The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Tears just flowed down without me wanting it to happen... It left a glimering trail of tear. Maybe we never wanted it to happen. Maybe we forgotten God. Maybe it pricks us from the heart.

I know i can never be like thee. Never as strong as thee. But give me faith, give me hope. Give me perservences to go past all obsticles without fail. I may lag behide other but hold my hand so i can complete the race in the end.

Give me the will to change myself. Walk with me Lord. So that i may be like you. Be my peer pressure and influence me to be you. To be holy. Not by the eyes of man but for your eyes and your eyes only.

Please be my lover. Let me kneel down before you, to give sweet words to you from the bottom of my heart. Let me love you with all my heart. Make me pure with clothes of white. Please give me a heart of love which requires no rewards, a heart that will give everything to you with no expectation of anything back.

Let me love you forever. Do not let me make you cry again. Let my heart be pierced if i make you cry. Let me be sad for making you sad. Come to me my love, tie me a string to you so if ever i lose my way i can alway come back to you. Lord let me do your work with honour.

May i never regrate making this my choice, may i never sin before you. Help me to show the young lambs the way to your kingdom. Do not let me be a stumbling block. Let my heart pour our my sorrows to you. For you my love is my all. All my worldly desires will die away, but my love for you i want it to stay forever. Do let me be punished by my actions but show the young ones your mercy. Do not let me disappoint you, as you are the creator and you will be the one to bring us up to heaven. Do not let the young ones stray away from you. My love, the eternal Lord who rules and creates all things pleasent. Let your servant do your work give me the talent that is needed to earn twice as much for thee.

May i your bride never run away from thee. To stay in thy fold. Always being with thee till the end of time. Let me pick up my cross and follow thee.

Lord seriously i crap too much... Please help me. Dun let me crap during lessons, let the students jaw drop to the ground amazed at what you did for them. You're the man. You overcame sin you know... Not human... But wooo... You did it.. Cool sia... As expected from God. Live a pure life.

Lord i really want to be like you. But i don't show that aura. I can't be the man you want me to be. I have no guts to tell people about you. So i used a blog. When people ask me i breath in deeply to suck up my courage and tell them... But they don't ask me questions after that so i dun shoot the arrows back at them. Please help my friend to cut down his smoking. He smoke too much and he teaching me to talk more lamer crap.

Help my friend ZX to move his heart and come to church and slowly accepting your words. Help Glenn, he seriously crapping alot since he entered army. But help him in his faith... If ever he faith is shaken be there for him. Help Nah in any problems he faces. Women always got problem so no need to bother about them... But if they get too heavy to bear. Let us gather and share our troubles. Lord take our burdens and cast them to the oceans.

Lord take me with you if you ever want to leave me. I don't mind going up early. Just make sure my family don't cry for me. Let them rejoice in me returning to your arms. Let me stay pure in such dark times. Lit my candles once more to make them brighter. Let me shine and keep the darkness away from me. Care for the sick and remember them always. Let your children be glad to see thee and rejoice when the body is one. Let me look forward for a brighter tomorrow when i draw near to you more and more. May God remember this post forever.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:28 am

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Sunday, August 24, 2008

I was sad... Filled with burden... Hahaha... Wanted to cry but just cannot cry... But one person managed to comfort me. By saying the right words. He managed to make me cry... After that feel so good. It's amazing how crying can feel so good. Trapping all those burdens is just like your skin is trying to ripe itself into pieces.

Hahaha... Nah still tease me.... Haiz... I feel so guility... Oh yeah.. Show you what he sent me.

Asked my Korean friend what the songs means.. She said it's "God, All i want is you..." Touching.... Make me think that i'm grasping air. Something that is impossible. I feel better if we were just all friends... Like that talk until so free..

Wooo.... When and had fun today. Talked with Nah from 2 to 4pm. Wooo... Shiok... But he also very lame. Send me a picture of Noah ark on a map.... Haiz... One day show you guys.

Today went to church usual sermon.. Rather interesting one too... Too bad so many people sleeping. After that ZC and i were counting money since first time i dunno if i do correct or not but i guess it's ok bah. Anyway. I was thinking.... Why in the world did i land myself into this mess. LOL. I know i'm good with the girls... But to have 5 girls fighting for me at the same time is maddness... I was raped by 5 little girls.... 2 of them is my niece some more... Err... The term rape as in when you play a game you kanna rape. Dun think dirty. I carried them up into the air and played with them for awhile. Until i was so giddy i nearly fell. Lucky i slowed down the spinning. If not fell on a kid will really become baby sitting. At least i can tell the girl i have fallen on you. LOL. EEEE so disgusting... We like you... Come with us... LOL... Kids... Dunno what they are saying... My T-shirt is being pulled into a dress now. I can use it to cover my legs.... LOL...

