

Anyway it was fun while it lasted... So long serene i know you'll be back so i won't miss you. Anyway i think i got into a quarrel... Wonder why... Oh well.. Girls mood swings... Hahaha... Dun care them la... I won't say sorry althought that's what a christain should do but i think it's not an arguement at all so i'm not gonna care... Yep... Found out some stuff about myself so it's cool. At least i know where to start changing... I also remembered the part where Vicky said Don't judge me... I wanted to say that as well... Now i know why... It's not because you harden your heart which i sliently thought but it because... Don't make use of the same lines over and over again... It's sick to the core... Do you think you are the only one being holy ? Not like i never go for night services plus wednesday services... It's because of the bloody work i'm stuck here... I can't wait to jump out of this cage into church anytime... Sunday sleep like crazy... i wanna start my bible study again... Work and build up sembawang church... So if you say i'm not holy yes... I am not one bit holy... But are you holy enough to tell me that ?

Suggestions can be good but don't take it so emotional... It's not like i'm your dog following your every command.. You say do this and i'll do this... Do that and i'll do that... If i want to be a dog.. I rather be God's dog... Not yours... For he created me and i will forever be his... I like challenges thought... After NS... You'll be sorry... I'll prove to you that... Anyway it's small issue so forget it.. But truely i say to you it will be true... 2 Years... Just wait... Wanna see the ungodly sight of me... There you have it... I don't like to get angry... So dun piss me off with your excuses... Back off... Give room man... I must learn that... back off... Ok... I guess being a preacher is hard work huh... LOL... Sen Kee... Dun wait for me... I guess i'm not cut out for that... I'll just be a passer by... Blessed with God's grace... Anyway.. Today prayer extent for 20 mins cos i'm mad... See la... All your fault... Oh well.. Better go home soon after work... Byez..

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
9:21 pm

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Sunday, February 24, 2008

Kiss The Rain

Wonder what it's like to kiss the rain ? I wonder... It's a thing which is hard to imagin. Kiss the rain. Have you ever experienced the rain falling so hard when you were a kid ? Splashing around when your parents are boiling hot mad at you but you just don't have a care in the world. You want to get wet. The rain falls as each tear drop is cold and hard... It hits you but you feel happy for there is water for you to kick around. Your school uniform is getting wet and very soon transparent but what do you care ? Nothing in the world. You are a child and children want to have fun. That's all they care about. I remembered my mom scolding me after that... Because i caught a cold... This piece plays the key to my heart... The one thing that i still remember up to this day... I want to be that kid again...

How do a person kiss the rain ? What does it feels like ? Cold... Wet... Yuck... Remind me of Fresa and Serene sharing the chicken floss bread... Disgusting... Ok nvm... Think of other thoughts... Hmm... Water flowing... Cooling... Refreshing like a fresh mountain spring... Clear and crystal as the water flows down your face... You spotted the rain you want... Hmm... You reach out to grab it but it splatters... It's shape is all gone... Just like life... You see another this time you are not going to make the same mistake... So you reach out and you kiss it... A cool sensation on your lips... As the cold water flow down from your mouth...

Rain can also be a sad thing. For a man to cry the rain is his best friend. For a person to tear a dust could be in his eyes. The rain can make one lonely... One down... Or even cry... Why is that so ? The rain is kind and gentle, it's whether you want to love it or not.... A rainbow will come after a rain... Green trees look refresh after the rain... Beautiful flowers bloom... Each kiss is like a dream come true... But a dream will last while you are still blinded in your sleep. Till the day we awake into our true form will we really realise what we have. True happiness.. During than hahaha... No such thing as women... Yeahhhh... We are all spirits.... LOL.... Fun sia can fly in the air... Do whatever we want... free like a bird...

The rain... Maybe if God permits i'll die a rainy death... To sit in my rocking chair and pass on... While the rain beats onto my face... Hahahaha... Rainy days are the best... Cold... Soothing sound of rain... With an echo of thunder... It's like a swan gracefully swimming and a crow singing... A pity... The rain... A sign of happiness... Without it farmers will weep at the thought of a bad harvest this year... Food and money to survive... With what they have sowed they reap...

