The Forgotten Land

Saturday, November 29, 2008

When i pray with you i want to cry.
Because i remember what i went through.
The times before i had the HS.
It wasn't luck that gave me the HS.
It wasn't me snatching someone's HS.
It was you praying with me for the HS.

It was you who told me not to give up.
To drag me to go to church early and pray.
To spend time praying with me.
To make me desperated for something i cannot attain.
To make me want it more than anything in the world.

Thanks for the chocolates, the bible.
The cranberry juice was specially delicious.
Cos someone bought them for me.
LOL. I feel more comfortable.

But today abit naughty la.
I run away from service with Gxxxn.
LOL. He went to buy game some more. WTH.
I nothing to say.
But i was falling asleep so cannot tahan.
Need to go out and walk walk.

Ok. Gotta sleep. If not tomorrow cannot wake up for church.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:25 pm

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Friday, November 14, 2008

Can you not vent your fustration for nothing you PMS bitch ?
So what if you are the boss.
Man i really wanted to screw you till you cried.
You want to blame blame yourself for being such a freaking fool.
Go find a solution instead of being such a bitch and make everyone unhappy.
You fool. I can predict your company will close down soon.
You have good workers but i can confirm without a good leader.
The best generals will fall into the hands of the enemies.

Know when to pull back and move forward.
The world of business is not as easy as you look.
You need tactics in order to be successful.
Adelene you are a good person but you cannot adapt according to the situation.
Haiz. But still you are the best. Thanks for your short line of warning.
But i'm still pissed with the whatever her name is.

Anyway forget it. I got my pay already.
I'm gonna spend it all. My guitar heroes world tour. Woo...
Anyway i calculated that i can get back the money already from this month.
No point working so hard and not enjoying the money.
Wooo.... Can sing play the drums and the guitar as well.
Best.

Have you ever watch One Piece ?
Interesting.
It's a show that has two world.
The normal world where people are weak.
They will die and fear things.
They would not know the things they fear.

There is also the grandline.
A place full of unexpected things.
The weathers are funny.
It may rain, snow or be sunny in an instance.
The place is dangerous and you may die at any moment.
Thus many people fear Grandline and choose not to go.
Thus they wither and die.

Isn't that like life ? Oh yeah the directions there go haywire.
So no point having a sense finding your way with a compass.
There is something called an eternal post.
A direction to a place only.
Just like life.

We have our eternal post.
But the winds and the rain blow us back.
Set backs all the way.
The sails are not smooth at all.
Sometimes you aren't able to sleep.
Maybe because of storms you have to mend the deck.

Monsters might cross your path.
Pirates may attack.
People might be unfriendly.
You might face with situations that makes you wanna die.
Or even things that you hate so much.

But remember friends are on board the boat as well.
Maybe when you are looking on the left of the boat he is looking right.
When you are on deck, he went below.
Friends are always there.
Do not throw away your eternal post and float where the sea takes you.
You might stray futher and futher away from the path.
Until there is no return.

Thanks SK.
Usually i'll just dump the email if i do not understand it.
Or it's a hassle. But i read the whole thing in like 5 mins.
I just poor at reading word by word but i know the meaning.
So i usually read sentance by sentace for speed reading.
Thanks man. I don't throw things i understand.
It's just that this world is worthless.
Sin, life, world, work, games and many other worldly things.
None of them can give eternal happiness.
Especially life, the longer you live the more you wish to die.

Yet people want to live longer when they know they cannot have it.
People chase after the wind.
Something that cannot be attainable.
When they attain it, it no longer becomes valuable.
Happiness there is no such thing in life.
God does make people happy.
But when your heart do not have him.
You do not feel God and will never be happy.
This void is getting bigger and bigger like a black hole.
Sucking everything away from me.

Maybe it's just me.
Maybe just a mood swing.
Anyway don't want to give much thought.
I just want to hit the sack and KO.
Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
4:28 pm

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Saturday, November 08, 2008

Life is fun when you are in church.
But more fun when you stay over in church.
Unfortunately the world is not fair.
The devil works 24/7 in stopping THE PLANS.

