The Forgotten Land

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Yesterday was too tired to blog after coming home from work... So just came online and seek some entertainment by chatting with people until i sleep. Hmm... I wonder why i was so unwilling to blog. Yes all was as usual, the same history repeats itself. The guy is finding a way to escape to his benifits. I don't really give a damn already... Sometimes Nah's words are right... Dun care... Seriously don't care can make a person so happy at times... Just don't care... I can't go church.... I can't do anything by see as the sun set beyond the glass windows we have over at my working place... It's getting dull... I'm getting kinda bored with such an environment... Seriously dull... I wanna go on a holiday... Take leave and enjoy my holidays...

Just than hope arrived.. Ermm.. From today counting... It's 1 month 3 weeks and 2 days left before the holiday starts... LOL... The days are decreasing each day... So all i have to do is make my planning now and get it done ASAP... Finish my job and present to the people what we are doing... Graduate and get the bloody hell out of school.

Anyway sleeping in sermon is bad.. I deserve getting stoned for doing that 3 thrice last week... I need more sleep instead of forcing myself to do things and than sleep during sermons... I don't get to eat the full course meal that way... It's not helping my spirit grow at all... Somehow i need to wonder has the devil got a chain on my neck already ? It's one step to falling out of Church... It's bad the worldly things are getting to me... Is that what my parents have been telling me like donkey years ago ? The world will get you as you grow up... Such a sinful world... I can't say it hasn't gotten me... Look how long it took me to realize i have the HS ? It was so tiny as well.... Hard to hear... Even till now... So i can't say i have not sin... Maybe anger.... I'm not sure so far i managed to get out of sight with those Ah Ma wearing mini skirts so i'm safe from lust at the moment... Call them Ah Ma cause they are way older than me... Not pretty as well... LOL... OK... That's not the point... Anyway.... Anger is certainly a problem for me now... But i guess don't care is the solution... I'll not care... I'll not interact... I'll not do anything to talk to him... Since he just leave the place without telling anything... I'll not give a damn to him either...

Haiz... Why must i meet such stupid people... They really are a dread... If i work with friends i can understand... him... man.... I won't understand even if i could... Love your enemies.. I wonder how... God.. You are the best.. I wonder how you do things... Why must we eat that bloody fruit ? I think if i was adam... i will eat the fruit eventually... I can't stand temptation at my door steps... Either i cut the tree down and burn it away or else i'll just run to the other side of the garden to stay... Anyway... Either way is good... Get rid of the core and there will be nothing left... Why adam so lousy never realised that... Could he be a dumb m ? or a lazy i ? LOL... Speak of that... Hahaha... The bird park...

A bunch of i came to take a family photo... LOL... Serene was like saying so dark how to see ? I told her patience is the key, wait for the sola eclipse to end first before we start taking pictures again... LOL... When you see them eating burger and ketchup splashed out you can't help but wonder if they bite they hand by accident.. LOL... Anyway enough of that... it's getting boring repeating the same things over again... It's been like 5 years since i last enjoyed those jokes.. It's getting cold for me...

Anyway... Yesterday at work managed to get D to talk to me but it was doing dinner time so i didn't talk to D at all.. Man... Wanted to talk so much since we have not been talking to each other for some time again... Man... Sick... Oh well... I cannot remember why i sms k but i sms already and started moving on to age for some unknown reason.... Hmm.... Why did it stray off to that topic ? I wonder if my niece is the reason why i'm talking such crap now a days... I'm talking random questions and i'm not sure why i'm talking like that in the first place... I wasn't like this before... Why is there such a change ? What's worst i didn't know i had changed like that until recently people have been asking how we reach that topic... Man... This sux... I thinking if a trip to somewhere will cure my disease.... LOL... I gotta go on a holiday no matter what... Anyway for now... I'm going to work again... It's just so boring... I wanna a change of job... This is really not suiting me... I can't always stay quiet and do nothing... I wanna talk... I can't stand being caged up... Too slient is not my type... Too noisy at times it's irritating... Man... So i wonder what type of place suits me the most ? Business.. With all the drunken people around the place of sin where it has it's claws around your neck to fall from God ? What do i do ? If i keep thinking like this i won't even get a job... Man...Which job got the most holiday and allows a stable income to support the family ? Man... I wonder... The pleasures of being a kid...

S chatted with me online yesterday and woah what a dream... Man... I wonder how much she desires to get a job that is stable enough until she thinks that she is ready to get married... Anyway... Another S was busy with work so never talk to her much... Can't say i didn't try... LOL... But seriously i'm abit lost for words... I can't seem to chat with her anymore... LOL... Life... Friends come and go... So who is your true friend who you will still keep in contact till the day you die ? Friends from outside ? I find that hard accept... Church ... Yes .. Friends from birth certainly.... I've grew up with G, N and J. Ever since we were young... We were friends... LOL...Good old times... A has been added into the guild as well.. Hahahaha... Of course along the way some girls came in... In fact when S first try to butt into the group... She was always bullied... I wonder why.. but since i was young i didn't care... LOL.. So follow the rest bully her... I wonder what made my eyes glued with stamp to ask her out man... Hmm... But in the end... oh well..

Got another person to go out with instead... Man... It was not planned by me... Sabo by my friends... Made a bet that the person have to treat drinks if he cannot get the girl they pointed out... So we took turns... Man.. Why did it have to be me .... I hate my secondary life... Man full of sad memories.... Got hooked up with girls i had no feelings with and break up within certain time limit, when i start to have feelings for the person they just don't feel it... Got my parents phone stolen... Got my brand new CD player stolen... My CDs stolen... My bag stolen... Items in my pencil box stolen... Books stolen... Got my HP taken away by the vice principal cause the vibration sound was too loud.... Even my homework was stolen.... Man... And i should not have done my work if it were to be stolen... i got punished even after i worked all night for that piece of answer... I tried to understand how the hell to do the work some more... How much time taken to understand my work... And the teacher took it as a joke that it was stolen and punished me...

Sometimes i find that teachers are blind... Not all students are lazy.. Not everyone wishes to fail... It's just that you are bad at teaching and there is no way we can get good grades without trying different way of writting our answers and seeing results before we start to understand... Because the teacher don't give any bloody tuitions and they don't bother to help out saying that they are busy when they shake legs at the canteen... Man... Such teachers are lazy to the core.... Wonder how he managed to become principal... BaKa... Anyway... The past is the past... I see many of my teacher aging... They are growing old.. Don't shoot them since they are not in my life at the moment... At least i have some good memories of my secondary school. LOL... Cannot share lol... Men's secret... LOL... Super funny.... Ask ACT or Jim or ZX i'm sure they know... LOL... We talked like crazy over such stupid acts... LOL...

Oh yeah saw bern a few weeks ago... Man... he has gotten fat... Army now raising chickens already... Not men... How to cry i wonder... The food so good cannot complain lor... You tahan so much shit got good food to eat consider very good liao... Wanna cry is those work like shit and than get shit to eat lor... Those ones i find sad... Hopefully i don't get into such units... If not i die like crazy... Haiz... Nevermind la... Painful memories can be beautiful as well...

2 years of death is not as bad as a life time of being a slave to your boss... Yep... Money is hard to earn.... Haiz... Oh well.. Got to go for work already... Byez...

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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