The Forgotten Land

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Borned a new man. Ok. I never thought this day will ever come. Worthy of getting it never once i had thought of that a year after theolo. Instead i wanted to do my best in service to God only after my parents forced me to do so. Well i said force cause i was under orders. I wanted to give up. I wanted to end this. I felt tired at times. Sick of people's attitude and their rubbish. My parents force on me was like a slap from God, "You wanted to serve me, isn't this your chance ? Why not take it now since it's open to you ?". There were time i wanted to give up and my parents somehow can see it. And yes another slap on the face, "Serve me and never give up no matter how hard life goes. Moses served me and went through more hardships, people morn and scorn. They mock my powers even after all the things i have shown them. Never give up do as i have commanded you. My son."

"Thus says the LORD of hosts:
'If you will walk in My ways,
And if you keep my command,
Then you shall judge My house,
And likewise have charge of My courts,
I will give you a places to walk
Among these who standing here.

(Zechariah 3:7)

Slaps are needed, being good to another is one thing. Being faithful and obey God's words is another. If my sis reads this i hope she knows what to do. Prayer is important. Works for God is also important. Where is the zeal you once have ? When you scolded me for running from my duty, where is that passion ? Do not fall away because of man, for their comments are useless. They are just messages for you to see and accept if you think they are right and ignore if it's wrong. kids if you are reading this. I think your comment is good as my sis does treat me good but consider the facts of what is duty for God and man is two different stuff. If you love man do you mean you love God ? If you love God on the other hand you will love man. For God has commanded us to love our enemies. If you know my sis you should help her out instead of making her change for the worst. If she isn't helped now will she be able to change when she enters working life ? Which is more harder ? I think i know who you are but i'll just not think of it. If that comment is for the sake of an arguement please stop it, thanks. Instead i beseach you to pray for my sis if possible. I on the other hand will do something to change this. Oh yeah if you wish to continue to write on my blog at least write your name, to whom am i addressing to. Thank you.

"You are the salt of the earth;
but if the salt loses its flavor,
how shall it be seasoned?
It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled under-foot by men.
(Matt 5:13)

I have never expect that i would recieve the Holy Spirit but now that i have confirmed that i have, you'll have to kill me to let it leave. Fear is sure to be present at the face of death but i know at least God is with me to the very end. I want to thank Bro N for talking with me and telling me this. For i was thinking i was the one rolling instead of the spirit. He asked me things that i've experience and since i have experience 2 out of 3 or 4 but i can only remember 3 points. Unfortunately i seem to not know the meaning of feeling joy in my heart, maybe i've felt it before but have never understood it. Yesterday after the talk i was more conviced of having it. I wanted to pray the moment prayer was on but it was so short. Why ? I wanted a longer prayer. I wanted to enjoy my time with God. I've waited for 20 years ermm... Maybe 19 ++ years... well add those part where i never bothered about God, being a kid, doing what i liked, throwing my weight around and getting scolded for it. Playing in theolo, having fun. Praying like mad, without understanding what it is. Just know that it's fire and wind. You fill like burning. I never experience that at all. Instead it was just warmth but i thought it was my jacket trapping the heat, the bright lights was someone playing with the lighting system(thinking back i find myself super dumb to make up such theories). No wonder the preacher was like "Are you sure you have the Holy Spirit for the first time ?" during the 80th. LOL. I'm still as dumb as ever lol. Well it's not something to be happy about. But somehow i think being simple is the key to getting the Holy Spirit.

Fear not, for I am with you;
Do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you;
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
(Isaiah 41:10)

Just think that everything is for God. Do the things you do for God. Never disappoint God, never give up. Oh yeah when you are praying, as Bro BW says just shout it out, don't care about others. Cannot be ashame that you don't have the Holy Spirit. Imagin God i far away if you pray louder the voices can be heard. Prayers from the heart is better, like say how you fill in your heart ask him to carry your burden away for one brief moment so you can enjoy you time praying with him. Prayers can be repenting your sins, imagin each time you tell a lie Jesus is at the cross and you are the guard that pierce his side (John 19:34). Do you see water and blood flowing down his body ? Or you do turn away and continue piercing ? Your cloths are always dirty with sins, God always washes them for you. Since you cannot wash your cloths can you give God a break and not dirty your robes ? Prayer from the heart is what God wants, althought he knows what you are going to say. Like you know your wife or husband loves you throught actions but you just want to hear the word "I love you". Those prayers will be like clean burnt offerings in the past and God will smell the soothing aroma and be pleased with it (Genesis 8:20-21).

If you have admitted that you are a sinner that is good. If you say you are sinning would you make the next great decision of saying i want to change ? If you say it would you want to go back on your word ? If you go back on your word it is better not saying it as such words will only cause fury. Think of the Lord would you like to make him angry after you have when against him ? That would be pouring fuel to the fire. Thus once we set foot on something never give up on doing it. If you think you have sin maybe you will feel better by doing church work. Sweeping, washing, cleaning anything as long as it will make you feel better but have one thing in mind. You are not cleaning a house you are cleaning God's church. Be sincere in what you are doing. You are doing it for God not man. In the end you have to report to God not man. Thus do not concern yourself about rumours and do not spread them. Listen but instead of adding bad points add good points as well so he would not look that bad. You might have lessen the injury without knowing it. Rumours are something without facts, do not judge a person base on rumours but it rumours might be true so stay alert and find out the true person before saying anything.

Lastly i want to ask God to always let me remember this feeling of getting the Holy Spirit and never let me forget the grace you have shown me. I am still a sinner and not worth of it but yet i have it. It is my honour to accept it, since you gave me it to me i have no intention of giving it back to you. Thus i beg of you to keep me alert at all times. Be sober from this world. Never let me fall away from you.

Taken from some other christian website :
some christian website

Being a Christian takes work, but it is GOOD work.

Each day we should ask God's to help us live Godly lives.

We should remember that just as God has forgiven us our sins we should forgive others.
Matt. 5:12

As Moses prayed for Israel and as Jesus prayed for his followers
(Joh 17:9)

we should pray for others.
Col. 3:13

We should study God's word so that we can humbly help those who ask us about our believes.
(I Pet. 3:15)

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
1:15 pm

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