The Forgotten Land

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Today was the worst day of my life. I felt so lonely. Thanks dad for speeding. LOL. Today was fun feeling the pressure of that semi drift. I didn't get enough sleep. And i can't seem to sleep much even now. I guess i'll KO soon. Dad did not go for his OT in order to pick me to the PA HQ. Waited for an hour outside the guard house. I was in attention mode, ready to impress. Even with 4 hours of sleep it's not enough. From 1 am to 5 am i slept well but suddenly i guess the excitement kicked in so i wasn't able to go back to sleep even after i refuse drinking water. Dad wanted to wake me up but was surprised to see me all changed and ready to leave the house. Wee... Impressed my dad. Not bad huh for someone who sleep late and wakes up late.

Anyway the whole thing was so boring after the waiting there was the weight and height test. Should not have went to jacks to eat such a fattening meal with mom. Should not have eaten so much prata and all that my weight went back to 81 kg. Damn, i'm so sad. I lost weight but gain it all back in a week. My pants noo.... I want to go back to 76 kg.... Arrr.... Damn. after the birthday party and all that i'm gonna run and do all the stupid keep fit exercises.

The people there were impressed by my conduct i guess. I kept saying thank you. For what i do not know. But the Mr. Stone police just won't smile and kept his stone expression. Tried to tell him a joke he stared at me. Sia la... So anti-social... I talk to the senior police officers also not so bad to me. Interesting fellow. Hope i get to meet you again during the next interview. I don't believe i cannot make you smile. LOL.

Another thing is that during the cycle moto test. LOL. Freaking funny. Guys please spread out your legs and touch your toes. Ok good. You there please do it again, everyone else recover. LOL. So funny, that guy arr... and it's not the end. There is more... Everyone clutch and release your hands with palms facing outwards... Ok... Now do it inwards... You again... Could you please try that one more time. Lastly please do marching, you guys know how to march right ? Ok begin.... Everyone okay... Mr. could you do that again... (2nd time he marches) Ermm... Do you know how to march ? You lift your left hand when your right foot steps forward and you swing it the opposite direction. Ok ? Right, now start marching again....(3rd time) Have you marched before ?
Guy : Not really.
Mr.Stone : Ok i'll show it once to you. Now do it again...
Guess why he keep on doing it. LOL. Cos he was playing dino catching. Or maybe acting like barney. He lift he right hand and right foot and walked like barney. LOL. Funny. That joker made me laugh like mad after i surpress my laughter and went to the toliet. I made a mistake when he said ok feet together, now squat fully. I cannot do that. Damn. I not used to putting my feet together. Die gotta train a little.

Another joker. LOL, people applying for the police are really interesting. LOL. Ok move your hands in a circular motion... Good. Now your hands in a forward motion... Now move in a backward motion... LOL... Got one joker move one hand backwards one hand forward. Made me fed up. He still wait awhile and think on what he is to do and made the same mistake. What the hell just swing both hands together and you won't get it wrong. Dun care what position if he says wrong than try the other position. Oh yeah this advice is for those who cannot get it for those who can please do not follow such stupid advice. But finally he got it right. Super funny. I think my batch took the longest to finish up our check up. LOL. Bloody lame.

When they called us to strip to our under pants i kept starring at one guy, his body looks freaking nice, i like his muscles man. But he keep starring at my xxx... That sicko... Make me so uncomfortable... I keep starring at his when he stared at mine. Make him feel like he is a shame to all men. Tried to force some muscles out to make my body look good. But cannot win him la. I force only can force my chest to look bigger. My stomach got the curve of a freaking girl. So sick... play too much Wii already. Body abit funny looking. Oh well. They called us to strip to our under pants and face the back. Which was a freaking mirror so we admire ourself and each other's body. LOL. Actually i see who's one is better i guess only that guy beside me beat me. The rest more overweight than me. LOL.

Told you right don't eat so much donut. Like the american cops keep eating donut so fat. All the robbers will rob you or the bank you are working at cos they see you so fat cannot chase after them. LOL. Ok that was mean but lol.... Funny... I also fat la... But not as fat as you... Muahahahaha... Ok seriously i gotta stop this...

Anyway kanna hunthumb by Mr.Stone, why never bring O lvl cert. But i thought the message ask me to bring my latest cert. Which is my diploma. Than you can remember your O lvl results. Yes 18 points. What are the subject grades ? Sir i took my O lvls so long ago like that part of my brain got dust liao, can't remember sia. You think it's funny is it ? I'm not joking with you. Bring it during the next interview. Yes sir, Sorry sir.

Interesting fellow, i think he not so stone one just want to show that police cannot be messed with. In fact police rather crappy, my bro-in-law. Hahahaha. Ok dun talk bad about him. He is my life saver. I think i put my full trust in him. Although he is a joker most of a time, i don't know what to say man. He is the best, but i'm better. LOL. Anyway back to the serious point. I think i need him most when i'm in trouble. I makes me feel very safe. I was sweating like hell. You guys need to submit 2 character referees, they must not be your family members or relatives, they must be working and earning money, they must not be serving NS. Screwed up man. All my friends are all my age what. Who so good can meet up with people that is not related to you and earning money.

