The Forgotten Land

Sunday, July 15, 2007

A service in Adam, oh man it's like woah... ok. I don't know you, i have no idea who are you and i don't bother knowing you. So many unfamiliar faces. Guess there are a huge batch of younger generations after transferring to sembawang. Many which i do not know. Many that isn't in the choir. Singing in choir for months in adam and still i do not know all that is in the choir group not even the sisters standing beside or the sister in front of me. The guys on the other hand i just know a few and mostly their names only. So it isn;t a problem of coming to church more often or not. In the first place do i really have no interest in knowing people and talking to them ? I do not wish to talk much and reveal secrets of mine such as grades which i have already exposed today. Talking more may make more mistakes, cause more pain and insult other without knowing it. What is worst is typing online where one can talk freely without the respect force field which prevents one from insulting people. Sometimes not thinking before you speak or say something maybe bad. Since usually crap enters my brain as i start talking about something. Telling a lame joke is my basic instinct.

Anyway today super funny. I was filling nothing when i entered the waiting room, before i was lead to the battle grounds but as the moments drag. I felt the same pain in my stomach, as if the temperature dropped to subzero in an instant. Fortunately talking to this sister. Ehhh... Maybe i should call her brother since she wants to be called that way. The tallest "brother" within the sisters. Funny she made me laugh so much i forgot about the freezing stomach and somehow i felt relax without stress. Unfortunately the sharing was bad. I was rumbling like a fool.

Super scared, when i see Preacher S.C. look at me i just froze. Fear griped me, strangling the life out of me. For a moment i lost my breath filling so breathless and my mind was totally disoriented i didn't know where i was singing and sang 111(high do) which is super high instead of 555(so), lucky for me my voice was covered up so no fear. He's reiatsu is too strong, he has overpowered me. Just a glance can cause my body to tremble, just like Ichigo when he first saw Zaraki Kenpachi the captain of the 11th division. Without even shinkai and bankai he can already cause fear in the hearts of others.

Lol. Too much animations, my data in my head is corrupted with such cartoons. Oh yeah it was super funny. KJ was walking she almost fell, asking if she wanted to play domino she laughted and almost fell again. It was super funny, like a girl in the comics who keeps falling down and making a clown out of herself somehow a clown reminds me of patrick from spongebob. Lol. The 2nd time she almost fell i was totally shocked but my instant reaction is reach out to grab items before they fell no matter how sleepy i am i still can catch things which i accidently hit but the main point is still KJ falling so let's get on with it. Luckly she didn't fall.

Surprizingly i didn't chat much with V today. Lol. Usually chat with her like crazy one. Today like no mood lei. Sian. Haiz... I really unlucky today. Walk out half way my formal shoe spoilt sia.. I was dragging the shoe and when i walked across the traffic light the base of the shoe just fell off. I thought it should be a girl whose shoe is to be damaged walking around the road and faints in the middle of the road which is always shown in korean dramas. Oh well. For nothing spend $8.20 on cab fee. So waste money. I still blame God why never protect my shoe for 30 mins when i reach home than spoil while crossing the road, lol that was in the heat of tireness and anger. I was wrong to think like that so i apologist later on when i reached the bus stop. People do speak words they do not meant when they are angry. Oh well. At least brother KJ brighten up my day. Lol. If you see this post somehow don't kill me, you say you are a brother one. Ok moving on.

Oh yes today sermon was about church. Yes to be stones gathering around church every saturday or to build up the church with those stones. I was thinking i should be the floor which is the most useless but than without the floor how can people walk ? Without a roof how can you support the 2nd floor and be a shelter for the top floor ? Without being a window would your building be venterlated and wouldn't it look like a cold cell without windows ? Every single part of a building is important thus everyone has a use and a function... Never think that you are not important, it's just that you are not being used in the right area. So find an area where you are good in and glorify God. You may not be good at preaching so try giving letters which the church have. Thus you do not have to speak much but the person can ask you more questions so you can answer them. That way you are preaching in your own way. The main thing that hit me was are you an event member or a regular member ? Coming during events only or as a regular who goes to everything. Seriously words like this shot straight like an arrow. Every sermon i go to is always on a question i'm troubled with or a warning to wake me up. Maybe that's why i try to go for classes instead. Well so as not to be ashame anymore i should shoot myself and change right ? Those are the standard and model answers for every question. Oh well. Gotta have an early night going to buy formal shoes if not i cannot look presentable tomorrow. I would die a terrible death, firstly it's an act of betrayal for me to run at the last min and secondly it's a chance i'll miss to glorify God. I might not have such a chance in the future. As sister YT said, not anyone can stand on stage and sing to glorify his name. Just like talking to God face to face, that would be a great honour. Ok. Nitez. Gabatte kudaisai. Tomorrow will be a better day. Believe that God will guide. Miracles do happen, it's just whether you believe in it or not. Faith like a mustard seed can move mountains. Lol(put your labtop screen pics as a mountain than you move it around ..... Those are jokes to kill your brain cells cos i like it. Thx you for reading it).

Shannon

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