Managed the microphone today... And tested the speakers... Make sure the presentation next week goes well. Did some recording. And wooo... Done... Went up did some mopping... Became a servent for my nieces and ran down to get them water... I just love my nieces... Haiz... Too bad they dun feel the same way but dun care la. I kanna bullied by the older one... You arr... Dare to hit me... Lucky i not childish if not i bite you. Bunnies will bite when hurt.

Anyway i was too hungry so i ask the group if can go and eat first than meet nah after that. Told nah we go order first. Later when he finished Choir than come and meet us. So bad he called Sen Kee instead to ask if we still there or not so sad. Depend on me more mah still say we bro. Grrr... Bite you... Anyway i was packing the microphone before we left and ZC was like boss we are all ready and awaiting your orders. LOL... So lame lor. I just stared at him... But he no reaction... Actually everyone really waiting outside for me.. LOL.. But my duty mah... AVA crew... Haiz.. I think i need to go back choir liao... Cannot run away for too long... We walked all the way to the prata store... And yes it was 6 pm already.. Cool got Nan. I wanted to eat cheeze nan but in the end intro Glenn Nasi Goreng Pataya, so ate that as well. Wasted.. Next week must eat nan...

Yeah anyway we all steady SK, Vic, Glenn and i ate Nasi Goreng Pataya. Wooo.. Long time never eat liao. So nice... The chicken was sooo was sooo was sooo little lor... I only ate 3 small pieces... It's like your porriage those chicken slices... Sick.. And the prawn never peel for you one... Last time still got peel for me. And the chicken so much some more. Classic everyone eat the same thing and drink the same thing. LOL. Except ZC, traitor... Still say won't bui Steady one... LOL... In the end also change your mind eat something else. Ai yo... Anyway forgot to ask Nah about my modified Wii... Any news to get such a console.

Nah ate Garlic Nan... Smells so nice... But nvm la... His food dun take from him... I still hungry now but gonna sleep liao... Dun eat.. Anyway... Wah i really nothing to say. Go Sun Plaza with SK, Vic and Glenn. Stupid sia, since the prata shop talk about hacking. So i explain in a way how the cyber world exist and how hackers find their way into your computer. How to prevent it from becoming worst. Talk until go guardient ok whatever the spelling is... Than waited for Glenn i think an hour ... I think SK bought some face wipes or something... Then while waiting for Glenn we talked about how Pregnacy kit works while holding one in our hands and reading information about it. And how sex change is being done... And how liposucksion is being done. PLastic surgery.... lots of funny things. After that total slience for 2 to 3 mins... Cos i ran out of topics to say. Not bad lor i managed to talk for 50 plus mins man... Almost a sermon... Without hymn singing and prayer. LOL. But it's crap talking so not bad... Improvement. LOL.

Ermm... Glenn come over and said my facial stuff cost 300 bucks. Man... Mine only 8.90 lor... My parents will kill me the moment it touches 100 bucks. That made SK laught. LOL. His laughter rather funny. He should relax abit. But you want to see the Baby confirming kit look at Vicky's blog. Our eyes popped out and our jaws touched the ground when we heard the magic words.. Thank you that will be $342.90...

Later just walked to cold storage freaking lame lor. Walk inside than walk out... Never buy anything sia... So return home liao... SK took bus... 3 of us go MRT. Vicky and i took the same train home... Talk crap with her... Can't remember what we talked... LOL.. Anyway Ang Mo Kio super crowded la.. All running up the bus to get a space. Women wearing american football gears charging up the bus knocking guys down to the floor and stepping on them ... LOL... No la.. But i think women got advantage lor.. Got breast la.. If i not scare i kanna charge for molesting i fight with them go up the bus liao... If guy kanna molested people will say you very lucky... If girl kanna molested... You are a monster... No fair right... You feel lucky if a old granny come up and rape you meh... She jump on you, you also cannot do anything. LOL. Ok i'm crapping. Anyway too tired. Yeah i hate bus 74 always so crowded and so many people. 72 ends their last bus very early so cannot take during that time. If only i could borrow my dad's car home. Wouldn't have return home so late. Still can park the car at my house some more...

LOL... Lazy la i admit. Anyway talked on msn with Vicky and Victor... LOL.. So much crap... Plus wah... Vicky say the baby testing kit.... So embrassing.... Ai yo.. Dun say liao... 2 men and 1 woman starring at eeee... Dun say liao.... Why that time can talk until so shiok without any feeling of discomfort ?

I think i crap too much already... My friends are all crapping with me now... Even SK !!! He starting to crap abit liao... He is laughting to my jokes... No somebody save him.... Nooo.... His aura leaving him... He gonna be a mortal like us normal people. THE MAN 2... Will disappear for the earth... LOL... Anyway i tired dun crap liao... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
3:10 am

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