The Forgotten Land

Friday, March 21, 2008

Long time no see.... Hahahaha.... It's been a long time since i last blog. 3 weeks at least... But well... I guess... Other than the reason of going for a holiday with church, parents, with friends.. And now i'm about to go with my sis's family to ermm... I dunno where... But still malaysia... Sian la... But the other reason would be playing WOW... In case you don't know what WOW is... It's World Of Warcraft... Just typing the full name makes me excited already.

I've woke up and played the game like mad for the past 2 weeks 4 days... 3 days i spent to curb my addiction... I feel so drawn into the game i don't even feel hungry for my daily meals... What in the world i'm thinking ? I have no clue... Just play.. Dun care... Man... Never was there a game that made me drawn into it until like that... In the game world. I am rich and powerful... Well more rich that in the real world.. LOL.. So much so that i'm unwilling to go to church on friday nights or wed service. Faith of mine is easily destroyed... I tried to control but still i see my computer more than i see God... Cut short prayers just for WOW...

It's no wonder why i was scolded by my dad about it. He was saying more like playing for 24 hrs and dying after that. Later it hits me so hard i was speechless... How can i abandon God just for a bloody game ? If i just played game and not see God daily, if he took away the HS would it be worth it ? After so many years of asking and i lose it in a few months... Ermm... Correction weeks... Which is worse... Man... My dad though i was angry since i didn't say anything... But i have been trying to curb it already and i wasn't angry... I was feeling guility that's why i didn't reply him... But he never asked me any questions so i wasn't in the wrong. It would be rude to interrupt words of wisdom... LOL... Maybe it's my excuse but really a voice inside me just screaming to me get a grip and return back to God a few days ago when Glenn told me my soul was chained to the game. Hearing for someone else being glue to WOW so much that the person didn't go to church made me scared. Will i be the game's next victim ? What have i done ? Have i fell into the clutches of the devil ? Why do i get stuck to this kind of stupid situation... My life... No goal... No women... Only WOW... What the hell... Where was the once God you are my everything ? I see the talk with my dad was the 2nd slap i have from God.

More importantly i have not been to singapore church for 3 weeks in a row when i leave in a few mins left. And spiritual meeting some more... I guess i'm so dead... Oh well... I can only hope and pray more than play more... Seriously.. I don't wish to be a forsaken one... It's too fearful... THe thought of losing the HS, will make me cry... Even worst than the day Joel left singapore all of a sudden. Anyway i've gotta log out.. Will blog more about the trips when i find my freaking wire cable.. Ok... GOtta go byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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Friday, March 21, 2008