The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

So many things have happened since i started work, i do thank God for the few nice workmates i have. Usually there is no one that care and guide you on your road to work. Fortunately i have one, she wants to act fierce but unfortunately it's not even comparable to Dad's furry. LOL... Which is funny and entertaining so i try to be scared... but not possible to lie for a long time la.... I admit i was a little scared initially but not for a long bah...

LOL. Oh well... In church there was talking about sin for bible study. Would you die just by thinking of sinful things. Don't lie to myself... Lust is the most important question, it effects men like crazy.... Don't think about it that's what i say i my head but it keeps coming back like a haunting ghost.... Prayer helps but it becomes dreams.... Worst that thinking.... I cannot control much of dreams.... Pray and keep safe... The HS is important i can't afford to have just a short pleasure make me lose it.... Compare to God nothing is worth that much, sin is not a worth exchange for the Holy Spirit... I will not give it up for pleasure and my soul as well... Never... I don't do a losing business...

Actually... Not only that.. During bible study we were talking about "The Lost Sheep" LOL.... Sounds nice man.... But i do want to be called that... It will mean my thinking has gone out of my principles.....But what i wanted to say is that... THere is still love... If people in church don't do it... Why can't i be the first ? I don't know if i'm able to do it... But i'll try my best to do so... We are not alone... WE are a CHURCH... We are the body of God, can we be so not together ? That is soooo..... not good. Anyway i think that we should do things together and not say God i will bear this burden alone... I will help the lost sheep alone... When you put a bunch of chopsticks together it would break... If you bend i chopstick it breaks easily... So i told Bro N that we can help he is not alone.... "Just ask" was what i kept thinking... Cos one day i might need your help as well... "Seek and you shall find ask and it shall be given. I think i'm still self-fish and childish... Still type of thinking about myself is getting sick...

"Thy will be done", isn't that a famous statement that rings a bell somewhere in your head. "Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven".... This is what we pray in the Lord's prayer. We pray that God's will be done. What if God were to tell you on the last day... "THY WILL BE DONE"..... What are you going to do ? If i was told the same thing.... I wonder where can i hide my face from God... I may laught now but i will cry when it happens... Human... Always seeking regrets... I wonder... Will i be like that, i worst person than i already am ? Will i change to be like the world or more like God ? There is a time for everything so dun worry about tomorrow.... God will provide... But how can i not worry if i will have a large chance of turning to the world instead of God ? I don't like this kind of life... I'm wasting 1/4 of a year to work.... I can feel what kind of environment i'll be in, in the future... It's gonna be sick... Being the boss, you have people sucking up to you... Which is not what i want as well... I have no idea about my future... Who will i become ? What will i do ? Can i still be confident and say i will never let God leave me no matter what ? Will i have the courage to die for God ? I have no idea... In fact after getting the HS i didn't do things that can be able to match with Peter... To scold others to wake them up from their sleep... To open their eyes to things they do not understand... I wonder if i ever have such strength in the future.

I fell sick on sat night... Actually i was a little unwell in the morning already... KO during afternoon service.... Damn it was so nice to sleep like crazy.... LOL... I feel better already.

I promised God if i pass my driving exams i'll give him 15% of my pay instead of 10%... I sort of talked too big but dun care la.... I think God slapped me in the mouth when i was having doubts and calculating money.... I just came to say keep my promise and give God what i have said... My dad came and talked to me "Keep your promise"... It's was like a blow to me to confirm to give the money do not have doubts.... Your word is taken seriously by God... Now that i have blogged it, it's in black and white so i can't run already.... Good... I need to write most of my promise here so i can't run away when the time comes. Comforts me a little.

Oh well... Gotta go back to work... LOL... It was nice to find time to blog during work... I was just so lazy and busy sleeping during my holiday... LOL... Oh well... Byez..

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:14 am

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007