Without the rain... There would be no lakes.. Without the lakes there would be no rivers... Without the rivers there would be no ocean. The land will be dead... Things will die... Water makes up 70% of the human body... Would you kill to have water if your land turns into a desert ?

Treasure what we have... Even rain... The sun can keep us warm but it can also burn us. Treasure the things we have now. Before it is all gone... The wind that helped send my kite up into the sky.. It was fun while it lasted. I do like those big winds... Followed by the heavy rain... Hahaha... Dancing in the moon light... Playing with friends... Guys are more fun to hang out with... We can stay slient and yet have the night of our life... Women are just plain noisy... Dun care them... Anti-female... Yeahhhh.. Kick Serene out of singapore... Than party all night long... I need to find myself once again... After this attachment... I wanna go back to my former self... One that things more than he speaks... I find more peace in myself and less troubled if i do that... Now i have no choice but to program myself to speak more... Be a leader.. If it's wrong dun follow me... If it's right choose if you want to follow me... Everything is up to choice... Slacker rules... Pool is the only way i can find joy in playing... Be better and get better...

Jokes are getting lame... I guess i'll stop the joker kind of attitude from next week onward... It's not funny anymore... I want to study more and upgrade the AVA system for the church... I want to say i did it... I have tried to help God with his work... You will not be disappointed in selecting me... I will make you proud... I want to buy some things to upgrade the computer for God. If anything can help our faith... I am willing to do it... I wonder why the faith is dropping.. We are all getting worldly... We come to church for a session a week and yet we sleep during the sermon and go home after eating...

What is my goal in life ? I don't have one i guess... The world is nothing but a big disappointment... Friends are for nothing... Bros is what i have now. Yet i'm feeling i'm treating them badly and not giving them enough attention... Babies are the joy in my life... Seeing them sad will make me sad... Watching them have fun makes me happy. But i want to be free without troubles just like them... I have to think about life during my holidays... What i want to become and do... Will it affect the duty i'm entrusted with ?

I wonder how people corrupt their sense of justice, their sense of fairness ? It just isn't right... What in the world am i suppose to do ? Why is no one in the world make me feel like God is with them ? Very feel people makes me feel the way i feel in prayer.... And yet i feel so weak... Even if God is in my prayer... Even if he is beside me... My heart is always weak... Why do i feel that way... I can never catch up with others... I can not be more faithful than others... But what i want is not being more faithful than others... It's an impossible dream but i wish to have it... God.. I want to be like you... Never changing... If i say i love you... I really want to love you and not change with the course of time... I don't want to be bonded by time but yet as a mortal i cannot change such a fate... But even if i'm chained with time.. I want to waste this time on something i can do for you... And not something i will do for the devil... I want to spread my wings and fly with you... Not sink and fall away from you...

If the world feels so far from you... What more hell ? Isn't that even further... Where by then if i call upon your name, thy hand will not be able to stretched out to me.. For you have spoken and it has been done as you willed it to be... Take this curse away from me... Let me serve you... For it is you who have helped me become a better person and it is you who will make me greater... Let my temple be cleanse... Let me be blameless against you. For i curse my fate in this world as it is not where i'm suppose to be..... Let me write this words in my heart and not only in my blog. If no one sees this let you see it only... If others sees this let them be edified...

Shannon

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
3:02 pm

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Friday, February 22, 2008

Woahhhh Chill man... My previous post was too hot... The flames was like burning man.. Calm down... LOL... God is there dun care so much about this world.. Save as much people as possible.. I was browsing Youtube and woah i got this nice clip. I'll paste what the writer's message below the clip... Remember to watch first than see the message... If not spoil the fun. LOL..

In a devestated world by men,
the only glimps of hope is the memory of a forgotten past.
But be careful not to let your dreams control your mind...

The next one too cheesy... But it give hope la... Why must be girl save the guy sia... Anyway Enjoy...

A picture paints a thousand words. What more a movie without any words.. It's up to your imagination to run wild...

In an abandoned city before a tropical storm,
a woman decides to stay...
Through this film,
our ambition was to portray a particular ambience
and feeling more than a heavy storyline.

