The Forgotten Land

Monday, May 26, 2008

Woah just played with my friend audition. Man. The Koreans are good players. Hey anyone playing audition ? Add me. I know i'm lousy but add me. I wanna play and improve. Hahaha. Condination is super perfected by playing this game. Now not only can i type fast but i can also type accurately without making much mistakes within a short period of time. Yeah i know telling you the koreans are god light players won't help so here's a video of koreans playing with one another. And nooo.... They are girls.. Well most of them. So to lose to them is a total shame for guys. So guys out there you know what to do arr... LOL...

This video might be blur but who cares the tempo is fast and you can see the purple colour perfects. Man. Don't focus so much on the perfects. Be amazed by all the quick and accurate pressings of the buttons. These players are hardcore. Man. I wish i can hit those numbers. 500000 and above. But for now my aim is 400000. I only got 300000 during my last game. Man... Still far far away from winning. LOL. I used to get like 120,000 for an entire game. LOL. Sick. I remembered i perfected the whole cannon in D free style game. But i can't seem to do that anymore. Hahaha. Oh well. Guess it's more practise i guess. LOL. So S is gonna help me with my dancing.

Glenn has been wanting to play with me Warcraft but it just can't seem to work at the moment we can't connect the games together. So oh well. Yup. Nah wants to play as well. Zi Chao is going crazy with the connection. And hahaha. Oh well. Let's not bother with the rest. I'm getting bored of Cabal. Too much hacking and slashing. LOL. WOW is way much better. More fun as well. LOL. Ok. Moving on.

Today went to TK for AVA training. Wasn't very fun. But i guess it could be better if i wasn't so sleepy. Wanted to go out with Glenn and play pool but he wasn't picking up the phone. Until i got home and started eating at 5.30 pm an hour later. We ended the whole messaging thing at 7 pm. And he decided not to come. I mean like. Come on man. Can't you even talk a full conversation before putting your phone away. We agreed to meet man. Zi Chao wasn't at home when i called. So he wasn't invited. Oh well. If you see this don't worry. We have plenty of chances in the future. Next time it will be the 3 of us playing pool. Trying to pyscho my cousins into playing audition. Man. It's cool. Dance till the sun falls down. Man. I love dancing. Wish i could dance like that in real life. Break dancing popping and locking. Yeahhh baby. I looks so cool. But sure get scolded by my parents if i learnt that. So nvm la. Go learn something else. Will until they die than go learn break dance. LOL. So evil.

Joking. Anyway by that time i break dance all my bones will be crushed. So better not la. Walked the stupid dog in the park. Sometimes i wonder if i walk the dog or the dog is walking me. Dumb mutt. I don't want to strangle you but if you keep running and forcing your way forward it's your choice to die. LOL. Don't blame me if you end up in a dog meat stew pot. LOL. Ok enough of that. I better sleep. Nitez guys.

Oh yeah Lolli. You are beautiful but please don't make your beautiful something ugly. I wish you happiness but please dun F*** with me. Thank you. I said please. LOL. It's polite for friends to say please to one another. Hahaha. Nvm. But seriously. I don't like saying the F word but if you force me i will. So dun see me as a freaking holy boy cuz i ain't one punk.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
2:03 am

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

What in the world is Zero thinking ? Man... Smart sia that dumbass... Kill so many people just like that. But as i watch the show it's getting more and more fake. How come just nice there got a underwater base to allow him to gain victory over his foes ? Don't tell me crap like god bless him. That is plain rubbish. Man... His smartness is becoming "smartness" to me now. The director is making it too drama already. Oh well. Anyway i enjoy the show. It's rather nice. LOL. Oh yeah there is that kumar show or something on the movies now. LOL... Super dumb man. Err... But for my church friends. I don't think it's spiritually benificial cos it's like too much F*** words or porn thingy for awhile be it guy or gal. It's this a bad show for us. But the yellow jokes are so funny. Plus the terrorist death. LOL. Super funny. But anyway shows are shows. Dun give too much attention to it. Oh yeah it's also a super racist show cos the guys after kumar and his bud is super racist, anyone black cannot be trusted. And Indians are al terrorist. LOL. Sick sia...

