The Forgotten Land

Friday, December 07, 2007

Great news... My sis ... Well i think you guys should know... I'll post it in a few days times... Maybe next thursday or friday... LOL... Let her tell you the news...

Anyway... It's so funny... I watched this advertisement about the baby with these body builders around the baby telling on how baby needs softness... LOL... I smiled but i was not truely happy... That smile should have been bright and well... A great feeling will overcome me... Hahaha... Maybe my soul isn't happy with the way i live my life at the moment... It's morning thus i can't smile from my heart... But i guess the worldly explaination and excuses would be either it's the sleepless nights or the stupid mutt making me wake up extra early and sleeping extra late due to the mess he has made or the barking he does each morning to wake me up.... Sickening.... If it was my sis she should have fallen ill like ages ago... ALthough she more probably would just hack care about it.... I wonder how my elder sis puts up with this man....

Anyway i feel so happy for my sis.... She is so stupid yet she got something so precious that no one in the whole world can take from her... Except if she were to throw it away herself... God's plans... I wonder how HE plans things... I totally have no clue... Hahaha... Anyway since it's a good thing i don't really care how HE plans it at the moment... Must find a way to celebrate it... LOL....

She lucky la... This year birthday is special for both her and i.... It's nice to see smiling face from the bottom of people's hearts.... My parents don't know anything of it yet... Wanted her to tell him personally... LOL.... I wonder what i wanted to blog before i heard this news but i guess it's not important since i've forgotten about it... LOL... OK... Gotta go... Late wanna shop for my sis stuff and bring them to church before i KO and sleep at home till tomorrow afternoon.... I lack too much sleep already... Can't lose any more of it... Oh well.. I'm gonna game abit since it's rather free at the moment... Before the big news comes in and i get busy again... Byez... Oh yeah...

Thank you God for all the blessings you gave my family and i, nothing could i do to repay every single debt i owe you... Even if i become like you i can never erase the past sins i have done against you and still doing plus future sins i might accumulate no matter what even if it's a slight sign of anger it's still a sin anyway... How do you do it ? I wonder... Jesus in the flesh with so many weakness... Imagin i can carry 200 kg and i'm reduced to having powers to carry only 55 kg and only for awhile before i drop the woman..... Man it's like a big thing to give up... Plus in the end after trying to help this world i get killed...

It's like super unfair la.... That's why i can't understand the might of God... How you think, what you think.... I really don't understand anything about You O Lord... You are so good in all ways even in the flesh.... I'm like what the hell, how can i even reach your level ever.... And some more i'm in the flesh as well... Oh man.. It's so difficult... I can act and pretend like for a month or so... Just enduring... Don't bother about anything else but for eternity is like long for me since i'm bounded by time.... I want to be like you.... Somehow it isn't working... I need to find solutions... And i know You have all the answers...

Oh yeah about a sermon on wednesday... Yeah.. When we pray are we commanding God to do the things we want ? It's seems rather true... Usually we keep asking like... Please God do this... Give me this.. I want this... I seek this and that and i want to make it mine... I wonder... If we are trying to be a god ourself ? We command others like that... It's like making others dogs and we the masters.... A dog was told by it's master you can go to any room in my house except this room... But still the dog enters... The master knows the dog will be curious and enters the room no matter what but still he trusted the dog and gave it it's freedom to roam.... It is punished and scolded when it enters the room...

We were onces given the chance to roam in eden... We were trusted with not eating the forbidden fruit.... But still we ate it... It's a different case man... It concerns our life and not dirtying the room like the previous examples... Not only were we not scolded but only got a way with a punishment... Which is not only stupid, it's full of mercy.... If you did something extremely wrong would you not get the worst of punishments... Instead God asked you to plant you own food... isn't what we suppose to do ? We are to take care of the family isn't it ? Yet this generation is throwing parents out, and worst cheating your own parents to sell the house and locking them outside... Isn't that the most cruel thing in the world ? The saddest thing you can even do... If God were to do that to you on the last day how would you feel ? We were to plant food and it might not be successful... But God still made it possible for us to grow food to live on... For we were once the most favourate thing God has ever made... Though we sinned and might have been less favourate but all the more we are his favourate.... Humans... This is how we repay our master... I'm a part of the sinners... I have not shined for a long time... When will i go up to the mountains and talked to God again... I miss those day...

The day where my friends and i were in theolo and prayer was so sweet... We were in love with God and we were loved by God as well... We cried to God, we shed tears and we threw our worries and care to him... We threw everything we could and were clean with ourselves... The happiness to know that we recieved the Holy Spirit is the best news ever.... I don't want to forget that day... For is it the day God trusted me with the keys to open the gate of heaven.... So that i may enter.... Thus i want to remember the day he gave me those keys... So i won't lose them... I want to keep them in my pocket safe from all dangers... Many people wish to take this key away from me... God's enemies are trying to steal them from me.... The fallen ones are cruel to pull us with them dragging us to the depths of hell.... The rule the world and thus every good thing is hard to do and be made know... Every bad thing spreads like wild fire...

Where is the love ? Seriously... It's just a song from the Black Eye Peas but still even thought i just know this line... It's a good question... Where is the love ? Where is our love ? Are people falling due to the lack of this ? Are they running to other Churches because of that ? So what are we to do ? Scold them saying why are you running because of such small problems ? In fact i felt the same and wanted to run away as well... But i thought to myself... If others don't show love... Why don't i give it a go and try it out myself ? Why can't i be love as well since God is Love... He made love and created love... The very manifestation of love itself.... Isn't that the ultimate goal we should aim for ? To be like God ? To be more like Jesus... I remember singing this hymn in choir saying "Make me more like Jesus, fill me heavenly dove." That is so fake if we sing that and don't do it...

I feel like i'm living a fake life... Something which is so static... Like a robot... I feel like i'm being made into a robot by the devils... He just as a simple message with 3 words... "SIN" ... That is the simple message that is so effective that it can even beat the best warrior in this world... Did all heros kill their enemies and showed no weakness ? No... THey hunger for lust.... They take wives from the countries they have beaten... They fought due to greed.... They wanted land or anything that can benifit them... They seek fame once they had a sip of it's poison.... Thus they ignored fear and sent it to their enemies.... Anyway i guess i've been talking too much... Gotta rest abit before articles starts coming... It's gonna be a busy day... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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