The Forgotten Land

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Today was weird woke up from the late night chat with have after bible study... I was so brain dead i couldn't understand what everyone was saying... So i decided to head up and wash up before going to bed... Man... It's so stupid la... Sleeping in the same room as my sis.... It feels so kiddish... Anyway... Bro Nic was suppose to go for breakfast with Nah but somehow i feel bad for making him fetch me to the polyclinic... Man... I just took my blood test and they ask me to go back... Wanted to run back to church if i could get Nah but they went back already... So sad la... Miss morning service... Haiz... In the end say will go back in time but my mom say go eat breakfast first by the time i went back it was already 11 am... I'm late even before i left for church... So i decide to pass and go back to get my specs.... I totally forgotten to take it with me... It was funny...

Got addicted to this song... And decided to learn how to play on the piano... Anyway i'm reminded to go find the music scores now... Yeah so i'll make this entry a fast one... Went for service was like dead tired since i didn't get enough sleep... Yeah funny... Come to sermon i won't sleep but come to singing hymns... I just knock out man.. I can hold the hymn book and just KO for like 3 stanzer... Before changing hymns and than KO for another few rounds... Man... This is weird... Lucky managed to stay awake... And not completely KO and drop the hymn book...

When with Glenn to play the song i liked so much... But we failed... It was too hard to copy just by hearing the MP3... LOL... Went to Choir and oh well... Stupid la... Share your experience of what you want to say about how God bless you for last year... Super stupid la... If i ask you tell me what you want to say to your girlfriend.... It's like will you say your proposal to your girlfriend just like that ? LOL.... So i decided to make things up and kick up so crap... Yeah... Just touch abit about it here and there... Not fully... So yeah.. Crap... Totally not what i wanted to say... But oh well.. I don't take this kind of things seriously... Just make sure my service and my heart is where it suppose to be... Laughing and joking is ok... But when you present it's to God... You make sing out loud sing out proud... For God is looking... What is there is be frightened about ?

I have stagefright but when i'm up there... I know only one person is looking at me... And he is the only one i have to fear... I have to make him smile... I have to sing my best to make him just give a tear drop for me... That is all i ask... One small tiny tear drop from The Father... My Lord... That is all i ask... It will be better than any korean drama or japanese drama put together... If i could hear God say "Good Job" while patting my back... It will be worth more than all the praises i can get in this world...

To act stupid is the core to not revealing your true self... But cannot act stupid all the time on monday to friday must be as smart as possible... Adult must be serious... Don't play too much... It's not good... Anyway... I think i over did the stupid act today... I feel so much like a fool... Hopefully no feedback saying i'm not acting like a christian i'm just monkeying around in church... Man being with friends changes the whole mood to becoming wild... Guess i submit to peer pressure without myself knowing... That's bad... Really bad... Man... And i'm suppose to be the good example... Since all the older people are overseas at the moment leaving me in charge this is what i give them... Oh man... Well.. Joel is sure gonna give me a showdown if he hears of this... LOL... But don't worry i bet he isn't so bored as to find out about this.. LOL... But in the end i just can't lie to him... I'll just find out soon or later... I'll just keep slient... And wait... LOL... For him to go back... LOL... So evil.. Anyway...

Yeah... I'm bush ..... Man... It's so tiring... Maybe not coming to church tomorrow... gonna sleep like never before... Nitez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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Saturday, January 05, 2008