The Forgotten Land

Monday, September 22, 2008

I guess some people are wondering where i have been for the past few days. The usual staying in church ? Nope. I had alots of fun... The youth group should have been made long ago. I find it very attractive to stay in church and do such activities together.

I even ditched my sis appointment for a hair cut just to go and finish up my photo frame. I feel that if i am not going to church on other days i should just dedicate the whole of saturday just for church and not just run home like the other believers. Imagin talking to your father and just walking away the moment he finishes talking, how rude not to even play with him or talk to him.

It's fun to see, how guys have no talent in art. I'm used to having the computer do that for me. So i don't bother about being an artist. Oh well. I guess i need to work on that area now that i've come to a realisation of it. It was fun. Great fun.

For those who know what i'm talking about. I won't give up you hear me. I will continue my "art" next week. My beloved creation. I should have done such things long ago. It's so fun. Instead of always spending money and doing nothing together. Gaining weight by stuffing food down the throat all the time. Anyway seriously, i have some things to say and what i have saw disappoints me. Guess i know how God feels when he men sinned.

I wonder why this 3 days has changed me alot. I realised alot of things. About life, maybe even more than that. The matters in church. Many things. I want to be with the world. But seeing that the church is like that. I have no choice. I love my Lord more than the world and it pains me to see it in such a bleeding state.

I have to agree with Nah. Oh yeah by the way to make myself sleep on friday night i didn't sleep the whole of thursday so i was like a walking zombie.... And what was stupid is that plans never go smoothly so i should have just slept anyway. Cos i didn't get any sleep except for that 2 hours before i force myself to wake up and get ready for morning service. Talked alot with Nah. Many problems my eyes had opened up. Now i guess i know what Dad was talking to me about when God opens your eyes.

Now to change the topic. When you think Christians know what in the world they are saying. When they have not experience they will just tell you textbook answers which will not motivate you. In fact even if they tell you their experience you won't know it until you really experience it.

I feel sad but i cannot write it on my blog. I have many things that i feel i should do. But how can i solve it ? I feel sad as i hear Hougang is going to have it's new TJC church. The good side is that woo i can be free of duties, i do not need to travel so far away and waste time. Bad points are i have no excuse to skip church service since it's so near. I can do my duties whenever i'm called to do so. I will leave my friends and not see them again every week. Which is a big blow to me just when we are getting along.

Reaching 21 is a very big impact to me. I think i have fully grown up already but since i'm thinking like that, i think i have not grown up fully yet. My thinking is no longer the same as when i thought last week. I have decided to take up arms and fight the battle in life's struggle. No longer pampered. No longer spoilt.

Anyway there are lots of problems that i'm facing now. But good thing is that my NS interview is this tuesday and if i pass it i might enter in 1 week time or in 5 weeks time. Cos the entry batch is starting. I have confidence in my interview. I'm so inside the police. No sweat.

LOL. Anyway i went for a hair cut. Damn. It sucks. But to make my mom happy. Hahaha.. Yeah it's ok i think this salon suits you more. I prefer my previous one instead. I guess she understands, she wasn't giving me feedback on my hair. LOL. I too picky i'm sorry mom. But i explained that it doesn't matter, i'm gonna shave my hair soon anyway. Hahaha. So yeah. I guess it's good. Anyway i fell asleep when i was dying my hair until the hair dresser touched my shoulder i immediately got into a defensive position, so embrassing, i think i'm fated to be a commando or something around that range. I can't sleep well at night feeling safe. I keep thinking i will be attacked and to stay focus in order to disarm the person. When i reached home i just went directly to sleep. And my pillow turned into a yellow background with purplish red dots forming an oval shape of my head. I was so sleepy since i didn't sleep the day before and still lack like 13 hours of sleep. Cos i didn't sleep on thursday so that i can sleep early on friday night. LOL. In the end 2 days of not sleeping made me so... Dizzy. I think i'm gonna sleep soon. Ja mata.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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Monday, September 22, 2008