Now for the hardcore games.. This is my goal for the holidays... Train Starcraft...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:34 am

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Monday, February 18, 2008

Man i'm so pissed.... What the hell... What kind of project manager do i have ? She is so lousy at what she does man... I was thinking of a nice get away.. And now i have to work another week ? Why must work another 1 week when it's already been settled that i end this week ? Anyway i think i need to look for brother Nic to see if he has anything i can help him to do that i can use and present to the higher ups. Man... This is sick.. I fought with my boss over the date that i'm suppose to leave. I think she must be stunned since i never blown up before... But when she blows up and starts shouting the only way to counter back is to make her have nothing to say. It worked, so she was damn pissed with me that day. Childish... If you have the ability and walk straight you won't be so freaking scared.

She is a crap talker man... Since day one... Tolerating her rubbish is good enough but now she is delaying the day that i'm suppose to leave. What the hell is that gonna prove ? If you don't have the ability you don't have what it takes to be a leader. I will surpass you... Watch and see... Leaders admit their mistakes and improve on them.. Not cover their butts and run away during trouble. Asking others to solve your mistakes.

Anyway. Forgive and forget... I got Bro nic help and would be going to church this sat to see if i can install the programs needed... Thank God during my saddest moments when i'm down someone is there to talk to me... No thanks to my cousin... Man.. My sis doesn't have a bloody boyfriend la... You choose a bloody gossip instead of concern... LOL... Ok.. I've seen it all... God is my only hope... He hears and comforts me...

Talking with SS did help abit, although it what i know i should do but i just felt lost during that time... I never fought with a boss before.. How should i react ? I have no clue, what do i do from now on ? Have i worked so hard for nothing... Thanks R for the concern you really did help me out bro... LOL... But that won't change me from saying Jokes about races.... LOL... But you're a great help... Dun worry if i managed to borrow my dad's car... I'll take you to NUS... LOL... Maybe by then the project is over.... Hhahahahaha... Stupid la... If the management in TP didn't sux so much we are project buddies liao... I won't get stuck in such a stupid situation... Man... J was like ooo... Got scolded so good i want also cannot... Sian la... Is it really his IQ low or is he irritating me... So how i wanna kill him for that.... But cannot blame him.... He is rather ermm... LOL... Poor thing... Des was more like... Hey go smoke... When go drinking together... In fact he looks worst than when we last met... More like a drug addict... Damn it... Should have helped him longer... Haiz... The the friends i have got worst when i do not often meet them... Why ? I wonder...

After the prayer when my conversation was cut short with SS. It felt better... So i had a good night sleep and yep... Gone... I was having a nice long sleep. enjoying my late day... Yep... Nothing beats night shift. You got the night owl mode still switch on... LOL... Just like a holiday without the holiday part... LOL... What am i saying... Anyway... I sat on the bus after i woke up... And i remembered... What i missed out in my prayer... After so long of questioning... I finally got it. I was praying so hard... So that God will stay by my side aways.. I want to feel a strong presence of God.... I wanna shine as bright as the stars... And even stronger than the sun... I wanna be better than Moses... Better than Peter... I want to be the next person God loves the most. I didn't want to lose God.. I fear losing God.. I was overjoyed but i forgotten about God and had grown cold... That's why i'm not moving forward... Instead i'm taking 4 step backwards each day... why 4 steps backward if means death in chinese... I'm walking into the pool of death... The devils are treating me kindly to follow them... Thus i walk into the shadow of death... I find the life of sin easier for me to follow than the road of righteousness...

Many testi has already shown... Those with the HS might not go to heaven... We might fall... Anytime... Every step we take... Every move we make... But if you are scared of walking... To be serious... It might not sound nice but GIVE UP... If you are lazy... And do not wish to change... GIVE UP... Seriously God cannot help you if you do not wish to help yourself... Tahan.... Get your ring of health to boost your mind making you a healthy and strong willed person... And later get your void stone... Void off all the sins of this world and not follow it... When this two items combine you get perseverance to tahan the ways of this wicket world... That is the secret recipe to gaining your first step as a warrior in the battle for the Lord. If you want to know more about the items please ask Alvin... Thank you... I not a very good dota player anymore so ask him... See how gamers can relate to God through your god-light experiences... Ok gotta run... BB.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
6:08 pm

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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's day.... This is the time where the shops will suck up your money dry... Make your wallet empty... And get you fat by eating all that chocolate... So do you still wish to spend Valentine's day ? Hmm... Giving gifts to friends is a good thing but it doesn't need to be given on special days made by man.... It should be from the heart...

