The Forgotten Land

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Woke up so early today man... I slept at 3 am.... LOL... Broke my promise... I still wanted to go for the sermon speaking... But when i woke up it was already 9 am... So no point in going... It had just ended when i eyes opened...

I've learned 2 new words firstly it would have to be "Blood brothers" and secondly "Seriously" but you have to use a certain tone to it... LOL... Funny... But i wasn't in the mood to tease Donna.. She is gonna leave on thursday... That's so sad.... Well i'll see her online anyway... So as for Eden who already went back a few hours ago... Boo Hoo... Hopefully i'll see him next year when he comes as a consellor.... Man... I really had a boring day... It's christmas... But forget that it isn't important... IT'S A HOLIDAY .... I've wasted my time playing with kids... My computer was waiting for me to thrash some people....

I wanted so much to beat up some lousy CS players or have fun well getting killed most of the time but trying my best to kill some heroes in Dota... Man.... Fellowship is rather boring playing quiz and worst it was lame...LOL... Nah i take my hat off you... It's rather interesting seeing their faces when they cannot answer any of the lame questions... LOL... And when they see the answer it's like so stupid... That's the only part that kept me laughting and wake...

Fun is not a word i would say... I was busy playing CS while they played some guessing game... The best actress for today Ke Jia... LOL... Win liao la... I thought she was the one who ate it... My sis gave the completely no pain feel... LOL... Best.. Wish i had taken a video of it... Pros will be able to eat wasabei without you knowing it... LOL....

But one think i really wanna write about is... Do you remember your first love ? Before you were born into this world... Somebody has loved you. Before your parents seen your face. Somebody has kept your safe, known everything about you. And died for you. First love, do not ever forget it... Tears flowed down my eyes as i remembered how He loved me when i was born into this world... How He smile when i was plunged into the sea of blood... The blood of forgiveness... How happy i was when my tongue rolled more than usual when i had my doubts and asked for a confirmation from above.... I had forgotten that feeling after telling myself i will never forget... I have lost that feeling of love... Of fear... I keep asking for death, due to the pain i feel at work... Did Jesus ask me to die and go to hell instead of Him dying on the cross to forgive our sins, which we have created ourselves ? We have dug that road when eve first took the fruit and bite a piece of it.

Theolo a place for students to gain spiritual growth... I love to go back to church during those days... For i miss my dearly... I always had regarded my final year incomplete since i was sick for most of the days... Even though i was in church but slacking around sleeping and wasting time to cure that sickness and not eating the words of God is so regrateful.... It's like a big part of my life has gone away... Sucked out of my memory... The pains we suffer at theolo... The sleepless nights are all worth it... The snoring which i don't really miss.... Cause that's the reason for the sleepless nights.... But still thank God we were able to sleep...

I wanted to cry when i heard the hymn being played today... "Nearer still nearer"... I can remember how to sing... A Chinese hymn which i forgot but i sang that in theolo as well... And best my first year hymn which i loved the most... The one that impact me the most and made me almost breaking down into tears.... "If ever i love thee".... My Year 1 choir presentation... That really made me cry... I love that song so much... When Debbie solo the first part it was like so touching... Than the brothers back her up.... Sniff sniff.... I believe God was watching us... From above... His tears must have fallen as well... I guess that's where i loved to sing and well supported having a choir in sembawang... God's song... Praising God, not to sing for self but to sing our hearts to Thee.... Thy love is so great thus our sins seem so small... For your grace has filled us totally and made us clean once again...

We are children of God, we will not sin... That was a word my bro gave me before he left to study overseas.... I understand it now... But even if we do not sin... It doesn't mean, we cannot sin... If we let ourselves be tempted we will sin, thus flee away from temptations... We are protected by God thus we will overcome sin for God is with us blocking satan from accomplishing his evil deeds....

Very funny... Walk out that time Shi Sang was like walk Ke Jia to the bus stop okey ? Agreeing to her demand at the cost of watching my bus pass by me in slow motion... Noooooo..... Don't go wait for me... My heart was screaming.... Wait for me.. But i still cross the road with both of them... And being girls... They should not take short distance for granted... Man.. When happens if something were to happen ? It's already so late... Yikes... Yeah it's already so late now... Gotta run to work tomorrow so cut long story short... Yeah Girls got lots of things to chat... Man... They are noisy.... I can't even listen to my mp3 in peace... Anyway... Sent an sms to shi shan to check if ke jia is back but since no reply.... I assume she is back home already... So i'm going to sleep now... And not be bothered over such things... Man... I gotta stop worrying... I'm gonna grow white hair soon if i continue to do that... Anyway gotta run.... Have to fly to work tomorrow... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
12:22 am

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