The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

She just suddenly pop into my head. I miss her so much.... The first love of my life... I wonder why i suddenly feel this way but i just darn can't get her out of my mind. K are you there ? It's been 5 years already, i really miss you. Why did you delete my contact ? Was is so that you can forget me ? I really want to see your face. Why did you have to leave back to your country ? Why can't we still stay together even if we are physically apart ? You were my first and the one i truely ever loved. I know you feel the same cos i too am your first. Damn it. Why was i so rash. I shouldn't have said those things about changing my email so you can't contact me. Now you did the same. I was a freaking liar in the past. How the hell could you have believed me. Why ? I lied to make you happy. I made up stories to make you laught. I'm a freaking liar. Damn it. I've changed but i guess it's too late.
These five years, i've thought i could have you replaced but no... They are just... Someone that i cannot ever contain in my heart. I know you keep shifting to places but if some magic were to appear and you stumbled onto this blog by accident. Mail me. It's still the same one. I'll always be waiting for you. The crushes i have... Man... They are stupid. And they die out fast when the truth hits you in the face. The heart and the eyes are 2 things. Flowers will wither and die. But the heart will always be the same.
I know this is a lost cause. What will make you find me, when you have abandon your mail just as you have left me for the states. I know it's kinda crazy but after 5 year i realised Living without you is hard..... But still i can live on with someone else that i couldn't even love. Someone who's heart will never be in mine. Replacement sucks. They just keep getting replaced. Anyway. I guess seeing this will be impossible. If you remember telling me your full name. LOL. I still remember yup i'm not lying this time. M.S.K.E. LOL... sounds familiar ? Good old days. Oh well. We have lots to catch up. I wanna know about your stays around the world. Where in the world are you now ? How are you doing ? Got any new bfs ? LOL. I'm not green with envy but hahaha. Yeah. Abit. NVM. Just contact me. I wanna hear your voice soon. It's been soo long. And if i could meet you once more i don't mind waiting for another 5 years for you. Byez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
3:31 am

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008