I sweat like hell sia, i was so worried. Who do i turn to ? Than My bro-in-law did the best thing ever. He helped me find people to help me be my character referee. Sniff sniff... I forgot i'm not related to his brother in anyway and i know him quiet abit. Next i thought of Bro Nic. Wooo.... Win already, i got 2. Actually wanted to put Bro ben but ermm.... nvm dun say.... He was willing to help actually but i sort of... anyway i found a subsitution and my problem is settled.

Later it was the dreaded 1 hr and 30 mins break. I was soooo bored. I started messaging ZX. I think i message wrong person cos he never reply to my first message. Hmm... Wonder who i send it to.... LOL... nvm... And vic dun write on my tag board about the situation you know. Dun say anything it will cause my life to die very bad ok. My heart will shatter like glass, and hurt everyone when they step on it.

Anyway as i was saying i tried to waste 40 mins just sitting down for lunch and doing nothing. The malay food super fattening i got like freaking full and can't finish up my meal man. But since got 40 mins i slowly ate the food. After that still got 50 mins. What to do ? Haiz. I went down to the toliet to wash my face. Before heading to the freaking window. No freedom like prisoner like that if you leave the building your application will be terminated. Sian sia. You only got a one way ticket into this building and will not be allowed in here the moment you leave this place. So the only thing i could do was to look at the small mini like 20 big steps garden. Oh yeah the 20 big steps is walking around the garden not one stretch. LOL. So you can imagin how small it is. Sian.

As i was leaning on the glass panel i hear a funny sound. It was a bee. Woo... I was scared at first, will it sting me ? But i was too bored so i played with the bee, i tried blowing it away and it gave me that dun mess with me sound. LOL. So i stopped for like 5 mins before i got bored and blew at it again. LOL. We became good friends, to think that i wanted to kill it in the beginning. He entertained me for 35 to 40 mins. LOL... Thanks bee... Better than ZX who dun bother about me. LOL. And he not sleeping some more. Dun pick up my phone to chat with me or something. Tomorrow i guess will be a boring old day. Maybe something good might happen. I might get to go out. Have some fun.

Anyway the bee helped me wild away some time. I went in 10 mins early so i caught the bee in my hands and let it out of the building to thank it for entertaining me. The physcometrix test, i did the bloody test like 3 times this year, i'm freaking bored out of it. I won't be surprised i got full mark even after doing it so fast. It's so freaking common sense but the angry thing is that you sure have to use up 2 hours due to waiting for some slow people to finish up the test and shade the freaking paper. I could have finish the entire paper in an hour. 20 mins for the IQ test, 15 mins for the what is more important in life test, 10 mins for the crappy agree or disagree test, 10 mins for the true or false and 5 mins for the very dumb what you do when you are stressed questions.

Man... Waited 15 mins for the IQ test, Waited 20 mins for the other test. I remember cos i was starring into the air and shading my answers again and again until the shade cannot be any more darker. Police academy has nothing to look forward to except the pretty madam that conducted the physcometrix test. LOL. But than again this type of girl very common in poly. Just that put more mature make up and dress more formally. Pink is a sign of immaturity. LOL. I forgot someone else i know like pink. LOL. But lucky she not in singapore for the time being. You are childish old women. One leg closer in the coffin. I still 20 years old. :p Old granny.... Boo hoo hoo. LOL.

Anyway i dun want look at her so much, my future wife more important, so cannot flirt with such a woman. But than again should be friendly. So during the ten mins break talked to her about her job and how to get into that position lol... rubbish lor, i totally not interested in her job so boring. Sit for 3 hours every time to do stupid surveys. Than talk about her life and all that. At least flirt for 10 mins la. She too old liao. Hahahaha... Cannot reveal her age if not she kill me. But she very old... Older than me by lol.... Dun say la... Anyway tomorrow might forget about her liao. I can't seem to remember her face anymore. I guess that's why people say love is blind. LOL. Maybe not in this situation but hahaha... nvm... Dun say liao... Later people angry.

When i came back so freaking tired. Still wait for ZX sia... Bloody hell my body about to break liao. So i strip... LOL... In a way i stripped la. I took out the uncle's clothing i was wearing, i bought it like 8 years ago. Cool sia... Inside look so fashionable. I feel sad to lie to the police officers by not wearing my true cloths. Instead listen to my dad and comb a freaking ancient side parting, wearing my shirt like an uncle(no offensive but look like Jon), tucked in like a freaking ah pek. People see me on the streets wearing that will call me a freaking Ah Pek lor. Ah Pek Tim. Sian sia. My reputation in the police force is ruined.

Anyway this thursday will party like mad... My friends and i going Suki sushi for buffet.... actually i wanted to eat like 5 star cos it's cheaper and the weastern there is like way much better. Just that i want to wack everyone i see at the counter cos their attitude sucks big time. But their food is just so tasy so i don't give a damn. I'm sort of scared, if i fail this interview i let down my parents. If i pass this interview, i might not have time to go out with others. Both ways i stand to lose out. I'm just walking one step at a time. I never planned my moves correctly now i'm in such a fix. How do i balance friends, family ? Not to metion God's time which i have already settled. Now is rushing to meet friends. Maybe sat night go out with friends. Sunday morning go out with family for breakfast and some marketing and all that. I guess i have to book in to camp in the evening. 6 months leading such a stupid life.

Today i can resist but tomorrow will i still resist ? Tim, you need to grow up more. You need to stand firm to your decisions and make it clear to not only yourself but to others. Not wavering in spirit. Anyway i can feel it... I'm going to KO already. Nitez.

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