The Forgotten Land

Monday, July 14, 2008

Before i talk about church i wanna talk about outside stuff first. Sorry i didn't meet up with you XY. I had some problems i need to solve these few days i'll make it up to you. And i'll go for your dance. No need to tag my blog. Offline message me. I'll get to see it faster. Err... As for your dancing performance i think you sms me la. I dunno when i will be free la. So see how.

ZW... LOL... Dun cry la. You beat me for like 2 rounds before i dominated the game what oh by the way i can read your moves and i think you can read mine as well. LOL. Oh yeah thanks for the new trademark move. I'll use it from now on before i dominate you. Hahahaha. ZX you are the one person who's mind i cannot read when playing pool. I really cannot understand your moves.

Err... And please KZ... No i'm not gonna make the game more easy. I tried to play as noob liao but the game too long i cannot take it need to dominate the game. WY... soon la. See when got time play pool with you.

Shar this friday play remind me to wear the correct cloths to play soccer thank you. Benz i think you should sleep. Working and playing plus studying will kill ok. Tone down man, it's cool. Even if i enter army still got sun to go out one. Chill.

L thanks for talking to me the past few days. Although mostly is your troubles i'm solving. Should be the other way around la. I'm the one who needs comfort.

Byez Sun and Glenn. Gone to army on the same day but dunno each other. I'll miss you Glenn no one to hang out with for the next few weeks. But sun when you book pls remind me to strangle you. I fell asleep waiting to eat the last dinner with you man. Too much sia. Call and sms also dun reply.

B when i talk to you i feel depress as well. Cheer up man. There is always hope. Don't give up. I'm trying my best not to give up as well. Death will come naturally, do not try to kill yourself. Nobody will miss you because you died to make the person have your attention for one last time. Live on, create your own world. Don't bother about others they can be an ass for all they one. Nobody can stop you in your path. Walk on. I'll contact you as soon as got game on sat or sun so we can all meet up and play pool. Dun be an ass hor, we used to fight one another but now grow up liao dun scold own people la. Now to be the parent.

ZC stop playing so much games. Go study. Exams coming. I free you are not. I dun need to go school you need. So i'll stop maple for awhile hoping you will stop as well until the dec holidays. But by then i think i need to go army. So dun get so addicted. Ok now towards the topic on church.

To think i won't be missed in church... I didn't know the people i knew as friends really do care. I was thinking it's another thing where people tend to hack care. But why me only ? I guess i'm lucky. 2 years of not hanging out with each other but still the care is there. If Dn D also ask me why not coming to sembawang went malaysia for a trip ?

Family problems getting worst. V ask me to talk to someone i trust and feel comfortable with. But i dun want to burden them with this trouble. I feel like screaming out like mad. I hear the truth but choose to deny it. I just want to tear this page in my life apart but i don't want to make matters worst. Sometimes pressure can drive a person crazy. And i guess i'm going crazy soon. Going to adam all the time. Leaving my duties.... My name has been blanked for sometime now. I fear if i go sembawang i might miss something. And i may live to hate myself for the rest of my life. I fear once i go army and i'm not there, what the hell will happen ? How the hell am i going to do anything ? My freedom is gone, my life might become like hell. I fear so i want to change my fate before it happens. Change the future before i become the future.

So choose the red pill or the blue pill. It's all about choice. So what now. What will i choose ? And will i want to continue on with that road ? If i choose the wrong one... It's game over. Talk cork with Nah for awhile about dreading our life for the next 50 to 60 year. Hahaha. Funny. Stuffing ourselves with food so we die of heart attack. Or plan to die early scheme, invest in eating lard all the days of your lives and earn an early death. Hahaha. Some times i want to crap but no mood to crap. Miss the good old days, but things have to change for certain.

I've made many mistakes in my life and i'm not gonna make anymore of them. Rely on God..... How do i do that ? I have not done it before.... The only time i really begged him and ask him was for the HS... Nothing else. Not my life, not my grades, not anything... I used my hands to do things but God helps most of the time without me asking. It may work out right at times. It might not. This time if i make a mistake a life is at stake. I wonder... How long more do i have time to blog. Before all this life is gone... Before life itself becomes a program where you run the program over and over again. Anyway. Yeah. Forget it. Dun want to say anymore. Nitez.

and the frost fell...
those glassy crystal orbs... Shannon left a note @
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