The Forgotten Land

Monday, February 18, 2008

Man i'm so pissed.... What the hell... What kind of project manager do i have ? She is so lousy at what she does man... I was thinking of a nice get away.. And now i have to work another week ? Why must work another 1 week when it's already been settled that i end this week ? Anyway i think i need to look for brother Nic to see if he has anything i can help him to do that i can use and present to the higher ups. Man... This is sick.. I fought with my boss over the date that i'm suppose to leave. I think she must be stunned since i never blown up before... But when she blows up and starts shouting the only way to counter back is to make her have nothing to say. It worked, so she was damn pissed with me that day. Childish... If you have the ability and walk straight you won't be so freaking scared.

She is a crap talker man... Since day one... Tolerating her rubbish is good enough but now she is delaying the day that i'm suppose to leave. What the hell is that gonna prove ? If you don't have the ability you don't have what it takes to be a leader. I will surpass you... Watch and see... Leaders admit their mistakes and improve on them.. Not cover their butts and run away during trouble. Asking others to solve your mistakes.

Anyway. Forgive and forget... I got Bro nic help and would be going to church this sat to see if i can install the programs needed... Thank God during my saddest moments when i'm down someone is there to talk to me... No thanks to my cousin... Man.. My sis doesn't have a bloody boyfriend la... You choose a bloody gossip instead of concern... LOL... Ok.. I've seen it all... God is my only hope... He hears and comforts me...

Talking with SS did help abit, although it what i know i should do but i just felt lost during that time... I never fought with a boss before.. How should i react ? I have no clue, what do i do from now on ? Have i worked so hard for nothing... Thanks R for the concern you really did help me out bro... LOL... But that won't change me from saying Jokes about races.... LOL... But you're a great help... Dun worry if i managed to borrow my dad's car... I'll take you to NUS... LOL... Maybe by then the project is over.... Hhahahahaha... Stupid la... If the management in TP didn't sux so much we are project buddies liao... I won't get stuck in such a stupid situation... Man... J was like ooo... Got scolded so good i want also cannot... Sian la... Is it really his IQ low or is he irritating me... So how i wanna kill him for that.... But cannot blame him.... He is rather ermm... LOL... Poor thing... Des was more like... Hey go smoke... When go drinking together... In fact he looks worst than when we last met... More like a drug addict... Damn it... Should have helped him longer... Haiz... The the friends i have got worst when i do not often meet them... Why ? I wonder...

After the prayer when my conversation was cut short with SS. It felt better... So i had a good night sleep and yep... Gone... I was having a nice long sleep. enjoying my late day... Yep... Nothing beats night shift. You got the night owl mode still switch on... LOL... Just like a holiday without the holiday part... LOL... What am i saying... Anyway... I sat on the bus after i woke up... And i remembered... What i missed out in my prayer... After so long of questioning... I finally got it. I was praying so hard... So that God will stay by my side aways.. I want to feel a strong presence of God.... I wanna shine as bright as the stars... And even stronger than the sun... I wanna be better than Moses... Better than Peter... I want to be the next person God loves the most. I didn't want to lose God.. I fear losing God.. I was overjoyed but i forgotten about God and had grown cold... That's why i'm not moving forward... Instead i'm taking 4 step backwards each day... why 4 steps backward if means death in chinese... I'm walking into the pool of death... The devils are treating me kindly to follow them... Thus i walk into the shadow of death... I find the life of sin easier for me to follow than the road of righteousness...

Many testi has already shown... Those with the HS might not go to heaven... We might fall... Anytime... Every step we take... Every move we make... But if you are scared of walking... To be serious... It might not sound nice but GIVE UP... If you are lazy... And do not wish to change... GIVE UP... Seriously God cannot help you if you do not wish to help yourself... Tahan.... Get your ring of health to boost your mind making you a healthy and strong willed person... And later get your void stone... Void off all the sins of this world and not follow it... When this two items combine you get perseverance to tahan the ways of this wicket world... That is the secret recipe to gaining your first step as a warrior in the battle for the Lord. If you want to know more about the items please ask Alvin... Thank you... I not a very good dota player anymore so ask him... See how gamers can relate to God through your god-light experiences... Ok gotta run... BB.

and the frost fell...
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