The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I feel sad.
I'm leaving my bed soon.
Soon i cannot see my parents.
Soon i cannot be filial to my parents.

I'm glad i won't see my parents when i go in.
But i'm sad that happens as well.
My mom will be very sad when i go in.
I should not have told her i'm going into camp.

When they leave for a holiday,
i'll be going overseas for 3 months as well.
I'll not be coming back for 3 whole months.
To not reveal the truth sometimes might be a good thing.

I should try my best to keep secrets to myself.
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.
Sometimes i think being a christian is tough.
There are so many things you cannot do.
But it's for you own good.
I just don't understand.
Why can we give in to evil so easily but take ages to do good ?
Why can the devil wrap it's arms around your heart ?
To squeeze it and make you fall.

I miss my bed... I will miss it alot.
My bed, my pillow, haiz... It's not like theolo 3 or 4 weeks.
It's 3 months.
And you get to sleep on your bed for 1 night out of the 7 days you have.
Oh well.

Why does girls like to hear lies ?
I wonder why....
Am i pretty ? How do i look ? Have i gotten fatter ?
When you already know the answer still ask me.
Isn't that stupid ?
If you want to hear lies, don't bother asking me.
I won't give you that satisfaction.

Recently working in an almost all girls environment.
Haiz. Freaking bored.
I never want to look at a pretty women again.
I saw one girl that looks like L.
Another one i knew today sounds like L.
WTH !!! What do i keep thinking of L all of a sudden ?
You suck. Go away. Shoo out of my head. Bye bye.

Everything pretty is related to L anyway. Stupid.
Haiz. Best la. I think i go to sleep bah.
Don't want to talk about her anymore.
After so many years still can think of her means something is wrong.
Haiz. What is wrong with me.
I need to make myself busy with something else instead.
Working with girls makes me feel sad.
Although it's good to know new people each day.
But... This feeling is kind of stupid.

I want a dog. I don't care.
I'm buying a dog no matter what.
Want to love, best to love a dog.
Would be loyal to me. Won't be so petty.
Won't have mood swings.
Yup. This settles everything.
After my 3 months i'll get a dog.
Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:08 pm

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

The grass is always greener on the other side.
When one does not attain it he craves for it.
When one is not in the other's shoes he doesn't understand.
To earn money is not easy.
To spend on the other hand is too easy.

Hardwork that parents have done for us is too great.
Yet we blame them for not giving enough.
Woe are the unfillial children.

To them they have no love for God.
As they do not even know how to love their parents.
One can only attain love when he gives his heart.
Both to God and men.

Working i saw someone at work that looks like L.
I miss L... Oh well.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
7:38 pm

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Have we felt as if we were walking in circles.
Like walking in the wilderness ?
Or worst when we are lost do we forget about God ?

If we still remember God.
When we are lost do we know what to do even if we feel God is not there with us ?

That is to give up that burden.
I have recently spent 70% of their thoughts spent on useless worrying.
Which i know is even more for women.
This subjects us to lower performance.
That way we would not excel in our goals.
Giving up easily.

So just keep swimming. Keep on going.
You will find God again...
And you can sing this song when you feel better.
Sort of a song from my childhood days.
Keep getting stuck in my head, can't forget it. Enjoy.

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

I think I can make it now, the pain is gone
All of the bad feelings have disappeared
Here is the rainbow I’ve been prayin?for
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

Look all around, there’s nothin?but blue skies
Look straight ahead, nothin?but blue skies

I can see clearly now, the rain is gone,
I can see all obstacles in my way
Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind
It’s gonna be a bright (bright), bright (bright)
Sun-Shiny day.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
3:41 am

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Sunday, October 05, 2008

There once was a tree, huge and beautiful.
A kid stumbled across the big and beautiful tree.
He played by the tree and fell in love with it.
Swung himself from the vines that were drooping down.
Sat on the branch to watch the sunrise and sunset.
Slept by the ground with the roots as his pillow.

The boy loved the tree, so did the tree.
The tree loved the boy as he was dear to it.
As years went by the boy slowly spent lesser time with the tree,
until one day he stopped visiting the tree.

One day the boy came back, the tree was very happy.
The boy told the tree.
I need money, can you give me money ?
The tree gave it some thought.
It told the boy, pluck all the fruits on the branch and sell them.
You will get the money with that.
So the boy picked the fruits and did not return.

As year went by the tree grew even bigger but wasn't able to bear any fruits.
The boy came back to visit the old tree, as a young man.
The tree was excited and thrilled to see the young boy again.
This time the young man told the tree.
I'm getting married i need to build a house for myself.
Can you give me a house ?
The tree pondered before saying, here take my branches.
Cut them off, it should be enough to build a house.
So the young man did as he was told and did not return after.

The wind blew as each day passed by, the boy did not return.
One day the man returned.
He was worried and frowning.
The told the tree. I am tired of this place.
I want a boat so i can travel to the other side and see new places.
So the tree thought for awhile, cut my log and make it into the boat you wanted.
The man heeded the tree and did as he was told and sailed over to the other side.

Season passed, winds blew.
Spring, Summer, Autum and Winter came to past.
Yet the boy did not return.
But one fine day, an old man came over to the tree.
The tree was unsure at first but soon joy filled it's heart.
It was the young boy who had grown up.
The Tree told the old man.
Before you tell me your troubles i would like to say.
I cannot give you anything more.
For i have nothing left to give you.
I am nothing but a stump.

The old man, had tears in his eyes.
He told the tree, i am old,
weary and tired of fighting in this world.
I just want to sit by your side and accompany you.
If you would allow me to do so,
please let me sleep beside you like in my younger days.
I wish to be with you till the end of my days.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:17 pm

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Friday, October 03, 2008

What does it mean when you say your burden will be taken away for you when you rely and cast your troubles to him ?

Will you really feel comforted ? I don't think it's working for me. Maybe it's because my heart doesn't have him at the moment. I spoke with Nah over something. Decided and acted upon my decision. I don't feel happy over the judgement i have applied to the situation.

After that came disappointment, when i needed happiness to forget my sorrows. Hahaha. Guess, i'm facing a change now. But i don't think it's for the better now.

Wonder why i'm feeling like this. Is this writting too little ? Hmm... I don't think i have much to talk anyway. Byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
7:33 pm

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About Me

Crossroads

Memories Of The Wind

Whispers Of The Forest

Whistle While You Walk

The Trodden Road

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