When you eat it's not about what food you eat that is so important... That would be secondary... The primary key point is who you are eating with... That is the main objective... Something that can taste bad could be sweet depending on who you eat with. Example would be when you first cook your first meal for your family and it taste like... Ermm.... S***(censored in case children sees this)... Yeah and they force it down their throat... LOL... But although it taste awful and you know it yourself. You feel happy. Hahaha... Although after that they will comment that it su**s... Man... But at least got happy for awhile good enough liao... Muahahaha.... Speaking of food. LOL.. Check out this pics i found...

The melon turtal
Makes me think about Finding Nemo

The banana snake
Guess that's how the devil tempted Eve...
LOL... He pop out of a banana..

The Kiwi Frog
So poor thing
It looks like he had a sour life

The Chicken Fruit
The fruit looks familiar but i cannot distinguish what fruit it is
But i guess i won't be eating anytime soon

The Penguin Brinjaw
Looks cute man...
But sure get eaten by polar bears or sharks.. LOL..

The Tomatoe Horse
Man... It makes me wanna puke my guts out
Creative so i guess i'll give it a 10/10 for helping slimming centers

The Banana Dog
LOL... Doggy !!!
Cute man... Should have used a dog as the angel to fight the stupid devil snake... So cute...

I don't really find this funny
but i guess i might have some friends that like this kind of things

Well that's all folks... Time to hit the keyboard and start working... I think if i hit it hard enough i'll break the keyboard and i won't have anything to do... Muhahahaha... OK lame... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:48 am

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008

The SMARTEST thing a foolish man can do is to love God
The DUMBEST thing a wise man can do
is to prove God doesn't exist
The LUCKEST thing a sinner can get is to know God
The WORST thing a man can do is to forget about God

This were the words that i suddenly got inspired to write. Man... When you are more to the world... The more will you miss God... Well... Back to my project... Byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:04 pm

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Sunday, February 10, 2008

Today it was a rather funny day... It's like... Wake up at 12 pm just to watch ghost show la... Than watch half way got to drive to church... LOL... Actually nothing much... I was having fun, went for service... Hmm... A time for everything... Have i done anything right in my life ? I wonder... The feeling of just getting out of church is so easy.... I bet if i go out now no one will know... Just assume i go to the other side... LOL... Oh well... Forget about that thought... Think so much for what... Just don't care bah...

Church... Spring... A time of new beginning... 青春... The reason is because it's the time where it's brightest and most colorful part of our lives...新年 or 春年 is the beginning of the new year... When the crops are being planted.... It is where we buy new things and throw the old things... Or clean up the old things we have so that it will look new. LOL... That part nearly made me sleep... But the later part hit me so hard.... Winter is like what every Singaporean wants... Hahahaha... We even joke about it. Yeah right... And Singapore will snow... We want the cold since all we have is only rain or shine... But winter is like cold... So cold that you may hibernate. Creature that hibernate may look as if it's dead but it's alive and kicking... Just that they have fallen into deep sleep. Man.... Have we felt like that before ? I guess that's what i'm feeling now... Work... It's my life. God ? Where in the world is He ?

I guess Shi Sang's nick is the best... Further from man... Closer to God. Away from the world will result in talking to God face to face... Man... Have i went into hibernation ? I don't even know when i enter into hibernation.... That's bad... Oh well just as my dad said... Even if i walked into the road of hell i will not know it and continue ignoring God's call and walk into the road of death... Sad... Oh well.. No point thinking now... If i'm to thread on God's path i must heed his call Oh well.. No point thinking so much... Sleep first.. These few days play game until 6am... LOL... Sure monday cannot wake up for work... Hahaha... Oh well.. Dun care la.. Always cannot go back early keep on doing OT and no money... I need to earn more money... Wedding... School Fees.. Phone Bill... All need money.. I don't want to take anything from my parents... They have given me alot and i want to give them back the same... If i can do anything to help them in anyway or keep them happy... I'll try my best to help out.... Anyway now keeping myself close to God again must be done right away.... Slacking will not help anything... It will make things worst... I'm gonna work on it for tomorrow onwards... Now i'll just play my games.... LOL...