Only americans can make such shows. LOL. Singapore make one sure kanna sued by govt. like mad. But also good la, that way the country can be at peace. LOL. Oh yeah have you noticed that people from china are poping out from everywhere ? Sick sia. Singapore ain't singapore anymore. The feeling isn't there anymore with all this china people around. Yes they create jobs but somehow i'm guessing i'll leave singapore for another country instead. Maybe aus if i get the chance to get a job there.

So Lolli, byez. The times spent together was good while it lasted. I'm gonna get a ang mor wife instead. LOL. Sick... Nah forget it. Singapore girls are great. Just that. I prefer Jap. LOL. More compact easy to travel. LOL. Can fit inside a bag pack and bring where ever you wish. LOL. Say until like product like that. LOL. I dunno. Nobody wants to go japan with me sia. All dun want to work and get money to go there. It's my dream to go there. But oh well. So far only got one friend willing to go with me and he is freaking rich man. GO there he enjoy i stay there and eat cup noodles. LOL. Haiz. Maybe i'll go live in japan... Own a hot spring resort and enjoy my stay there. LOL. Boring. Business man still can travel the world. More fresh. Oh well. Nothing to say la. Guess i'll go sleep or something. Super bored.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
8:31 pm

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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Hahaha, It's been a long time since i last blogged. Ok. Here goes. Well remember life is not all smooth sailing. Yep. The wind has just stopped blowing so i'm just stuck in the race. First crushes are always blinding. Man. I'm happy seeing her with her new boyfriend. But she just had to break my heart in a special way. Damn i hate you but all the more i want you. Thank you for telling me sorry you were an hour late. I love you too but another guy just asked me already and i gave him a chance. You should have told me that 3 years ago. You are a great guy. Hope you find the girl of your dreams.

Something like that la can't remember every word on the phone. But the girl of my dreams is you. I just love hearing your voice once again. But it's funny you use the f word like in every freaking line. Hahahaha. Sad you should change man. But who am i to judge. Hope you are loved with your new lover. If there is anything you would like to tell me remember i'm always here for you. Hahaha. Sick la. Break me heart in this stupid way... Could you not say the 1 hr thingy. Just say you found another guy la. Make me regrate about this and that.... Now i'm hating myself for saying i like you..... But at least i finally got it of my chest. But you should have told me that 3 years ago was the final blow man...

Freaking girl... Mimic how i say it and i'll kill you. LOL. Hit is love, scold is dote, so kill is love like mad... LOL... If i use this logic all killers are the best lovers. LOL... K la. Just kidding but i'm serious about the dun mimic sia. I'll find a way to wack you lor. I not like Leo i won't say rape you one. Rape not fun lor. Wack better. LOL. Can destress. Carnal pleasure is for short period of fun. Wack can feel shiok. Anyway i got my other more important reasons to object to rape. Just dun play so wild la you. You never know when you'll get cheated. I'm a man i know the worst. Got my blog already dun anyhow spread lor. Anyway your fault la make me spend so much of my time writting about you. You very big arr. Go away.

Yeah ermm... I wanted to write about yeah. My project got merged so i need to spend extra time in school again. To merge the project need some time. Sick sia. Looks like need to spend money already la. Pay one more sem of money.Just let me go already la. Keep me so long just to suck money sia...

But ok la. Rather fun sia. Play games with Glenn. He super funny when he plays. Play with 2 computer cannot beat one. 2 teams with huge number of players can do separate things due to the same mind they have which is store somewhere in their database. But just ended a game with him. He is starting to get good. LOL. But still play with human players better. Can play ambuse. Just now ambuse also not fun. Computer know what to do already.

In church lei... Forget liao but hahaha. Fun sia. Sleeping over in church is always nice. Anyway super nice la. Alot of things to remember and ohhh... I remember... The dreaded piano... Hymn leading man... I wanted to stop and just go back to sleep. Anyway. LOL. Gotta sleep la. Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:47 am

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Sunday, May 04, 2008

Funny. Today was like.... Hahaha... I can't explain... It's like... Cloud 9 man... I never slept for 10 hours before.... LOL.... I almost woke up at 3 pm.... Woke up at 11 am but i just went back to sleep after looking at the weather. I started dreaming.... I've forgotten about the details but hahaha. How can i forget the main subject... LOL... Vicky..... Damn you... Didn't expect you would still read my blog. Ok. Don't poke your nose too much wor... Your nose might get stuck at the door. LOL.