Work will make you physically tired.
You can never be able to force yourself to do things.
The moment i close my eyes i fell into deep slumber.
I missed lots of smses. Many people contacted me.
I was called to go back to work even today.
Sick... Being good can be a bad thing as well.

Need to fred over alot of stuff.
But i feel sad i cannot join the friday nights.
But haiz. Today had fun with the guys.
Went to drink tea with ZC and Vic after bring the stuff back to church.
Got high with ZC on the way there.
Talk cock. Tell them about my work.

Tell him how i con people.
LOL. Evil job.
Came back heard a very familiar hymn.
Managed to remember my tenor parts.
Cool. Great memory. Timothy you are so smart.

After that went to buy fruits.
LOL. Tio stunned man.... Really test my skills.
Lucky my mom called.
Asked her how to pick some fruits.
LOL. Those i know how to pick i chose the best.

After that went to eat with SK.
Can say Vic was eating i guess.
And ZC just sit there lor.
My dish is big but the portion is small.
Dumb sia. Kanna cheated. But don't care la.
I got my pay already. Dun really give a damn.

SK really cut my heart with arrows.
As christians we don't club.
Arr... One arrow in my heart.
We don't even think of going to those places.
Ahhh... Pain... Another arrow.
Sian...
After that saw SK's mom and Dn Doc.
Before they just walk away.

Went to popular after that.
So pai sei, i looking at the new albums and everyone waiting for me.
Hahaha. Vicky don't want my help to carry the goods.
So i'm not at fault wor.
Ok. Gotta do my job and play audi as well.
Byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
9:44 pm

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Monday, November 03, 2008

I wonder why ?
I promised not to blog yet i'm blogging.
I feel i'm drifting to the world instead.
I feel more comfortable with them.
Hahaha... I was right 6 years ago.
Once a sinner always a sinner.
There is no way my wings will fly up to the heavens.
If i'm to go to hell so be it.

This is what i'm feeling right now.

Clubbing keeps entering my mind.
I get invitations from friends, from babes.
Refusing them once, i stood strong.
But as the rocks keep tumbling on me.
My walls are cracking.
It's starting to give way.

I guess it's the end when i enter army.
Church... It's starting to get meaningless to me.
The people are just a fake smile.
You are never having a warm welcome.
God is far away for i made my distance by my every choice.

People can just go to hell for all i care.
Smiling is all fake, maybe God did the wrong thing to give me the HS.
Maybe it was meant for the person beside me but i snatched it from him.
I feel comfort with people from outside.
Their way of talking seems weird and different at first.
But slowly i'm getting used to them.
Drinking certainly i like.
Smoking, never. Once i made my point clear they dun bug me over it.
Talk cock. Best. Everyday if possible.
Make fun of every little thing.

Last friday was the worst day of my life.
To decide on going clubbing or not.....
Halloween party... At the hottest club in singapore.
Invited by a pretty young lady.
Work of the devil. Confirm will sin.
I don't want such stupid things to happen anymore.
Saddness within the family.
Why must sin abound ?

All i can do is lock myself in my room and switch my phone to slient.
With all hope that the phone will stop ringing.
Holy communion, i was like sorry for giving in to temptation for a moment.
Dressed up for clubbing but went back to change to my sleeping cloths.
But when there is no activities and i went back.
I was back to my state of sleepyness.
I want to sleep and i don't care of anything anymore.
I don't want to see anyone else.
Nobody... I just want to be forgotten.

Sermons are just being forgotten with each passing day.
And i have the feeling of death around me.
No bondings like before, just play and talk to computers...
Boring single player games.
I just want to make new friends and forget about my current ones.
I don't care about disappointment.
There is always a new start.
Looks like this family's spiritual aura is dimming.
Soon the life of God will not be in it and the tree withers.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
11:03 pm

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