The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

I know i'm suppose to continue the second part of the wedding ring but i just have something else to say. My dad was getting into trouble due to me and i am the cause of it. I feel very remorse for such an incident to happen thus i will never ride his car to school again. Unless i am the one driving to school for the time being. I feel bad for the fine so i guess i'll try to find a way to add the money into his wallet slowly and secretly so that he won't know. Maybe i'll force my mom to make a secret with me not to tell my dad and put the money into his bank account.

Anyway enough of the sad stuff... I'll settle it soon. So much for my holiday trip. Now no money cannot go overseas with JLee. Sian.... Anyway who care, i rather work...(trying to make myself feel better but it's not working)... I need some funds to survive this holiday and the following school days, so i can buy some games that i wanted to play. I need to buy some RAM in order to play some vista games man... It's so cool... High graphics and animation. Fit for me to play... Real life combat. Nice...

The main topic is to my fellow church members and friends. If you don't have the HS, prayer harder and harder that is the goal you are aiming for. The ultimate goal for you at the time being. How about those who just recieved the HS or have been having the HS for a long time ? Have we made use of his blessings properly ? Have we shared the blessings with others ? Have we tried to pray with those who don't have it or pray for them knowing that they are your friends ? Do you care about them and help them in their daily life or do you just care about yourself ? Somehow i think i care too much about myself, so much that i'm blinded, immune to the pains of others. If my dad is wacking the bugs (too many don't want to name them all) i might not help him, instead i might just go into the living room and eat dinner while watching TV. God is within us. Thus we must shine his image. We should be shining like God as well to be as close to what he is like, even thought that is mission impossible. I was thinking do our actions not count as a mirror image of God ? How about prayer ? I have always been wondering. Every time i pray, is all about God give me this and that from the world. I want good grades, i want to do well in my studies and sports. But do we pray for our spiritual faith ? I was lost these few days. I've got the HS but what do i do now ? Filling for the HS.... What does that mean ?

I just got inspired... Didn't i sing this before ? Isn't that the clue to my prayers. Thus i should pray like this in the future. "Fill me Holy Spirit, Teach me how to pray. Change me by your power. Guide me day by day. Fill me Holy Spirit, keep me by your grace. Use me for your glory. Let me sing your praise. Bless me with your mercy, touch me with your love. Make me more like Jesus. Fill me Heavenly Dove."

Now i have something to pray about. I have a guide line as to what i should pray. And i know it's hard to be like Jesus but to be more and more like Jesus i know it is possible if God wills. To be changed by his powers to be a better me. To guide my path every single day. To be filled by His Spirit, to be close to him, to seek him. To be kept by his grace, the one thing i have just recieved confirms that i have been approved by him. May he use me to shine his glory, to shine forth his image using us so that others may see him in us and seek him. To sing songs of praise to him everyday. Bless me with your mercy, to forgive my every wrong doings which i do everyday without fail. Man if only i can do good everyday without fail. Fill me Heavenly Dove(HS). This sort of give me a clear idea on how the filling of the HS can be done. Thus i wish to do more work and pray harder to change. If i really change i do not want any mask any more. I want to be me myself in the likeness of God and not a face of an angle on the outside and a devil filled with evilness within me. If i change i want it to be from within, just as David prayed "To search me so that i may be blameless before thee". Ok no inspiration already. Gotta sleep nitez. Oh yeah i think we need more rebuking to wake up during sermons instead of saying kind things. That way we will improve and not be staying still at this spot. God bless.

Shannon

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Tuesday, August 21, 2007