The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I feel sad.
I'm leaving my bed soon.
Soon i cannot see my parents.
Soon i cannot be filial to my parents.

I'm glad i won't see my parents when i go in.
But i'm sad that happens as well.
My mom will be very sad when i go in.
I should not have told her i'm going into camp.

When they leave for a holiday,
i'll be going overseas for 3 months as well.
I'll not be coming back for 3 whole months.
To not reveal the truth sometimes might be a good thing.

I should try my best to keep secrets to myself.
I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.
Sometimes i think being a christian is tough.
There are so many things you cannot do.
But it's for you own good.
I just don't understand.
Why can we give in to evil so easily but take ages to do good ?
Why can the devil wrap it's arms around your heart ?
To squeeze it and make you fall.

I miss my bed... I will miss it alot.
My bed, my pillow, haiz... It's not like theolo 3 or 4 weeks.
It's 3 months.
And you get to sleep on your bed for 1 night out of the 7 days you have.
Oh well.

Why does girls like to hear lies ?
I wonder why....
Am i pretty ? How do i look ? Have i gotten fatter ?
When you already know the answer still ask me.
Isn't that stupid ?
If you want to hear lies, don't bother asking me.
I won't give you that satisfaction.

Recently working in an almost all girls environment.
Haiz. Freaking bored.
I never want to look at a pretty women again.
I saw one girl that looks like L.
Another one i knew today sounds like L.
WTH !!! What do i keep thinking of L all of a sudden ?
You suck. Go away. Shoo out of my head. Bye bye.

Everything pretty is related to L anyway. Stupid.
Haiz. Best la. I think i go to sleep bah.
Don't want to talk about her anymore.
After so many years still can think of her means something is wrong.
Haiz. What is wrong with me.
I need to make myself busy with something else instead.
Working with girls makes me feel sad.
Although it's good to know new people each day.
But... This feeling is kind of stupid.

I want a dog. I don't care.
I'm buying a dog no matter what.
Want to love, best to love a dog.
Would be loyal to me. Won't be so petty.
Won't have mood swings.
Yup. This settles everything.
After my 3 months i'll get a dog.
Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
10:08 pm

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Tuesday, October 28, 2008