The Forgotten Land

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Yep yep... It's me again... The one and only.... Yeah.... So what has amazed me this recent friday... Well... Firstly my work still sucks as per normal... Good people.. Lousy partner which i really wish to kill if i have the chance.... Maybe I'll set a trap for him... Yeah.... I'll put dog poop on his chair so he'll sit on it... Nice.... Anyway.. Enough of him.... Yeah i had a nice relaxing 30 min walk in the garden of SPH.... It was what i like to do... Walking for 2 months already... But that is the only place i can find beauty in that place... Other than.... Most people there wanna skin you alive... And boil you just right... But they don't kill you.. They make sure you don't die...

They give you air to breath and some water to survive.... Than they boil you up again... And kill you... When your end in that place is near... They smile at you as they pierce that knife into your heart a few times and say goodbye... LOL.... Something like that... You get that feeling when you start working... Parents are so great they suffer that much just to feed us and bring us up... Yet how i treat them i'm so ashame.... Why had i not treated them better in the past instead making them worry and scold me... Making their troubles and fustrations worst.... Leading them to anger and than sin.... When we get away scott free... Man... Being a kid is good... I like that... But oh well.. It's time to grow up.. Grow in the wisdom of the Lord and be a child that God loves... Not hate.... Worldly desires will soon fade away... Our pains will be gone...

Just wish that He'll hurry up and carry me up man... I wanna die already... Come on... If the world is gonna end faster... Don't make waste money on marriage... LOL... Girls are disturbing... LOL... Ok... I better stop the anti-female thingy.... Most of my audience are girls...

Anyway as i was saying... I was in the garden feeling depressed and all... When i looked at the plants happily dancing as the wind tango with them with their beautiful leaf and flowers.... Cheered me up.... I went to the edge of the building and looked down... Man.... I'm happy... Looking at the cars dangerously speeding away on the express way... Not that i wanted to kill myself... It's because i was thinking how happy i'll be when i take one of those buses to church or back home... What feelings will it throw me with... LOL... nice feelings... beautiful feelings... To make my day better i sat down with the plants on this wooden platform... There were no ants to bug me... Just blue skies.... There were this birds which i'm thinking is a couple since they stick to each other so much... So i didn't bother them when they were having some private moments playing with the small bushes... I guess it's a game of tag or something... But the bird saw me and i walked away.... Soon i was sitting at that very spot where they were playing... I looked at the sky... How blue and beautiful.... The white clouds were dancing away as it formed different shapes and sizes...

Suddenly this black bird swooped down from the sky.... Got on the railing near where i was sitting and amazingly stopped right in front of me.... LOL... Feel so much like those fairy tale princess when they called out and the birds come to keep them from being bored.... Doesn't sound very right for a guy to say that huh .... LOL... OK moving on... Yes the bird sang... I never been this close to a bird before... I was thinking it'll probably take a dump and leave me with the smell of it... LOL... But no... It sang... Although not in a pleasant voice but nice enough for an animal of that size... When it's partner came swooping down but just at the other side of the railing... I knew it was the same couple that was playing the at bush... We were sharing that perfect spot together... LOL... I didn't know that... I guess it tried to convience the other bird to fly over and sing to me... I was just chewing on my bubble gum and enjoying their singing... Occasionally coughing and spoiling the music... LOL... Yeah... It was fun... I guess i kind of like the way Adam's life before he was thrown out of the garden of Eden... Nice...

Imagine the birds and the bees, bugs and gees.... LOL... Ok enough of the rhyming thingy.... Yeah... Life.. Chatted with Shi Sung lol... I wonder why... The more i chat with her the more she is like Vic... Some replies... Just that Vic more evil la.. LOL.... Funny why girls like to call themselves demure and pure and innocent and all when that is so not true... LOL... If we are like that we won't be placed on earth already... LOL... Ok la...Maybe that's their style.. Like guys play games... Shoot and kill each other... Blood flying everywhere... It's so boring now that i'm playing it again... Maybe not playing games for a year helped abit... It's rather childish... But i realised i just kick serious butt man... LOL... I killed like 10 guys or girls la... So fast so more... 1 bullet 1 death... Whooo..... I have accomplish my goal... I have reached god-light for CS already.... I don't need to be the best for such a stupid thing... As long as i own the small people like crazy and some skilled players i don't really care... LOL... My goal is already fulfilled so i have no cares about it.. I quiet CS once i have defeated my master who bestowed me this skill like ermm... I'm not sure 11 or 12 months ago... for like 4 or 5 hours.... LOL... I have not lost that skill... I've remembered it all.. LOL.. Thank you so much...

When for a meeting after service and before i entered that meeting i met Sis Yu Ting.. Man.. My heart stopped a beat when she entered the room... Should i say sorry now ? What do i do ? Wack her and run.... Make sure she is knocked out cold... Than start running ? I'm not sure so i tried to open my mouth and said something but my throat was dry... I cannot say anything... I wanted to say I'm sorry for running to adam... i'm sorry for not bring my cloths for singing... I was in a rush the other day so i did not bring it... Nooo..... I couldn't say it out... Than she said in the warmest voice... Hello... I replied.. Hi... And i walked out of the room... So stupid a perfect place to apologist and i said Hi and walked out.... SO much for sincerity....

Man.... The meeting was stupid... I was so like feeling bored... And wanted to sleep... I didn't have enough sleep from the game had yesterday... Man... My necro owned during the end game... LOL... ownage.. The people ran when they saw me spam my skill like nothing... I had mana... I had no fear... LOL... I wanted to run to the fountain... Actually the player could just kill me la... All wack throne.. Only me left to wack him... He can kill me no problem but he scared... LOL... But funny to say... He ran when i wacked him... LOL...

Ok back to the meeting... I find it pointless to have long meetings... Which ends up no where.... It doesn't not give me new insights.... but i think the elders have gotten some messages... Anyway... Not put in so much hope until we get the chance to shine for God... If God summons us to do his work... Start running and doing it... If not you get to drink fish water in darkness... Maybe occasional sea weed which flows into the belly of the big fish... Anyway... Had fun... I wanna find out why i'm not coming for youth service myself... What is the main reason.. lazy ? Or uninterested... Parents ? Dun lie... Be truthful... But currently... I'm just clueless... SK's words just strike me like a sting from a bee...

So when i came home i just got online and there Shi Sang was online... I wonder why she came to talk to me... Oh yeah the movie thingy on monday.... vicky was like call them.. Dun care you call them... Yeah i remember now... Ok.. Than i dunno why can chat so much and get website to watch shows... 1 litre of tears... Oh man.. I remembered how much i cried... Not yet 1 litre but close to it la.. Tear abit here and there such got 1 litre bah... But this time i thought got special should cry... But than... I was laughting as i joked with Shi Sang lor... So stupid la... Never cry.... Like so wasted... It's like yes she is in pain... We pity her, so what... It's like when she dies she goes to hell which is more painful.. She suffers for eternity... Man.. So wasted... The last part i thought i was going to cry cause the last time i heard the diary being read i cried... This time only my eyes sting... LOL.. So far never cry... Maybe too long of watching shows and being online... Man... I'm gonna sleep... I have no strength liao... And say wanna play since 11 pm until now than finish.. It's like 2 hours la... What am i think... Ok.. go sleep.. nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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