Well no use for me to deny anything now. Since it's in the open, so be it. Should have seen this coming. Yes... Spent the whole afternoon just laying on my bed and doing nothing. Played some games installed some files and did my project. So hoping that she'll call me. But for what sia. LOL. She is busy so i should not bother her. I must resist. Damn... I can't take this. I'm gonna blow. I need to do something with my life. I must take up courses and make myself busy. I wanna hit somebody. Kendo is a nice choice. I want to hit people with just a stick. How cool is it to kill someone with a sword. I wish i was back during the days of the samurai. But to walk the path of the ninja or the samurai. To be living in the dark or walk in the middle of the road with a sword ? LOL. Oh well those age is long gone.

I've been watching this anime. Hahaha. My friend says it's sick cause the main character is making use of others. On the contrary i find the main char super smart. Sometimes the weak are meant to die. Stupid people must die. Muahahaha... I see many people who can study. I must admit it's good. To get full marks. But i want to know is how do you apply quick wit with smartness. I admit i'm not as smart. So i want to be smarter. Imagin having everything and anything. But that isn't what i want right ? Hmm..... It's good to have cash and all but i just want money to get what i need and the rest lol... Put into the bank for the govt. to take every month and letting my wife spend the rest. Make sure my kids can go to school with the money i still have and food for our survival. That's all. But i really want to use my ability to the best.

To say i have grown better. I do not believe that, i believe i have a dark side that wishes to explode anytime. To say i wish for God. I think i don't really love God that much since i am starting to lose it already. Trying to avoid going to church. Trying to get out of activities pertaining to God. Closeness ha... Funny. Pray awhile than say you are close to God what a laught. Super lame la. When people complain or pester you to go to church more. You get irritated and want to scold the person for not understanding you. But is that the truth ? Feeling guility in such a way that i prefer denial and switching this denial to complain that it doesn't go my way.

Asked why for suggestions get things like 辛苦你了. Who the hell cares about that... If God says that ok i'm honoured to the max. I'm happy. But from mortals. Who gives a damn. Humans. Nothing about them are even 1% good. Church equal good, right. I don't see anything good in the church at all. Our church members are good ? Are we good ? Search deep into our hearts. Are you good ? Am i good ? Don't give crap like how you define good. You know deep in your hearts, what is good.

Anyway i just feel that human should just be destroyed. So much suffering that it has brought to God. If we are all gone, God will never feel the pain again. We should have been destroyed or we all repent and follow God like loyal servants. To make it sound ugly it will be turning into dogs but would God dress a useless dog ? Would he feed a useless dog ? Yes and why ? Feeling insulted to be called dogs ? The moment we ate the fruit of good and evil we could no long be God's favourate like how it began. Humans. Must disappear if he or she doesn't bring honour to God.

Some people asked if God liked peace we should not join the army. But give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar and give to God what belongs to God. Remember that ? It was a what Jesus taught us. So forget about being a lazy ass and not going to army. Go get tortured for the first few months as a lowly recruit and build your freaking ranks. Not stay as a freaking clark to escape NS by getting a freaking fake medical letter. Hmm.. Guess from my tone you can tell i'm not as good as what bro n has said about me. I'm a freaking loser. Ball-less, i can't even tell the girl i seriously like from the bottom of my heart i like her. Resulting me losing her. Now i found her back and i'm still as ball-less as before. I'm still a loser. How can a loser be fit enough of like someone like her. Someone so perfect. I want a change.

The only thing i feel proud of is getting the HS, an approval of God. He has finally seen me from such a small dot on the earth. But will i let him go for a girl ? I wonder. That makes my accomplishments go back down to zero. I must change... I will not be a loser. I want to be able to answer Pr. C when he ask me if i can put things into his PDA. I want to be able to say YES with confident and not say should be able to. I want to be better. I want to know what i have been learning for the past 3 years. I want to get what i want. With my own abilities. With my own hands.

A loser will always remain a loser if he does nothing about his life. I want to take control of it. I want to maintain getting to be close to God and man at the same time. But now a days making friends equal to sinning, friends like to drink and smoke. Drinking but if it doesn't lead to sin. Ok. But to make things unsafe for my spiritual health, no i will not go. Truely i will not risk my HS and i would rather lose such a friend. Anyway got to do some research and finish my reflection. I guess i need to ponder more about lot of things.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:22 pm

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