Today drove to church and back... LOL... Sian la... But rather fun experience every time we do that... Really need to thank God for his protection.... 2nd time while i driving already... Man...Super protection... I should have died a long time ago... I have escaped death twice... God has given me the chance to live longer... Will i disappoint him ? Man... I can't drive to places i don't know at night... I'll die if i drive at night... Oh well... Don't think so much... Just be grateful...

Man... Suddenly during mid night i got the lamest sms i ever had.... LOL... Somebody sms me ask me why my name is called Shannon... Actually simple la... My Jap name lor... Just nice i cannot type the full name in Dota so just use Shannon... And that's how my name came about... Shannon... Sad man... Shannonnii was the actual plan... Anyway just to let that person know...

Wine is a good thing.. Just don't drink so much... Some people can drink alot some people cannot. Best is to have 1 glass a day before sleeping... Hahaha... That way you can sleep so peacefully... Hahahaha... but remember to pray before you drink if not you KO at the wrong time... LOL... Anyway today rushed back for steam boat la... Sian... I thought can slack at home and sleep for a day... But it's best i drink at home... That way if i KO i KO at home... LOL... Like that i cannot sin.... Hahaha... At least not sin unto death... Cos the first place i go is my bed... LOL... Smart right... Hahaha... But if want to drink with friends 1 cup will do... No more... For guy if they drink it's Ok... The most you lost everlasting life... LOL... That is if you can afford losing it la... For me forget... Don't drink better... LOL... For girls.. man... You lose everything bah... So forget it best don't drink at all... Get ready pepper spray if you drinking... LOL... Don't anyhow take taxi... Alot of drivers at night take advantage of girls if not careful... You sway than kanna those kind sian lor... Hahaha... Anyway... That was not what i wanted to say... So nvm... Can't remember what i wanted to say since i lack so much sleep but anyway take care man.... Happy New Year... I go sleep liao... nitez... Oh yeah play pool... Nearly lost... but still got 1st place... LOL... I don't settle for 2nd on new year... Maybe birthdays but not special events... I want to remember it well by making it a good game... LOL... Anyway... Really gotta sleep.... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:56 am

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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Hahahha... Guess where am i now ? It's a sunday and i very rainy and wet day... LOL... Work... Yeah... But not so bad la... Very little work... So not much people here... LOL... It's like i own the place... Hahahaha... Shiok... Yesterday i think i was very tired... I keep sleeping and sleeping... So bored with my life... Can't i be like before... When i want to go out.. I just leave the place... Play batminton or something.... Having lots of fun....

But it's cool... You know... Wandering around the place is cool... So many places to see... I bet if we all gather and play catching on the 5th floor some of us might never make it out... LOL... Joking.... But if you don't have a pass than so sorry... Hahaha... You confirm cannot run away from the catcher.... Actually not bad... Should organize a game of catching in a haunted house or something.... So much space and nobody goes one... Sure it's kinda creepy but who to blame... Women don't do housework what can men do ? Of abandon the house and find a new one la... Let the devils take control... Like he very big like that... Give him a piece of land when there are homeless people in other parts of the world...

Anyway it was so cool man.... I love the place... I sort of got my bearing wrong but i managed to find out so many exits la... Seriously if there is a fire... We can all escape... Except the exit for the first floor is abit small so squeezing would be a nice option... Ran up and down the place... LOL... trying to find all the funny places... Managed to go to some places and empty places where no one goes... So nice... So peaceful... Anyway i'm gonna watch some shows to wild away my time... Since i'm so free and i did everything already... I guess i can play some game and spend my lonely time having fun... LOL... KK.. Dun talk liao... You should see it for yourself... If you are not working the place could be very beautiful to go to and visit... Hahahaha... Blog again tomorrow... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
1:11 pm

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