The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

I was told i was immature when i argued with Vic... Now i know, really had a slap on my face now. I've lost a friend who is dear to me due to my lack of planning before i speak. I never had learnt my lesson. I'm a failure myself and yet i say others. I did not wipe away the dust in my eyes before telling others. I need to have a new goal. I'm not sure if i have the HS yet, sometimes i fill moved in my prayers and it rolls other times it's not rolling enough to produce sound. I'm so confused, but yes i am sinful. Thus i am cannot confirm that i have the HS althought i was told so. Until i'm fully sure will i declare it out officially.

Lie, the one big problem. To get away from things easily. A sign of a loser, coward. Afraid to face up with one's problem. Me. I am such a person. To get away from more trouble lie. To prevent myself from getting into sticky situations lie. An act of a child. Immature. Darn it i never would have known about this if today never happened. Losing a friend due to my stupid choice of words. I hate myself. I never meant to say those words that way. It was a joke but a joke gone bad i guess. I have to make it up. I want to be forgiven. But better yet. I want to be a better man. I never wanted to say all those bad points about me. But if i do not i'll never learn, grow up. How to grow up ? According to Princess Serene(i can't believe she uses that name, anyway don't comment more about it) one must reflect upon one's mistake and learn from it and move forward not looking back. Guess that's the truth. I have to agree with her.

Now i know why God's law is made perfect and frees us from sin. It is those laws that make us a better human. It is the way we should live our life. To find the easy way out would be nice and easy but in the end you'll find yourself being the a worst position when you cannot get out of the sticky web you have woven. Isn't that what the devil wants to be dishonest and seek the easy way out and end your spiritual life. How cunning is he ? In fact he is clever to do such a way as people will fall like blocks in a game of domino.

I still remember one line of the skid Joel did when we were young. He was playing as one of the devils. "Bring them to Church but block their ears do not let them hear." Isn't that true, it was an eye opener than people in church do not pray. Being late i went straight to adam, people were talking during the sermon. They were not constraining their kids from playing. The kids are suppose to attend lessons food for the soul. Parents are to learn and hear the words of God. Why do they do such things ? It make me sad to see people going out when the word prayer is being said and coming back just after the prayer. Why is the church doing to land the people like this ? An awakening should be done. We should be slapped on our cheeks and hard is possible. Wake us up from our still waters. We should be flowing and increasing to become rushing waters instead we are breeding mosquitoes, time to change.

Becoming the new generation i think I have a duty to do something. Isn't it right my fellow friends who are in church with me. We have a duty to change things to make it moving. I thank God for the blessings but i wish sometimes hardships should be given to us to make us wake up and rely on him. To know how powerless we are without him and it is him that gave us life and using his blood forgave our wrong doings. I have to spend some time so set my goals now. Hopeful more of us will aspire to be preachers, even if you are not ready or not suitable yet, try... If it's God will you may be the next preacher to help serve him and be close to him. Isn't that a joy we should aim for. More importantly work for him with all your heart. Some things once your name is written down, you can never back out. Good Night.

Woooo It feels good to be forgiven. I love it. I guess i know what it's like to beg for mercy liao. Ok i know what to do in the future. Nitez Everyone. I'm gonna have a peaceful sleep tonight. Lol. Thank you God.

Shannon

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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