The Forgotten Land

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Pr. Chin say he fear if he can die for God. But as for me. I fear if i have faith in him. So many things has gone by in an instance. Things are going great for me in the worldly sense but now... I find my whole world crumbling into pieces. The best thing God should have done is not create me. Or better yet not create eve. That way Adam won't sin and we won't be here.

I wonder if i even have the courage to work for God more and more.... I'm trying to avoid all work done. Slowly to be forgotten... To be able to get away. But i wonder... Why when things happen it is automatically turned to God... Forget it. Don't think about it. Just sleep. I just want to be alone. I wish i would disappear from this world. Woe, sorrow and pain... It just happens in an instant... Just like when coffee mix has hot water added to it. There is an instead reaction and you have what you want. But now it's the reverse. I don't want the coffee. I don't want this cup given to me. I deny my fate...

I'm not at fault but still i get scolded what's the pointof living i wonder.. Maybe i should have taken my check up later and said i wanted to commit suicide... I hate this place. But i have no one to blame but myself to create such a stupid world for myself. I have no freedom... Enslaved for the rest of my life... Ahhh... Hack. I don't give a damn anymore... I'm going to sleep.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
9:02 pm

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Wednesday, June 04, 2008